How can you look at this and NOT know EXACTLY what is going on?
He or she is UPSET....
I felt like this today.
I was in prayer for a meeting I had later in the day. I was wanting to HEAR from God - so specifically, that I 'fasted' chocolate and lunch.
Women who LIVE on Chocolate will understand -- this basically meant that I was CAFFINE free for a day and even though I knew I was fasting that food group....and I spent extra time in prayer....I STILL felt like this little babe...
And I took it out on a few for a moment or two....
And I wanted to CUSS....
When the scripture says, "out of the heart the mouth flows"...yep....I wanted to CUSS. Just Saying.
God knew.
And I literally had forgotten at that moment when I wanted to scream that ....it was JUST a caffeine withdrawal. Just a side effect. Not the enemy trying to MESS with me.....
But HE was faithful and I 'made' it....without anyone having to go to the hospital...but there were tears involved with one student - I will do my apology tomorrow....
And a few people had to BEAR with me and listen to my venting....you have to understand -- FCAT is AROUND the corner ...that 'pressure' is beginning to build!
I SAID all of that to say this...
GOD is our power in our weakness. There is a verse for that. SWORD words...
2 Corinthians 12:9
English Standard Version (ESV)
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
God's power in my weakness. I need to memorize this. And next time ...recite this verse at my student ...not get frustrated.
My meeting went VERY well...I LOVE being a listening ear to a woman who has prayed it out with God and just needed someone to remind her -- HE has this.
I was humbled that she felt I was "wise "....I really am not -- like I said...I want God's best for her too -- as I do believe as she obeys HIM....and walks in faith....HE will change the mountain or MOVE it...she is already doing what HE has asked of her...and that is to believe and NOT give up......
And I got to pray with another and use God's word for that 'perfect' prayer...a prayer of promises...Psalm 25 ...we can TRUST HIM...HE won't let our enemies put us to shame!
And after thinking I was not making ANY impact on my students....I got a nice reminder at dinner that -- I am a good teacher....
And... even when the enemy wanted me to have a panic attack ( won't elaborate on that issue ) within 10 minutes of thoughtful prayer and meditation on HIM and a good laugh -- all was WELL!
In fact -- better than well - blessed.
I am going to memorize that SWORD Word -- be En Guarde....
God's power in my weakness. I need to memorize this. And next time ...recite this verse at my student ...not get frustrated.
My meeting went VERY well...I LOVE being a listening ear to a woman who has prayed it out with God and just needed someone to remind her -- HE has this.
I was humbled that she felt I was "wise "....I really am not -- like I said...I want God's best for her too -- as I do believe as she obeys HIM....and walks in faith....HE will change the mountain or MOVE it...she is already doing what HE has asked of her...and that is to believe and NOT give up......
And I got to pray with another and use God's word for that 'perfect' prayer...a prayer of promises...Psalm 25 ...we can TRUST HIM...HE won't let our enemies put us to shame!
And after thinking I was not making ANY impact on my students....I got a nice reminder at dinner that -- I am a good teacher....
And... even when the enemy wanted me to have a panic attack ( won't elaborate on that issue ) within 10 minutes of thoughtful prayer and meditation on HIM and a good laugh -- all was WELL!
In fact -- better than well - blessed.
I am going to memorize that SWORD Word -- be En Guarde....
I cant believe you could ever doubt your ability as a teacher. Hello you are that teacher that turned education into a goal at being good at for Kimberly. Her scholarship is a part of your effort to. You spend more time with our children then most parents spend with them so know you are a great teacher n an amazing example of a true sister in Christ n am ever so grateful that your roller coaster ride has made it a blessing in my life today. Thank you
ReplyDeleteAwe, thank you Monika! You are one of those parents -- you both were ...when I had Kim...that made me want to keep teaching. Parents like you are few and far between now days -- and the 'fruit' is in the child....thanks!
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