Prayers for a Sister in Crisis in Christ #30 - Scary Prayers

Today I was reminded that God asks us to pray.  And Lisa Bevere has challenged me before -- to pray  those scary prayers.

So, I have not done this in a long while....I am just going to publish my prayers this eve -- and I am going to pray BIG...SCARY prayers...that makes SATAN sit up and take notice and I am going to believe that  HIS will ....will be done!  

Lord, first of all, thank you for the chance to pray ....thank you for the miracles that  You have bestowed...and thank you for continually interceding for me, for my family and for others.  

I praise You Lord for  everything -- and thank you for continually loving me.  

I pray GRACE big over each and every one of my family, my circle of friends, and  those that read this. 

I pray that they would show YOUR mercy to those around them and  to those that YOU bring close. 

Lord, I come to you for my church and its family -- Lord, that my pride and sense of competition not overwhelm and overtake...that I empty myself of me and fill me with YOU...that YOUR will be done within ALL that we do there...and all that I post or say on FB or in the public eye...I want to make YOU famous and I want to be YOUR servant.    I want to make sure that You are proud of me and that speak when YOU say to speak and I hold my tongue when I need to as well.  

Lord, I pray for the financial blessing upon my church -- Lord, that the people   would tithe and believe that YOU are indeed their Lord.   Lord, that their resources increase, that their jobs become more secure and that with that blessing they will honor you.  Lord, that  spiritual  pride  not  creep in.  Lord that materialistic stuff not overcome.     Lord, that they don't cheat you out of anything.   Lord -- that they would submit everything to You.  

Lord, I pray for the Youth within the church, the Youth within the city of Okeechobee and this generation right now that will see even more wonders and signs. That this generation be open to YOUR harvest.  Lord, I pray for the 'details' that have to be fixed, planned, and sorted out as we continue to grow.  May the DNA of the church really be - HIS Church -- YOURS... Ours...that it is nothing like ever before -- that people will see YOU within.  

Lord I pray for all the teachers...workers...and people that I work with each day -- that they seek You, that they call YOUR name.  

Lord, for my students, my children, and my family ...that as it says in Jeremiah .....that YOUR plans  - plans to prosper them and not harm..... be fulfilled.  

Lord, for my sister in Christ - the one that this series of blogs began for -- hold her, love on her, help her  -- Help her see the 'why' in the present situation and  hold onto her marriage or release her/it...

Lord, for the marriages.... as I sit here - there are several plus several more  that I can name in crisis.... it does not matter if it is her or him....  I still see EACH of them as YOURS.  Some of levels of faith in You, others really need salvation.....  Lord,   I will still believe that each of them can be restored.  Period.  I am 'scared' to claim it - as even as I  type, one is so close to the final paperwork...but I claim the heavens to part open and send healing to each and every person within them!!  

 

Lord, for the next  Encounter Weekend in March.  Continue to guide and direct me - show me BIg stuff.  Prepare hearts now.  

Lord, for hurting hearts...there are many I know, lakdfl;aksdjfladkjfaldkfja;ldkjfa;lsdkfjadlkfjasl;dkfjsdlkfjad;lfkja;lsdkfjsd;lfjasdlkfjsdlkfj   

 -- there I listed them all........  heal, comfort, and give them a sign to HOLD on.  

Lord, I believe in BIG things.  Lord, I know my grandchildren will serve You.  Lord, I believe You , I believe in You.  I believe in BIGGER things...I believe in BIGGER dreams...  I believe YOU want to do even MORE within us and around us.... USE me Lord..

I  pray for my man - God - that each cell within him - cries to YOU and honors you -- that his eyes remain ON You, that his thoughts are YOUR thoughts and bless him Lord in such a way for this 'stepping out in faith' ...out of his comfort zone in hosting this marriage conference.  Thank you Lord, for this blessing.  I remember when this curriculum was advertised - and it was a dream to 'do it' ..and now..YOU have brought this forth - 

Lord, we don't want to 'not' say what YOu want us to say ..and yet, we don't want to say WHAT  You want us to hold within.... but USE us Lord -  as we seek Your Spirit and as we Trust You ....  

Lord, I want more of Your gifts.  Lord, I want to see a miraculous healing within my circle...I want to be more effective for YOU ...I want to share YOUR gospel without fear.   Lord, I want to be Your obedient servant.  Lord, I WANT a house too -- soon -- sooner than later.  

And Lord, I want that hunger within me to never leave.....   

We know YOU have this and YOU have our back..Thank you Lord. 

IN Jesus name...amen.  

Prayer #28 - For a Sister in Christ in Crisis -- God will break open the skies.

Lord, as I rode into work today the sunrise was so spectacular and it opened my eyes.  And Lord, I saw a similar sky as I drove home...in the beginning of the sunset.

  Lord, YOU  blessed a song, "HE'll break open the skies....and save those that cry out HIS  name".  I thought of that, over and over and sang that song in my head today....YOU do break open the skies....YOUR word says that YOU don't want anyone to perish......I am just amazed that YOU love us that much. 

 I remember back  - seven years ago  when I had a vision of you, on that horse and you bent down and scooped me up...and placed me on the horse in front of you.  That scooping motion was so real. I could see and and feel it. And then, YOU gave me another vision of that BRIGHT yellow light - YOUR light.  I remember it being so clear and yet so bright that I wanted to look away but I didn't.  And it only lasted a few seconds, but there was such a peace and warmth with it.

 Then later in that  summer, when I listened to and read the story about Todd Burpo's son...it just all came together and I really believed that I had been privileged enough to experience that yellow - YOUR light and then  that warmth.  It is a vision and a feeling that I will never forget.  I don't share that with too many as some may not believe it is true - but I do.  I used to think all that sort of stuff was just 'freakish' but now, YOU power and how you work is such a mystery and YOU make real things happen.  I see you Lord, as the warrior on the horse, coming in to rescue me.  


Lord, today  the women that are on my prayer list need miracles, but mostly - they just need to be reminded that YOU have not forgotten them.  But today, I am adding another one to my list.  I have prayed for her often and  in different circumstances but today, there was a prayer request -- it is a hard one.  Lord, her son may see you and Jesus this evening or maybe tomorrow -- I don't have words.  I have tears...and PRAY that Your divine intervention would create a miracle to stop his present medical condition which is causing hospice to be called in.   But I trust you and his mom trusts you too -- be ever present in her head and heart today and her husband's.  IN Jesus name, Amen. 

Prayers for one in Crisis -- #29 -- Guarding your Time

Guarding time to be with your spouse is so important.  When we were going through some major therapy and counsel, Dr. Connie  asked us ...'what do you both like to do for fun?'.    We answered and yet, that really did not change much.

We enjoyed some common activities but that seemed to be the 'same old stuff'.  She encouraged us to figure out something new.   So -----Harley motorcycle -- here we come.    The thrill of  try something new.  The thrill of doing it together.  And then each of us had to learn and then pass our cycle test -- and get it endorsed on our driver's license.  That was the start of some ...new fun.


And I thought about HOW the enemy continues to distract and steal away.    The enemy is consistent in trying to destroy and when a woman or sister in Christ  is in a crisis...reliving old memories hurt and can bring shame and condemnation.

 But, I  write this blog with the focus on guarding your time ---having that time with a loved one - your husband is good --- in my story -- my husband became my idol so long ago and my time with God was edged out. 

I truly believe that if you are guarding your time with God...having your quiet time with him, even if it is only for 10 minutes a day --  that you are already AHEAD of the game...by 200%!   Guarding and setting aside time to sit with God...listen to God...sing with God... and reading His Love Letter....is so vital and important.

If that does not 'seem' easy -- pray about HIM carving out the time for it.  HE will.  He wants Your attention.   Pray to crave HIS Word.  Pray to WANT to read His Word.

Please do it now and believe He will....I pray it won't take a major crisis or hurt to make you grow up with the Lord.  Please don't be me.....

I remember walking back to my hotel room after a Living Proof Live Event  ( Almost 20 years ago) with two dear women and stating out loud to myself and to them..."I want to have that LOVE of God's Word like Beth does".  And I could hardly sleep and wanted to grow deeper with God.  And I started too -- and I did a bit -- but, then as I written before  -- I allowed the business of this world, the lies of Satan, and my own 'success' detour me and dictate my actions.  And, I allowed my own 'religious self-righteousness' to take over and the enemy used that spirit of religion to distract me -- and keep me in a stronghold.

Do I think my life would of been different if I would of been spiritually mature at that point? -- YES.  But I was not.

However, as a sweet  dear friend  and I were chatting on Sunday, the Holy Spirit spoke and reminded me -- God knew.

And so I declared: "if it was OK for God to know and allow....then why would I question or even feel shame and regret for what I did not see and know back then..."       WOW!  Such liberty in that revelation.

"IF it was OK for God to allow me those 38 years of being a former idiot...cause HE knew that by the time I was 44...I would TRULY get it...  then it is good for me too! ".

If it is good enough for God -- then it is good enough for me!  

Again...  God knew and heard my prayer back in 1998...  God knew the potential...God allowed  the years of my wandering in the desert...God allowed the hurt....and God has walked us through the repentance, the redemption and the restoration.....So I won't look back and say, "if I had only known..."


I tease often -- "it was easier being single".  I was "single" for 6 months.  I did not have to make the bed, did not have to worry about supper -- and there is freedom in that.  However, after I tease about that -- I remember almost every night in bed alone and in tears...hugging my bible and asking God to relieve the pain.  

Now, I know there are many hurting women out there - waiting on a man -- but I pray it is only waiting on that someone to do life with and ministry with - as Jesus has to be OUR MAIN man.  But...as I say that - I realize there are many out there -- waiting on their husband  to return home for one reason or another ....hang in there -- allow God to fill that void.



So with that -- I pray --


Lord, I got a bit personal again -- but, I believe that being real on this blog and being transparent before You and others is something you have called me to do.  For some reason Lord, I can write and tell ....and it helps.  Lord, You have seen the couples we are praying for and You have heard our cries -- as there are many hurting -- but today Lord, I pray that the wives of these men are guarding their time with You and I pray their hearts are being open to WHAT you wish to communicate to them as wives...mothers...and daughters of  YOU.  Lord, for their men -- who are being selfish, arrogant, disobedient, and immoral...God -- give them the peace that YOU are working within their hearts.  

HOLD these women, or give them the peace to move forward.  You know Lord, that  I want families whole and reunited...but in all of that -- it is them  -- they -- those that will stand before YOU one on one and each will be held accountable.  Lord for the ones you have placed on my heart and asked me to stand in the gap for.......Lord, I stand.  

Lord, for my own husband...   I pray that as he continues to seek you, read your word, and listen to You -- it will just blossom and grow and overflow into our lives...our marriage, and into our fun.  Lord, for his eyes -- may they always watch for You.  Lord, for his ears, that they only hear You.  Lord, for his steps...that they  stay on that path towards You.  I take nothing for granted Lord, it was You who opened the eyes...You who brought beauty out of ashes...  it was You Lord in strengthening my heart...and You who gets the glory.  

Lord, I want that for the many around me and the ones that read this that do not even know of me.  I WANT that for all of Your children... for my parents...for my siblings and their spouses...for my children and their spouses... God I want that -- use me Lord, but don't allow me to self-destruct in the meantime... God I don't want my work for you to overtake -- and I forget WHAT is right in front of me.  

Lord, thank you for the blessing of my sisters in Christ  and how You use them  to inspire these blogs,  used them to teach me many of your concepts over the years, and how You use them to give me affirmation ---the affirmation I needed to hear from YOU -- in YOUR perfect timing, at the perfect time and for the perfect reason.  To show and remind me -- that ALL this time -- YOU have held me.  So therefore, I can share that with another troubled whose faith  is weak -- nothing is wasted Lord. 
 

Lord, I am humbled.  Period.  Lord, I am humbled...... humbled....  humbled...and grateful.  


Lord, for the one who thinks I hate her today -- God, orchestrate our lives and soften the heart -- as I don't, but show me what I can change and do -- so this NEVER happens again.  Lord, for the one who has taught me a whole new side of forgiveness... 

Lord, specifically for the one who is healed of cancer -- I believe YOU will use her and her husband to speak of YOUR faithfulness..to speak of your gifts...and to speak of the power of marriage...and the power of prayer of a husband over a wife....

And Lord for the ones who think they are 'cool'...and on the right path cause they showed up.  Or Lord for the new ones like me that thought -- they were 'perfect' in  your eyes... as they walk out this wilderness -- give me the patience to wait on YOU -- and not judge or want to SMACK them... 

Lord, for the future of these blogs.....  show me how and when to write - that it is not a time waster nor does it become an idol.  I am sick of idols.  Lord -- You are first.  Bren is 2nd...  my kids are 3rd and the ministry you have given me is 4th...and I know that -- help me to keep it all in perspective.  Lord, empty me of me......fill me with You -- 

But before I finish - I pray for THAT one who has inspired this series of 40 days of prayers for a sister in Christ in crisis --   Lord, sustain her today.  Hold her -- as much has happened and yet there is MUCH to come -- In Jesus name.  
amen.  

Prayer #27 - Prayers for a Sister in Christ - in Crisis - The Gate is Narrow.

A Warning

²¹ Not everyone who calls me their Lord will get into the kingdom of heaven. Only the ones who obey my Father in heaven will get in. ²² On the day of judgment many will call me their Lord. They will say, “We preached in your name, and in your name we forced out demons and worked many miracles.” ²³ But I will tell them, “I will have nothing to do with you! Get out of my sight, you evil people!”

 That scripture is from Matthew - chapter 7.  Chapter seven has that famous passage about Judging others but it is also filled with other treasures and wisdom from God through Jesus. 

Today, I watched and watched again  a message by Pastor Robert Morris about our Spiritual Birth.  Not to get technical or debate a bunch on this blog but it really HIT me and made me rethink several points, views I treasure, and it made me search the scripture to see WHAT I believe in and HOW that stands up with God's Word. 
 
 But anyway....  the scripture above is what I want to  comment on -- 

The words "But I will tell them, "I will have nothing to do with you!  Get out of my sight, you evil people".  In the NIV version it says, "I never knew you".  

"I never knew you".  

Jesus isn't speaking to those that walked an aisle and loved and served God and then walked away  -- but what if He is?  Maybe He never knew you.  

I don't feel Jesus was speaking to those  who grew up in the church and knew they have Loved Him since they were a child --- but what if He is?   Maybe He never knew you. 

 God's Word states he is speaking to THOSE who have CALLED Him Lord -- that is many of us.  And yet, He says -- 

I never knew you.     And as you read the rest of that chapter, Jesus speaks about the narrow Gate -- to enter heaven-- and clearly shows us through scripture that MORE will be in hell than heaven.  The gate is wider for those going astray than those with eternal life.  

That struck me.  Even the one will say, " but Lord, I did this in your name and that in your name...."   And Jesus still says, "depart - I never knew you".  

Heaven has an entrance exam.  It is JOhn 3

 Now there was a Pharisee, a man named Nicodemus who was a member of the Jewish ruling council. ² He came to Jesus at night and said, “Rabbi, we know that you are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the signs you are doing if God were not with him.”
³ Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.^[a]”
⁴ “How can someone be born when they are old?” Nicodemus asked. “Surely they cannot enter a second time into their mother’s womb to be born!”
⁵ Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit. ⁶ Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit^[b] gives birth to spirit. ⁷ You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You^[c] must be born again.’ ⁸ The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”^[d]
9 “How can this be?” Nicodemus asked.
¹⁰ “You are Israel’s teacher,” said Jesus, “and do you not understand these things? ¹¹ Very truly I tell you, we speak of what we know, and we testify to what we have seen, but still you people do not accept our testimony. ¹² I have spoken to you of earthly things and you do not believe; how then will you believe if I speak of heavenly things? ¹³ No one has ever gone into heaven except the one who came from heaven—the Son of Man.^{[e] 14} Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the wilderness, so the Son of Man must be lifted up,^{[f] 15} that everyone who believes may have eternal life in him.”^[g]

There is birth with flesh -- being born from a womb from our mother and there must be a spiritual birth.  

Satan believes in God and knows Jesus  is King of Kings but Satan is not going to heaven.  
He would not submit.  

The verse speaks about THOSE that did wonders for the Kingdom and yet...Jesus said, "depart, I never knew you".   Doesn't that make you think? 

So, if Jesus can say "depart" to those that were serving and doing their best and being in church and so forth....what do you expect Him to those that have never served Him, never sought Him or never submitted to Him? ?????

It is popular to say God is love.  God is the action word love.   God is just.  God is the creator and God is God.  

To think that we can "dumb" God down so that He will 'accept me' .... or cause I don't believe I am evil compared to others....  that is just me trying to FIGURE stuff out.  When in reality -- we HAVE the Word to rely on and seek for answers.  

It clearly says -- there must be a spiritual birth.  Period.   

I questioned my own spiritual birth after watching this message.  And I knew when I totally submitted to Christ -- 

A baby grows in a womb before it is born.  It develops.  No baby is born 10 hours after conception -- as I said, he or she has to develop.  While that baby develops there is much growth.  

I truly believe that if you had watched me from age 20-38 -- you would of seen a developing baby.  I did a lot in the name of Jesus.  I prayed with others, I lead bible studies ...but it wasn't until I was about 38 when I began to submit....to Jesus.  I began to see His Word in a whole new way.  So, that is when Christ moved in and I began to change.  It was a slow process and I believe the Lord knew exactly when to 'turn up the heat' as His Kingdom Calendar was in place -- but I wonder how many other people are perhaps still in that womb ..... and have not had that spiritual birth that Jesus speaks about in John3.  



Lord, this blog is for a sister in Crisis and yet, this eve -- I just have  shared my heart about spiritual birth or being born again.  I believe that there are many around me that maybe need to reexamine and determine if they know that they know -- there has been a spiritual birth and a total submitting to You - but only she can answer that with You.  

So tonight -- as with anyone that is reading this, I pray they will seek this scripture our and deal with You this evening God and know that they know.  I pray they will not be one of those You refer to in vs. 23.  IN Jesus name, AMEN  
 

Prayers for a Sister in Crisis in Christ - #26 -- It is all relative.

This may be a very short blog -- very "unnatural" for me.  However as many of us awoke today, the news of a mass shooting grabbed our attention and was in our thoughts all day.

As I went to school, I prayed for the families...the moms who knew their child was there and the fear and wonder for so many.  Then as word set in there were 20+ that died and by 6:45 am- 50+ died.

I believe this evening -- the count is 59.....   sad.  Evil.  We are living in times of great glory and great gore.  Much elation and much pure despair.

Today as I spoke to God about many on my prayer list and as I prayed -- I couldn't help but think -- there but for the grace of God go I.

So today, it is a simple prayer --


Lord, our hurts are many but tonight, we put our requests aside and seek prayers and lift all the families touches by the events in Los Vegas.  
Lord, may justice be served, may answers be found out, and may peace come to those that are struggling with the images and the after affects.  Lord, Only YOU can comfort the comfortless and only YOU can hold a mother as she grieves or a wife as she grieves.  Lord, may Your goodness come forth in this and may others see the Goodness of You in those that first responded.   

IN Jesus name, amen.  



 This prayer was placed on FB this evening and it is being shared -- I think it was a good prayer as well...

Prayers #25 - Prayers for a Sister in Christ in Crisis - Does he get it?

What keeps coming into my head is today....

Does he realize WHAT he is giving up?

Does he get it Lord?  Will you please SEND him another man to speak to him and REMIND him of what he is missing? 

And I thought of my own experience and the nights I would lay awake and ask God....


Does he realize WHAT he is giving up?

Does he get it Lord?  Will you please SEND him another man to speak to him and REMIND him of what he is missing?

Lord, would you PLEASE have another speak to him  -- and shout at him, "what the hell were you thinking?".....

And then, Lord, please send him someone to speak life into him....

I mean, at first I had a lot of anger, then sadness, and then finally release  and then forgiveness...but my human flesh  wanted a PERSON fighting for me....the verse from Exodus 14.14,  which I quote often, God will fight for me, I need only be still.....WAS JUST NOT pleasing my flesh.

It is a process and I had to walk through it -- thankfully God was right there each and every moment.
But God is always there and HE knows everything -- HE never leaves us, it is us that leave Him.

And I know now God did send the right people to him and some of them did ask him..what are you thinking?

So tonight's prayer  for that one who is believing with me that after these 40 days of prayers -- there is going to be some sort of light shed upon this situation or there will be some closure or even some new awareness of what is next-- but there will be something as indeed, God is not still -- He is fighting for her - daily - moment by moment.  

 Lord, we are at Day #25...  I am standing on Your promises and have proclaimed that these 40 days of written prayers for this precious sister in Christ are bringing forth answers, comfort, and even shedding light to others.  Today I thought of "him".  I realize You have kept him from the path of myself and even my husband as he is about ready to speak to him and say, "what are you thinking".....but You reminded me of Your grace.  

Grace -- how You extend it to me so often -- and my pride causes so much that I am back on my knees again, seeking Your forgiveness.  It is ONLY You who can save and fix.... forgive me Lord.  
 
Today in church, I released a WHOLE bunch again -- various burdens as I  was obedient and cast my cares Upon You Lord......  You will see the victory in these.   Even if her marriage does end....there has been great victory as she is no longer someone who just loved You Lord and served....she NOW lives for You, Loves You and wants to continue to serve You Lord in any capacity You create for her.   She is closer to You now that she has ever been.  She is different and she is in Your Book of Life and there will be many rewards in heaven.  

Bless her faithfulness Lord, may she find continued peace -- knowing that You are in control.  Lord, I know that Your word say, EVERY knee will bow and confess You as Lord -- so I pray that tonight - anyone else reading this knows and understands that concept and that they are submitting to You and being obedient - in every way.  

In Jesus name, Amen!

#24 Prayers for a Sister in Christ in Crisis - Accomplishment through difficulty!

Inspired by  Jesus Calling  -     

"When you are plagued by a persistent problem - one that goes on and one - view it as a rich opportunity... like a tutor who is always by your side. Ask Me to open your eyes and your heart to all that I am accomplishing through this difficulty."    ( December 18th devo)

I go to the gym, I used to have a personal trainer to maximize my effort.  As long as I am teachable and consistent  -- my health should benefit.   Now that I no longer pay her to work out, I must be disciplined enough to continue what we have started.  When I fail to be consistent -- my muscles quickly remind me that they CRAVE this consistency and I ignored something -- 

 
The same is true for us spiritually. 

2 Corinthians 4:17--- tells us that we are in an ongoing workout where the troubles of today are producing an "eternal weight of glory." 

Every trial, affliction or trouble we shoulder today can actively build eternal muscle for us in eternity!

In faith, I must thank God for the problem.  And, being consistent in going to HIS Word for everything is a must.  When I don't -- my body CRAVES....my head and thoughts CRAVE a more closeness to HIM that can only come with some quality time with Him.  

Last night, one of my Pastor's reminded me that God's love language expressed to me is quality time....  HE wants my time.  

 
The "eternal weight of glory" we will one day achieve comes through a commitment to be spiritually fit and faithful in the demands and disciplines of daily life. Being "grateful for a problem" changes us.

 Spending the time needed helps build my faith, and the problems become 'nothing'.  I see it through different eyes.  


Isaiah 30: 20-21 says Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more: with your own eyes you will see them.  Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you , saying, "this is the way: walk in it".


This  photo is, one of the last times I saw my grandmother -- I was 48 then.  Almost four years ago.    She went to heaven back on New Year's Eve in 2014.  

She made the best meals and bologna sandwiches that I would crave.  Her cookies, her drumsticks in the freezer, even her homemade applesauce -- all items and memories that I would crave as a kid and now --  reminisce those  memories and think that in heaven, there will be more --


I reminded myself of her today.   This past weekend I had some awesome memories created.  I set out to create those memories.   Or I tried to create memories for my grand-daughter.  We are beginning a few traditions with her and it is a riot that she remembers and "SEEKS" those rituals.  

For example, one of them is the "birthday song".  Taylor's Grandpa  ( Lowell) would do it with them as a kid and now, my husband continues the tradition with Ava Lynne.  It is just a silly song to sing but the child is on his knees and then he 'drops' her at a surprised moment.  

 I thought about that and prayed that she would CRAVE some of my traditions, my thoughts, and my company and I prayed she would CRAVE Jesus too.  I am  so humbled that God has allowed me this time and this opportunity.  








Right now there are some women craving a better thing or relationship, or just some closure -- but within this adversity -- but praise God that we know -- God says.."walk this way".  

It is training us for eternity -- don't give up.  


Lord, for the one reading this -- may she understand --- the rewards will come in eternity.  I pray she continues as her tutor is at her side -- YOU Lord... IN Jesus name.  Amen.