When you hurt -When I hurt -- Psalm 25

When you really hurt --  don't you just want others to hurt too?
Let's be honest -- I want to have a good tantrum at times - today would be one of them -- but too many will judge ----

Did they see the sleepless nights?
 Did they notice you fasted - sacrificially for more than 24 hours?
Do they realize -- that you are hurting too?
Did they realize I am just as spent or hurt or frustrated??
Lord -- rescue ---


When God has asked me to do something and be 'somebody' to another and I did not -- that was disobedience and I knew it.  However, HE forgave me and moved on - to a time and place when HE knew I would not decline the invitation again. he knew I would speak truth and intercede with prayer.

This time and place is hard though -- it is not that easy. 

And, I don't like being in that place -- its a place that I have no control over.
It is a place where at times, I am in pins and needles -- waiting.  
It is a place where I must wait. And wait in silence, believing that my Savior is fighting for me!
It is a place where ONLY true wisdom and comfort can come from above -- for both sides from both sides. 


It sucks.
I want to cry and scream so loudly that someone will notice -- but HE reminds me -- I am beyond that -- I know the goodness of the Lord, and I have seen it -- so HE asks me to wait.


In the meantime, in the God time.....  why can't there just be chocolates on my bed and the covers turned down?

Why can't there be a dozen roses being delivered right now -- so I know that I know -- I did not mess up God's plans --??

Why can't it be like a soap opera or drama where the commercial breaks and when you return, the right party is there in the back groud and hears the dialog and then apologizes or brings in the HERO to save the day....?  

And why can't Satan and his helpers just leave my thoughts alone for one day? 

And why, can't I see  BEYOND "it" at the present moment?
 It is cause of my flesh -- Right?

Right?
Right!

So, I turn to God's Word -- for me.  

Psalm 25^[a]

Of David.

¹ In you, Lord my God,
    I put my trust.   I don't trust myself --   ONLY YOU...speak --I must 'them' through God --

² I trust in you;
    do not let me be put to shame,
    nor let my enemies triumph over me.  It certainly seems that you had some angels that fell asleep on the job -- and they have banded together to just leave me hanging...here.....  I need to know that I am still the apple of YOUR eyes -- as I am not that apple in others right now --
³ No one who hopes in you
    will ever be put to shame,
but shame will come on those
    who are treacherous without cause.  You see Lord, this verse is not too good -- as I want 'bad stuff' to happen to those evil ones.  There are many evil ones, but what about the ones that just mock and curse you ??   They seem to get to have their point stated and mourned...and I must be quiet .....  And while I am at it Lord,    I want the forsaken to be redeemed -- sooner than later, it is not happening fast enough, then again, that is my opinion-- and I want the righteous   to win....  I will take comfort in the fact that your Word does promise you will fight our battles  and that nothing is a surprise for You, but Lord, could you let me in on some of your actions?  --

⁴ Show me your ways, Lord,
    teach me your paths.
⁵ Guide me in your truth and teach me,
    for you are God my Savior,
    and my hope is in you all day long.   My HOPE has to be in you -- but of late, I put some hope into some others -- people....they will always fail me and they did -- forgive me Lord, help me to move beyond what I hope and see as 'their solution' to WHAT YOUR solution is -- as I know it will be BETTER than what I could of ever imagined and it will be YOUR best...no what I thought was best.  

Forgive me Lord, for trying too hard -- Temper my passion with patience... I need YOUR divine intervention Lord, as I admit - I am very needy today -- and WANT to see your goodness and hear my 'atta girl'. 
⁶ Remember, Lord, your great mercy and love,
    for they are from of old.
⁷ Do not remember the sins of my youth
    and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
    for you, Lord, are good.  I have been rebellious with my thoughts and some of my actions -- Lord, forgive me...and I forgive those who have trespassed against me -- and hurt my feelings -- big time. 

⁸ Good and upright is the Lord;
    therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.
⁹ He guides the humble in what is right
    and teaches them his way.  Teach me, teach me... show the ones I have failed -- that I was only trying my best --  deliver me Lord...show me HOW to walk in this role of just being quiet.....deliver me from the snare...of a past sin -- help me to move forward --
¹⁰ All the ways of the Lord are loving and faithful
    toward those who keep the demands of his covenant.
¹¹ For the sake of your name, Lord,
    forgive my iniquity, though it is great.  For her lord.... help her - see that her iniquity in Your eyes is as 'bad' as she believes her other half's is...God, remind us there is NO grade on sin - sin is sin.  Disobedience is disobedience.... 

¹² Who, then, are those who fear the Lord?
    He will instruct them in the ways they should choose.^[b]
13 They will spend their days in prosperity,
    and their descendants will inherit the land.
¹⁴ The Lord confides in those who fear him;
    he makes his covenant known to them.  I fear you Lord, make it known to me -- let me see the good that will come -- I can wait, and will trust -- but could you hurry up?  Your  Word says you will instruct me -- please ..DO it loudly speak over my head -- enter into my mind and take over Lord.  
¹⁵ My eyes are ever on the Lord,
    for only he will release my feet from the snare.  Release me - BIG time.You know what Lord, you did release me and I took it back -- I must of gotten mixed up!  I know better! 

¹⁶ Turn to me and be gracious to me,
    for I am lonely and afflicted.  You know at times Lord, that I have no one to ask ...to see comfort from...nor do I get the affirmation needed -- and YET...it must all come from you.  So be gracious to me..... give me strength  - I take it back. But it is OK Lord, I believe YOU want me to come only to you.   Lord, help that one be gracious to others.  Help me to show grace and mercy to the ones hurting as I know, hurting people hurt others. 
¹⁷ Relieve the troubles of my heart
    and free me from my anguish.  Free me - please -- today is not a good one.
¹⁸ Look on my affliction and my distress
    and take away all my sins.
¹⁹ See how numerous are my enemies
    and how fiercely they hate me!  Boy that was LOUD and clear today Lord -- if you could protect me from those types of attacks in the future - I would greatly appreciate it.

²⁰ Guard my life and rescue me;
    do not let me be put to shame,
    for I take refuge in you.  Guard me Lord --  I take my refuge in YOU -
²¹ May integrity and uprightness protect me,
    because my hope, Lord,^[c] is in you.

²² Deliver Israel, O God,
    from all their trouble.  God yes..... deliver me.  As You know my heart today -- my heart wants to quit it all -- and be just that back row church pew sitter -- and be content; but my mind won't allow me to go there. 

 I NEED you today - Deliver Michelle Lord...  Deliver me...   may I only walk with integrity and uprightness.  Protect me Lord.  

Lord for the ones that were on my prayer list today -- I prayed.  But now, I am spent -- they are yours -- only YOU can fix them.  Lord, I can't WANT it more than they do -- they must fight - It won't be a zap and ALL will be better -- they must fight -- I pray they fight!  IN Jesus name.  Amen.  

And then...... my daughter posts this on FB and sums it all up --   thank you Lisa. 


 

Lord, forgive me when my feelings take over -- tonight, after time with you and venting it out ----  You are close and I choose to be close back -- and thank you for rearranging my feelings.  Amen. 

Merry Christmas from the Pritchards 2015

Simple --
Simple letter -- simple update -- simple. 

There are about 14 photos I want to GET on this blog, but my computer 'crashed' this past week and has left me scrambling to get documents saved and prayerfully the photos off the hard drive. 
So, you will get one -- the one we took quickly last night.  

God is faithful and a sweet angel at PECS, got my documents off my Mac and now, prayerfully another sweet computer whiz will be able to get the photos off with out too much expense on my part. 

Moral of that story - BACK up your data.  


Simple --

God has richly blessed us this year.  We have a new son - n - law in which we LOVE.  And we love his parents and extended family   - and had a BLAST getting to know them this past summer and then a wedding transpired in September.  Jacob is truly God's best for our Taylor -- and we enjoy meeting them for supper,   hanging out with them, and just being with them -- in fact, each and every time we get together -- it seems like Jake has been a part of our family for YEARS!    He is an  ESE Inclusion teacher in Pt. St. Lucie and Taylor is a 4th grade teacher in Okeechobee.  Taylor had Elsa and Jake has Hank the Tank, the four of them  live in Ft. Pierce.  We will celebrate with a party in February -- hoping the Wisconsin family will make the trek to South Florida! 

Moral of that story -- pray for your children and guess what -- God answers.   What a JOY it was to WATCH this all unfold at the end of 2014 ....and then in 2015!  

Simple --

Hunter's year has been full of blessings too.  He did not play soccer this past year for FAU, he joined the working force and began the 'final' season of his college life.  He worked for a therapy group this past summer and quickly was asked to continue when school started back in August.  He works in Delray doing stuff within his field of accounting and it has been a great experience.  He had to network  within his business classes and secured his Spring 2017 placement for an internship.  He will work for Grant Thorton which was his dream and an answer to prayer.   We thoroughly  enjoy it when he comes home for the weekend.   He had a life lesson this past October, when he came home to find 3 fire trucks had blocked off their college/house.  He shares a house with 4 others and Hunter's room, specifically Hunter's closet,  was consumed by fire and he lost everything.  Praise God, our renter's insurance covered his losses and God spared his computer - it smelled of a fire, but worked well!  

Moral of that story -- old lamps close to clothes can start a fire. 
 And... smoke alarms do work if you don't ignore them.  LOL. 

Simple --

Brendan stayed teaching ONE more year.  He is going to go for 30 and that means 2 more after this year.  He enjoys his quiet time, riding his Harley, and working at 'growning' sales at our Insurance Office. 

 Me -- I still teach -- it  has been  one of my most rewarding and yet most difficult years so far - but God is in control.  Teaching is a mission field now -- whether it is in public, private, or a charter -- and each of my students become MY kids for 180 days.  Some days, I wonder if I am making ANY difference and others -- I know I am.  I am in my 28th year too  - so I have two more, but I will continue as long as they will have me.  I really enjoy my job. 

Moral of that story -- do something that God equips your for.  You will see HIS glory. 

Brendan and I spend a lot of time together -- doing stuff now-- as we are 'empty nesters' --that we just enjoy and many times....that is just driving over to the book store and/ or  enjoying the gym together.

 I continue to write this blog -- minister to women that God brings to me, as I believe our time is short and HE has a purpose for the healing that HE brought to Bren and I.  But..we let God lead. 

Life is not perfect -- I was REALLY hoping I would have my house by this year ....but it appears it will be a 2016 blessing.  We have a small one bedroom cottage we call home for now and it may be small, but it is simple.  We have learned in the past 4 years of moving and such -- you can live with MUCH less.  And even when the computer crashes.... YOU can survive. 

God has BIG plans  for us -- and those around us.

 Our prayer is that as you prepare and get ready for this season -- that God, Jesus and Holy Spirit are ALL over your events,  your thoughts, and your doings..... as life is too short and we are all but one breath away from heaven or hell.

 There is a LOT of evil present in this world of ours, we believe it will only get worse, as the bible tells us about these end times, but the bible also states about the glories, the wonders, and signs that will be GREATER.... the goodness of the LORD will be more prevalent and the miracles will be great -- we have seen many.  

God wins. 

Oh..and...my family welcomed two new members -- a new niece and nephew.  We celebrated my parents 50 years of marriage.....and one nephew went to the Marines and another entered college.  I love them all -- On Brendan's side, his folks are good and his siblings are good too -- no new nieces or nephews.  But soon Jaiden will have her daughter, so we will have a great- niece... Jaiden and Dustin are due anyday -- yeah!! 

I am SO looking forward to turning 50 in February!!   Yah....right......

 But - I am prayerfully believing that as I celebrate with family ( Taylor's wedding reception is that week) that, it will truly be just a God inspired  event. 

Brendan turns 50 in June ....... but who really cares about that -- LOL - I am writing this letter!   Seriously -- he truly is my gift -- and I admire the man it took 50 years to become!   God wins. 

Merry Christmas from the Pritchards and Padricks.... LIFE is really good.  God wins! 

The Walls of Jericho will fall --

By faith -- the walls of Jericho fell --

By faith, a woman is believing that God will provide a refrigerator for her family --

By faith, a woman believes her children will be returned to her --

By faith, a woman believes her family will get past this uncertainty right now and be whole again --

By faith, a woman believed that Jesus would be her husband until her own husband returned to his first love --

By faith a young woman became a mother   after an angel of the Lord appeared to her --

By faith a young man believed an angel and took his young bride to Bethlehem --

By fatih, a group of women drove up to Titusville and believed that God would encounter them there --

By faith, a young mother of three forgave her husband, forgave herself, and believed that with godly counsel and time - her family could be whole again --

By faith, a woman gave her very last penny to 'the church' --

By faith, a woman believed that her mother did not die a violent death;  but, perhaps she was  taken up into the clouds like Enoch before the bullet reached her  --

By faith, a young mother asked for prayer and  the hole in her newborn daughter's heart was healed --

By fatih, a young mother did not believe her son would never walk; but   prayed over him with bold prayers and waited  on God to answer--

By faith, a mother believes that her daughter will one day look at her and tell her 'thank you' for being the mom that she was/is --

By faith,  a mother prays that her son will find the God intended woman he is to be with and he will fulfill his calling  in ministry --

By faith, a mother prays for a beautiful baby and believes God's best for her --

By faith, one mother stands in agreement with another mother that her children will serve you and not the world --

By faith, a mother calls upon the heavens to heal a son, so the seizure medicine does not have to be taken --

By faith --

By faith --

By faith --

By faith, a husband believed his godly counsel that one day -- that  he could look in the eyes of his wife and know that he knew -- that she was the soul mate God had planned for him.

  I live with that man -- I get to see God's grace, goodness, and faithfulness daily --

I am sure, if you are reading this -- you could add at least 10 more statements of faith /prayers --


  These by faith stories are real whether they are from the bible, my life  or the circle of people around me but they are also from total strangers as so many of these prayers are expressed by many around us.

And,  if I begin to share some of the  by faith stories that the men around me are praying and believing for -- this blog will be too long.  As my Pastor  D  reminds me....people can only read so much - as I tend to write epistles instead of blogs. 


Today -- there are a few women in particular that  I know  -- where today is their Day #7...  And tomorrow is their Day #7...  And yet, others still ....have been praying the walls of Jericho would fall for several years --

They have been obedient and prayed with seven others for seven days -- God's perfect number in believing that upon Day #7 the walls would crumble.   That...God would show them clarity in their circumstances.  That God would move a mountain or bring relief...WHO knows WHAT God is going to do - but they are believing by faith - that something is going to change.

I admire that.
I fasted and prayed with them all week and can attest to some of the miracles that I have been privileged to see.  

Again -

By faith -- they are believing that God is going to move a mountain - change a circumstance -- or just be the FATHER in heaven that HE is.....



I believe today -- we need to take the time to be HOLY -- not  goody goody.... but set apart.
I did not awake with that revelation -- it was in my Jesus Calling Devotional and it fit perfect for today.

Be set apart.
It is WHEN we get in the Presence of Our Lord -- that miracles happen.

I have seen several miracles this past week -- from needs provided to just HIS presence being real to my sister.  Her father - n - law has been in hospital with a brain bleed  for several weeks.   When she went to pray for her Father -n-Law....she felt she had the opportunity to say "Good - bye"  ---
To hear her speak of the  JOY in being with him and being able to see his eyes...open one  last time -- THAT was God's favor for my sister.  Now her prayer today was that he would do that again for his children. 

AS WE focus our minds and hearts on God -- we are transformed.
The women I have been praying with, fasting with, and circling  my room with -- 7x...these women are soaking in the LIGHT of HIS Presence.... and because of the 'exercise' we all agreed to do -- HE is near to us in a way -- like never before.

 It has strengthened my faith -- I know it has strengthened theirs...   And they are open to receive the many blessings from HIM.

The blessing may not be 'what they wanted'....it  WILL be better!
The blessing may not be 'seen' right now .....but it WILL come!
The blessing may just be -- becoming cleansed by the temple of the Holy Spirit, who is able to do in and through you immeasurable more than you ask or imagine.  

And no matter what -- even if the circumstances do not change -- I have changed and I know they have too.  As no matter what -- our God is a GOOD GOOD Father --  and HE works everything good to those who call upon Him and live according to His will and purpose.  

I pray that each of us reading this - is set apart today -- and understand what it means to be HOLY and in HIS Presence --   God bless.  

Amen.

HOPE in HIM -- Commission Statement

Ladies --  here is our Commissioning Statement that Holy Spirit Wrote for us and I spoke over us --  

Print it off, post it - allow the words to remind you -- YOU ARE Free!   

And Ladies...YOU can recite this to yourself -- as you look at Jesus in you - in your mirror!  


My dear sister in Christ,
your God summoned you here -
He had a perfect plan for you.
He has called you to step it up -
He has called you for such a time as this. 

It's time for you to wise up sister -
Your have seen where the enemy has trapped you.
You were born for the WILL of God.
Your destiny makes a difference.
Nothing the world can offer you -
is worth giving up your divine calling. 

Jesus knows your past of adversity-
But from this day forward - I'll trust you Lord.
I will wait for my feelings to catch up with my healing! 
Sister --
Sister, your life is no longer underrated!
Jesus knows what you endured -
Every place you have ever been -
You can't chase Him from loving you.
He has loved you with an everlasting love-
And HE thinks you are GORGEOUS!
Girl -
Gurl -
Girl, you are not leaving here overanxious!
You are leaving here free!
Gurl, the enemy is after you -
because he is jealous of you and scared of what you could become!

So, you take your position in this globe -
You put on the whole armor of God -
Because girlfriend --
Your God is with you.
Jesus is your #1 -
And the Comforter is your best friend -
The Paraclete is your power!
There is nothing freaky about a true Encounter with God! 

Sweetie -
Precious -
Beloved --
You are beautiful in HIS sight!
Girl-
The Lord is responsible for the saving!
Girl - God is BIG enough!

*** Now, look at the floor and STOMP as you speak to satan under your feet --
Satan - I have taken back my stuff -- STOMP STOMP
My rightful stuff -- what you have stolen ...my peace...my joy....my children...my marriage...
Satan you are on notice! 
God wins - DO NOT mess with me! 
Don't mess with my family! 
Don't mess with my man! 
Don't mess with my mind!
Don't mess with my church!

**** Now, look back at the beautiful one in front of you  ( or the mirror)

Girl -- Now to  HIM who is able -
To keep you from stumbling
And present you spotless and blameless ...

Jesus - we LOVE you!
Jesus - I want all of what you have in store for me!

Now girlfriend...  get out there into this world -
And live like the over comer YOU are!  
As ..YOUR HOPE is in HIM! 

Amen. 

From being UNDER the influence to BEING the INFLUENCE - updated.

 Reposting this -- as Holy Spirit brought it to my eyes --


Lord, give me wisdom in writing this.
Several weeks ago  at my prayer time with a bevy of beauties that I work with - a thought popped in my head and I declared it.

From under the influence to being an influence.  

How powerful or what?
A sweet beloved sister in Christ  shared  something about her man, her husband and if you knew her entire history....you would celebrate the story with me.

Just the words imply something but the Holy Spirit revealed SO much more to me about these words.

Someone  could be UNDER the influence of drugs...  alcohol or pills or whatever....
Someone could be UNDER the influence of an oppression of some sort ....
Someone  could be UNDER the influence of a domineering parent ....
Someone  could be UNDER the influence of just a 'bitchy' friend -- sorry - bear with me on this - I promise not to cuss too much.
Someone  could be UNDER the influence of  wrong thoughts and perceptions ...
Someone could be UNDER the bondage of inequities . ...
Someone could be so FULL of pride that it will put them UNDER....

and yet, bottom line - he or she   is UNDER the influence of the Enemy.... whether he is in you, on you, or around you --  the enemy hates Christ...the enemy hates any followers of Christ...so therefore the enemy hates you - he hates me...and he hated that sweet sister's husband.  So much so, that he tried to destroy him, tried to destroy their relationship, and he tried to destroy their marriage and yet - he was defeated.

As now that husband has gone from being UNDER the influence to BEING an influence to another man.  Amen. Praise God.  God won.   .......can you picture me jumping for joy - as I am! 

THAT is a Jesus High. 

Redemption stories always make me smile.    Now.  When I hear the testimony of a sister in Christ that has overcome much hardship and hurt and now God is getting the glory - I jump for JOY within my spirit and physically.  I really do.

Several, months  ago something was said, referenced,  and the comment was, "I really don't want to hear some woman tell how her husband cheated on her and she prayed and now everything is better". 

At the moment I read the comment, my heart stopped for a nano second and  I claimed I would not allow that to take offense within my soul.   Many times, hurting people say hurting words.  It was  my choice on whether I let it fester or not fester  within my spirit.  I chose not.

But it made me think.

So often in my younger years, I would listen to stories from women about their hardships and how God carried them.  I was so callous and naïve - I had NO real idea.  I judged them,  judged their hearts and spirits and I accessed the 'cause' and would just file it away.     My pride would always make my flesh feel better about it - "I was better than them".

Or I would dismiss their claims -- I had no real understanding.  No empathy.

( Side bar: And yet, I thought I did ....cause I had grown up in a somewhat of a dysfunctional home and now I was 'ok'...so why couldn't they be ok too?     Oh Lord, even as I type those words, I can feel the enemy wanting me to have a pity fest...but I won't.  I know I am forgiven of that spiritual pride and time of my life when I was constantly loving everything else instead of my Lord.) 

Then I would hear of stories of years and years of abuse and seek God.."how the hell did they last that long?" And I would wrestle with God and demand answers.  And I would complain.  My husband reminded me today while he was praying, complaining is telling God that "I " can do it better....

(Side bar: Thank  you Lord that my husband is now an influence within my life -- You use him to speak life to me.  I am thankful for that!)    

  And then, when I actually paid close attention, I would be graced  with more stories of redemption and how God changed a person and beauty did rise up from ashes.  Slowly, very slowly - I began to realize  the Holy Spirit was speaking and I was finally listening. In fact, I quote one of those stories - within the first chapter of Francis Chan's book, "CRAZY LOVE".... he credits a woman that dealt with an abusive alcoholic husband for almost 18 years and he claims that  - they...that couple is one of the most godly mentors to he, his wife, and his ministry.  ...That is a God miracle. 

I have prayed for many women and even presently, can see the hurt within the home and a part of me wants to scream - "GET the hell out"  -- but I know better.   I would never tell one person,  a wife or mother to leave a husband unless she felt her safety was at risk.  No one deserves physical or mental abuse.   Seek help.  And yet, God has brought my attention to many women that did endure for  a season -- to watch God orchestrate a  miracle and now....they are living by the word of their testimony.  We are healed by the blood of the lamb and  transformed by the word of our testimony.

Revelation 12:11New International Version (NIV)

¹¹ They triumphed over him
    by the blood of the Lamb
    and by the word of their testimony;
they did not love their lives so much
    as to shrink from death

I rejoice with that sister in Christ as now her husband is an influence.  But she endured many years of heartache and pain.   But God brought her out of that--God restores and redeems.     I am not stupid, I believe there are people that look at me and think - 'what the heck?'.....and yet, I know that I know that I know.....  obedience brings rewards and no matter what - each person, each woman, each situation is God's. And God shows me daily,  the  why, and  now we are  beyond the pain, and beyond the hurt.....and we are glad for the challenges within our past - as it has brought us - HERE.



WE get that now.  Being on 'this' side of it - our spiritual eyes see things differently now.  We are made new.

Ephesians 4:23New International Version (NIV)

²³ to be made new in the attitude of your minds;

God never intended it to be this hard -
God is not punishing -
God did not purposefully say, 'you much endure this for this' -

He sent His Son for the ultimate sacrifice.  When I truly understood WHAT I was forgiven of - I could and I had to forgive.

   I know that my sister in Christ...when God spoke to her heart and asked her to 'hold on' just a little while longer.... HE blessed her with  a new man and once she is darn proud of.    And I know that one of the reasons he was attacked so by Satan was because there was a calling upon his life.

Satan does not have an 'in' with God...but he understands that GOD has plans for EACH of us.

 And for each and every redemption story I have heard -- God bless them.  For all of them I heard prior to my new heart .... forgive me.   For the ones God will bring to my path...I pray I will always SEEK God's face and wisdom on anything I say or do...or pray...

Summary:
God wins.

Lord...for the one reading this that does not see the light at the end of the tunnel -- lead her, direct her. show her.  Lord, I pray she will DIG deep into YOUR Word, I pray she will take a Psalm this evening - like Psalm 40 or 45 or 39 and claim it as her victory prayer...I pray she will read those words and get a RHEMA word from you.  Lord, I pray she will SEEK YOUR face and believe that YOU can change a heart and that YOU will make all things new. 

Lord, I pray for the sister in Christ that does not think her prayers are powerful -- God I pray she would realize and know that she has JUST as much power and authority in YOU as I do - or another....  God I pray that if she has never called upon  You for her salvation - that she will RIGHT now. 

Lord, I bind the enemy away from the hurt right now.  God I pray she will have the courage to stop the sin if she is the one in sin...Lord, I pray she will refocus...

Lord, for the ones that are under the influence right now... Lord, I pray they would seek YOU and believe that they are MORE than a conqueror through YOU  ..God I pray this oppression would be bound and that spiritual help would be sought.  Lord, I bind the pride away from those ears, those eyes, and that heart ...that it is NOT too hard.  God I know that You do discipline ....and I know that You will allow 'stuff' to transpire and happen to draw us close ....so God I pray that this one particular sister that is hurting - God I pray her eyes will open and she will see....there is SO much more to learn about YOU and I pray she won't have to 'lose' something to find You...  like I did... God I DO not wish my circumstances upon anyone, but I pray that those around me would see....that perhaps they are playing with fire and that ....they will get burned...may they be aware, that their situation is no laughing matter.  God, thank You.  I believe  YOU will win.   Lord, I thank you for those ones that are holding on and believing in something they can't see right now.   Lord, I thank you for today -- for showing me clearly -- that YOU are still very proud of me. 

Lord...  YOUR will be done.  May this blog post - draw someone closer to you and give them HOPE.  Amen. 

  - humbled...blessed, chosen, accepted, adopted, forgiven and redeemed...  loved... and in awe of YOU Lord.  Thank you for setting this captive free, use me Lord - I love you. 

Psalm 37 - a prayer for a man --

THIS is a prayer/commentary that I found....It was written as a prayer from a wife to her husband.  

Much of it 'fit' with my prayers for my man -- of late -- so I thought I would share.  

As with God's word -- I am sure there is a wife out there that could use pray this for her husband.  

 A David Psalm

37 ^1-2 Don’t bother your head with braggarts
    or wish you could succeed like the wicked.
In no time they’ll shrivel like grass clippings
    and wilt like cut flowers in the sun.

^3-4 Get insurance with God and do a good deed,
    settle down and stick to your last.
Keep company with God,
    get in on the best.

Lord, I see him -- he feels like others gets the best from you and he does not.  Lord I pray he will believe that no matter what -- YOU will fight for him.  

 

^5-6 Open up before God, keep nothing back;
    he’ll do whatever needs to be done:
He’ll validate your life in the clear light of day
    and stamp you with approval at high noon.

Lord, I pray he keeps nothing back, would he spend the time needed to seek you and get with you about WHAT could be blocking the joy from being present?  

Lord, could YOU validate his life in the light of day -- show him in a supernatural way that YOU are indeed noticing the righteous and won't forsake him?  

 

⁷ Quiet down before God,
    be prayerful before him.

Lord, may he quiet down before you. 

 
Don’t bother with those who climb the ladder,
    who elbow their way to the top.

^8-9 Bridle your anger, trash your wrath,
    cool your pipes—it only makes things worse.
Before long the crooks will be bankrupt;

Lord,  he does not believe you will punish the wicked -- it seems like they are winning now, remind him that the righteous are not forsaken.  

Lord, may  his anger only be justified before you. 

 
    God-investors will soon own the store.

^10-11 Before you know it, the wicked will have had it;
    you’ll stare at his once famous place and—nothing!
Down-to-earth people will move in and take over,
    relishing a huge bonanza.

LORD....let him see some of that NOW....

 

^12-13 Bad guys have it in for the good guys,
    obsessed with doing them in.
But God isn’t losing any sleep; to him
    they’re a joke with no punch line.

^14-15 Bullies brandish their swords,
    pull back on their bows with a flourish.
They’re out to beat up on the harmless,
    or mug that nice man out walking his dog.
A banana peel lands them flat on their faces—
    slapstick figures in a moral circus.

 OH Lord, help us NOT to laugh....but Lord, when we see the wicked get their reward -- it certainly does help us to continue the fight.  

 

^16-17 Less is more and more is less.
    One righteous will outclass fifty wicked,
For the wicked are moral weaklings
    but the righteous are God-strong.

amen

 

^18-19 God keeps track of the decent folk;
    what they do won’t soon be forgotten.
In hard times, they’ll hold their heads high;
    when the shelves are bare, they’ll be full.

Lord, help him hold his head high....

 

²⁰ God-despisers have had it;
    God’s enemies are finished—
Stripped bare like vineyards at harvest time,
    vanished like smoke in thin air.

^21-22 Wicked borrows and never returns;
    Righteous gives and gives.
Generous gets it all in the end;

Did you hear that -- we get it all ....... even me.....!!  

 
    Stingy is cut off at the pass.

^23-24 Stalwart walks in step with God;
    his path blazed by God, he’s happy.
If he stumbles, he’s not down for long;
    God has a grip on his hand.

^25-26 I once was young, now I’m a graybeard—
    not once have I seen an abandoned believer,
    or his kids out roaming the streets.
Every day he’s out giving and lending,
    his children making him proud.

Lord -- your word proves -- you will never let the righteous be forsaken. 

 

^27-28 Turn your back on evil,
    work for the good and don’t quit.
God loves this kind of thing,
    never turns away from his friends.

^28-29 Live this way and you’ve got it made,
    but bad eggs will be tossed out.
The good get planted on good land
    and put down healthy roots.

^30-31 Righteous chews on wisdom like a dog on a bone,
rolls virtue around on his tongue.
His heart pumps God’s Word like blood through his veins;
    his feet are as sure as a cat’s.

Wow Lord.... may he study and memorize YOUR Words so that every time something comes out of his mouth - it is of you! 

 

^32-33 Wicked sets a watch for Righteous,
he’s out for the kill.
God, alert, is also on watch—
    Wicked won’t hurt a hair of his head.

³⁴ Wait passionately for God,
don’t leave the path.
He’ll give you your place in the sun
    while you watch the wicked lose it.

^35-36 I saw Wicked bloated like a toad,
croaking pretentious nonsense.
The next time I looked there was nothing—
    a punctured bladder, vapid and limp.

^37-38 Keep your eye on the healthy soul,
scrutinize the straight life;

Lord, may he keep his eyes on the healthy pattern...the healthy men around him, and see healthy ones in  church .

There’s a future
    in strenuous wholeness.
But the willful will soon be discarded;
    insolent souls are on a dead-end street.

^39-40 The spacious, free life is from God,
it’s also protected and safe.
God-strengthened, we’re delivered from evil—
    when we run to him, he saves us.

 

 

AMEN

Basking in the outpouring ----

So, this past weekend - God rocked.  God showed off.  Women saw years of chains broken and there were physical as well as emotional healings.  There was also new life....  our lives changed.


This weekend brought forth so much joy, that I even was skipping down the hallway in front of my Principal and then I stopped to share a testimony that a lady shared at our Celebration Service on Sunday night.  When one shares publicly -- then I can share it again and enjoy the blessing of retelling it.  Something that seems so impossible and yet -- so amazingly God!

That testimony was simply this, "I came here Friday, knowing I may lose my baby, Saturday I miscarried a baby, but God gave me a new heart and I am washed clean by the blood of Jesus".   This sweet and powerful young woman also got her purpose..... Ezek 2 and 3 ..... read it - what a word from the LORD for ALL of us.  It was a word for me!   

Tonight, as I am VERY exhausted I just have to praise my Lord.....

As THIS is my testimony for this weekend:

Michelle, what did God do for you this weekend?   

This weekend I was humbled again  - Why  would the Lord  do this for me?   Why do I get this favor?  Why is the  Lord allowing me to get a double portion again?

Why is it that when the HS tells me something and it seems like I 'pulled it out of my butt'..that it comes into fruition -- and it blesses the socks off another and allows them to know that they know -- GOD is real?

Why?  BECAUSE THAT is God.......   period.   Everything is used for HIS glory.

 Personally, this weekend, the Lord broke chains that  HE revealed.  Healing and forgiveness comes in layers.  Our lives are a giant sized onion and we are peeling back the skin -- layer by layer.  Have you even been cutting an onion and find a 'new bulb' within the middle....like there was the onion and then the rest of the onion grew over the top of it?   That happened just the other night and --what a perfect illustration.  As we continue to grow and walk with the Lord - HE continues to remove stuff that we have repressed and pushed WAY down within us -- but HE  knew it was now time for a deeper healing.  And ...... I did not know I had...chains of burdens of being in ministry...chains of being a people pleaser...and more chains that were attached to unforgiveness. But, HE revealed them and I was set free.

Free enough to be skipping and dancing down the aisle of my workplace.
Free enough to ask a total stranger on Sunday night if he was saved.
Free enough to lay at the alter while others were doing praise and worship and just humbled myself before the Lord.
Free enough/ filled with the HS and overflowing  to preach without notes  -- 3x.
Free enough /and filled with the HS and overflowing   to look into the eyes of a woman and let her know - she has a ministry and a mission with our jail system.
Free enough/ and filled with the HS and overflowing /  to look into the eyes of a woman and let her know -- GOD has not forsaken her.
Free

Filled.

I have not experienced this amount of JOY in months..... months.  There was such a spirit of laughter than enveloped us all.  

It is interesting - as  Holy Spirit has been teaching me and showing me that I was being made aware. Therefore, I could  see women from new perspectives and He is also allowing more women to come for counsel.  With that, one may be overwhelmed and yet -- HE has released a few others and so it balanced.

God protects us and I trust the faithfulness of God as HE covers the foolishness of Michelle.

God also awakened in me more gifts and gave me prophetic insight on many many levels.

For example, while holding and rocking a sweet one, I got a vision and shared it with her by describing what I was seeing.  As we rocked and prayed and I described....she released something supernaturally  -- we went to the Cross to release the bondage and she received the freedom she did not realize was available.

It is an incredible Jesus high.

God asked me to preach without notes and I did.  God protected me and used my team  to cover my actions and  mishaps if any  -- as a team we were so united.

As I got words to preach at 4 am......I  then walked around the meeting area at 5am and preached to empty chairs...I heard God say, they won't be empty for long.

And as I preached and spoke life - Satan got mad and almost immediately flooded my brain with two distinct visions and thoughts of my past and I was right there at the cross -- I confessed them or told God WHY they hurt so badly and then released them.  I have not cried THAT hard in a bit -- I am surprised I did not wake up the ladies.  But, after I wept......I looked up at the cross and hugged it.

Many take their nails and strike the cross -- I have before - as a symbolic gesture to recognize that I nailed Jesus there but also to release it to HIM.  At my first encounter, I just wanted to hug Jesus and I did at the foot of the cross.  I hugged the cross.  At 5.12 am Sunday - I did it again.

I truly believe the Lord brought me a deeper deeper healing.  And He clearly gave me instructions to wash another's  feet.  Now, I did it symbolically -- and I am willing to do it in person too, but I will wait for my release from  God and another. 

We must remember, extending forgive

ness is not for 'that' person -- it is for us.
Humbly being willing to wash the feet of another that hurt us is certainly a  great release but often that person is not ready to receive it.  We must proceed only if the HS so perfectly confirms.

And, I had many many visions and answers -- God revealed the plan for the next Encounter and as HE awoke me at 3.57 Monday, HE began to write a story and details of the next.

My fingers could not write fast enough.  God continues to remind us - time is short.  HE wants His bride ready.  These weekends are powerful and beginning to cross denominational lines....it is only a matter of time when we will truly be ONE BODY in Christ.

 That is  WHAT God did for me --


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