Totally trusting God.

 On a dreary day back in April of 2011, I read my Jesus Calling for the day after a very hard day and read this:  

Dear Beloved, When I give you no special guidance, stay where you are. Concentrate on doing your everyday tasks in awareness of My Presence with you. The Joy of My Presence will shine on you, as you do everything for Me. Thus you invite Me into every aspect of your life. Through collaborating with Me in all things, you allow MY life to merge with yours. This is the secret not only of joyful living but also of victorious living. I designed you to depend on Me moment by moment, recognizing that apart from Me you can do nothing.

Be thankful for quiet days, when nothing special seems to be happening. Instead of being bored by the lack of action, use times of routine to seek My face. Although this is an invisible transaction, it speaks volumes in spiritual realms. Moreover, you are richly blessed when you walk trustingly with Me through the routines of your day. - Jesus

Colossians 3. 23 John 15.5 Psm 105.4

I don't know exactly WHAT transpired back on that day, but I do know that my husband and I were living in the same house, but counsel seemed to be getting no where.  I was back to praying that as each weekend approached - I had to prep  myself  of the possibility, that my husband was probably going to move out again.   

You see he was not happy.   He was not content or satisfied.   But, he was also allowing the enemy to steer his thoughts and he was in NO position to trust God.  He really did not even have a relationship with God then.  From my perspective -- TOO much time had passed and I was SICK of waiting on God.  I was still so very lonely even though he was in the home.  But, God reminded me of what He asked of me.   So again, it was probably a very dreary evening.    So, I blogged and changed that first line --- I made the calling out to me.   And my original blog is very short -- another sign I just wanted to put a plea out to the  heavens that I needed to hear from God and so  I personalized it. 

Dear Michelle, When I give you no special guidance, stay where you are. Concentrate on doing your everyday tasks in awareness of My Presence with you. The Joy of My Presence will shine on you, as you do everything for Me. Thus you invite Me into every aspect of your life. Through collaborating with Me in all things, you allow MY life to merge with yours. This is the secret not only of joyful living but also of victorious living. I designed you to depend on Me moment by moment, recognizing that apart from Me you can do nothing.

Be thankful for quiet days, when nothing special seems to be happening. Instead of being bored by the lack of action, use times of routine to seek My face. Although this is an invisible transaction, it speaks volumes in spiritual realms. Moreover, you are richly blessed when you walk trustingly with Me through the routines of your day. - Jesus

Colossians 3. 23 John 15.5 Psm 105.4

And I replied this back in 2011:  

Dear Jesus,

I hear you -- loud and clear. Thank you for taking the time to speak to me daily. Lord, I wish to hunger for you deeply each day. Help me to keep my eyes on YOU. LOrd, and for the others in my life . ..Lord, move the mountains, bless those who persecute me, and Lord, heal .. .there are many around me. Many who seek wisdom and guidance. Lord for that perfect little one, for the pumpkin and his family. Lord, for my own two kids . . unspoken are the rest of my pleas. Lord, for Tony and that leg - restoration. Lord, for FCAT, school, grandma's and just everything in the normal routine. Thank you Lord.

Amen - Michelle

I can't remember exactly who  the references  of prayer were for.  I know Tony was fighting cancer he had been one of my students years before.    And, both grandma's have now gone to be with Jesus...but if I was to reply to Jesus this eve, I would blog this: 

Dear Jesus, I believe I have stayed in Your Presence and yet, begged  for mercy and called  for Your steadfast love over and over,  here and there for the  past six years,  over and over.  And Lord, I am very aware of YOU  and YOUR presence every day in every little task.  I would just like to add, thank you so much for showing me EXACTLY where my phone  was located when I misplaced it.  Lord, I pray people can see the JOY you bring me.  All. The. Time.  Jesus, I pray that you can totally see that one of my MAIN goals is to always be in collaboration with You - doing what You ask of me.    God, I do believe I have experienced some JOYFUL   and victorious living!!  I do realize that I NEED you 24/7 and YOU are the only one that can totally fulfill me.   BUT there is such a JOY now and it is because I TRUST YOU.  Totally.   Lord, I have not felt the need to blog as much and over the holiday as I retreated a bit and got some much needed rest and relaxation and yet -- I can be quiet in You and LOVE that.   But You brought me to this older blog and again -- You used it.  Lord, thank you for allowing me the time to finally come to a place where You are Lord and  indeed, my best friend and confident.  
In Jesus name, Amen.  


So now it is YOUR turn -- God brought you to this blog for a reason.  
Do you trust Him?  
Can you?  

Learning to totally lean on God and trust everything into His hands is a process.  One that can be accomplished in time.  However, it can start today as well.   

I would ask you, do you trust God?   If you can't answer that or you know the answer is "NO", then I  would encourage you to find another to pray with you.  And face that question, "do I trust God ?".  If indeed you don't have a grasp on that question -- then it is really time to start and change up that walk with Him.  

So, I would encourage you today as I pray -- Lord, for the one that NEEDED to read and hear this Lord, I just pray that indeed there is a realization and awareness of the trust issues and then that she or he would reach out to their pastor or mentor/accountability partner and pray and be held accountable.  I know Lord you will provide them with the RIGHT path or people to meet - just like you did for me and my phone 'replacement'  earlier today, but God I pray ....may this miracle transpire as soon as possible??   In Jesus name.