Tuesday, November 17, 2020

Thinking - God is in the DETAILS.

 

I have not blogged since September.  Writers block has not kept me from blogging, other things to write and focus on too precedence.  

I literally WANT to blog more often than I do, but I am always trying to be obedient to WHAT God has me to do that day, and to focus on HIS timing in stuff.  However, the enemy will try and bully me into thinking -- "nope, you are done as a blogger".  And to those stinking whispers - I remind him that he is  liar!  

This photo is from Oklahoma back in 2013.  We were on a road trip with HP, our son, and his soccer team.  The boys won, two weeks later, we were back in the car for Texas and the finals. 

 Well, maybe we were to TX first and then Oklahoma -today, my memory slips.   Bren snapped the photo and I have looked at this photo each November and wonder - what WHAT in my head at that moment!!??    Then I scroll past it and ask God, is this for a blog?  I mean - who really cares to see my wrinkles and Ray-bans? 

Was I thinking of how the team could win? 

 Was I thinking of what was 'next'? 

 Was I thinking of a particular memory or future event? 

 I look so determined.  And as I have stated,  each year as this photo pops up, I always ask, "Lord, is this for a blog?"  


Today - it is.  Today I want to share something.  GOD is in the details.  

Long story short -- I had some minor surgery -- that sounds scary.  It was a cyst that was removed and it started to bleed a bit.  It was a bit bigger than the onocular plastic surgeon thought.  The backstory with this cyst on my eyebrow plagued me for a good 8 weeks.  And getting to that onocular plastic surgeon is another cool God story, but today that is not the story I want to share.   But God was in THOSE details as well.  

In the middle of the procedure, a month ago,  I knew I  had began to bleed a little more than normal.  Prior to the procedure, the surgeon looked to me like a hippie with his long grey hair and Jay Leno white streak in the front, but his bedside manner and tone just made me think...."what does this guy do on the weekends?".  However, he came highly recommenced by two other doctors that I do trust!  

Back to the procedure: 

So, as the nurse begins to wipe the blood out of my hair and he stitches me up, he continues asking me questions about previous surgeries and such.  

I share my history as I did have a surgery, back in 2004,  where three hours in post-op, I did began to bleed out again from my incision and the doctor had some swift actions. 

 However,  in that moment and in those questions, I assured my onocular surgeon that my other doctor  said  I didn't have a blood disorder,  it was just a complication of the surgery. 

 But... as he continues to stitch and I can't feel pain, but I can feel the  movement of him with his instruments next to my eyes -- I began to  call on and claim Jesus a bit louder! 

  After it was all done, he gave me  the post-procedure info and then left the room. 

 The nurse, who had been under her mask this entire time, lifted her head covering, sat in front of me, and removed her mask...and said, "hello Michelle, I was there with you in 2004 when you had that surgery and when you had that 2nd surgery to stop the bleeding - you are going to be fine".  

Wow.  Relief.  16 years later - what are the chances of HER being my nurse for that fateful cyst removal?  

God --  God chances.  

HE did that.  HE knew my fear and my anxious heart.  HE also knows what lays ahead in my future and I am going to believe that HE orchestrated that day.  

God is in the details. 

We all know that - but when we get such a personal experience and we are reminded that HE goes before us and is always near....it becomes a very good day!  THAT knowledge and faith has held me and I have been able to share that story several times.  

I know now - more than ever, that NOTHING is wasted in our lives.  Not the silly things nor the hard things...

God wastes nothing and uses every aspect of our lives to remind us that HE adores us.  HE reminded me that I was WORTH it.... to be comforted by a nurse that had comforted me 16 years ago.  

God is THAT personal. 

  So, 7 years ago when I pondered something and my husband happen to snap a photo of me....   I know that whatever was in my thoughts at that time - God knew and God will use if HE needs to, to remind all of us -- HE is in the details.  


23 The steps of the God-pursuing ones
follow firmly in the footsteps of the Lord,
and God delights in every step they take to follow him.