Sunday, September 29, 2013

I took a trip......

Ok, there is so much I want to express and say and yet ...unsure of the words.

I went to Wisconsin to visit with my pal from High School - Trace -- who is STRUGGLING with cancer and it is in the final stages.  It just is.  But, I won't say she is dying...I won't say the cancer is winning...I am saying outloud that I believe GOD can heal her and I will TRUST in HIS healing.

Period.  Amen.

This is what I read today --

Beloved ...I am with you and all around you, encircling you in golden rays of Light.  I always behold you FACE to FACE.  Not one of your thoughts escapes My notice.  Because I am infinite, I am able to love you as if you and I were the only ones in the universe.  
I know that God is all around me and HE was with me on my trip.  It was beautiful weather, I got to see MOST of the 20+ nieces and nephews.  I got to buy pumpkins for a few, teased many of them, and tried to get a photo shot for memories.

I walked along streets that I used to walk along, I ran to  Shopko and  even got a quick visit with Brendan's Great Aunt.  I got to see my Grandma all three days - and by the third day as I showed her the photos from the previous days ...she sort of remembered me. ( She has dementia )

I saw classmates  that I had not seen in almost 5 years....I even saw a few that I have never seen since a class reunion.  I was totally blessed.

I also cried.

I just did.

Beloved, walk with ME in intimate LOVE - steps, but do not lose sight of My Majesty.  I desire to be your closest Friend, yet I am also your sovereign Lord, I created your brain with capacity to know Me as Friend and Lord simultaneously.  The human mind is the pinnacle of My creation, but so few use it for its primary purpose --- knowing Me.  I communicate continually through My Spirit, My Word, and My Creation. Only humans are capable of receiving Me and responding to My Presence.  You are indeed fearfully and wonderfully made!   - God
Psalm 34: 4-72 Peter 1: 16-17John 17:3 and Psalm 139. 14

God has it.  I learned a big lesson -- just HOW BIG and how creative our God is.  HE has people right there  -- in place, close to Trace to help her and her family.  HE has it.  God does.  Sometimes that control freak comes back to the front of my brain.....

I shared with Trace the vision that was shared with me about her ....I shared prayer with her....I took her to a radiation appointment and I saw her smile big when she got a hat from a pal...and a pink scarf from another and I got to bless another pink scarf  ---to her daughter.  I got to be a part of her family for a few hours and enjoy her precious children.  I even got to share some chocolate with Trace!   I felt honored ---

I am so blessed.

But I still want a miracle for my pal.
I want it BAD!
I want the cancer to disappear.
I want her to have even MORE time with her daughter, sons, and wonderful husband.

But I trust God.
No matter what - even if the healing does not come on this side of heaven - I know - HE knows what is best.  HE has the big picture! However...
HE has been healing her. I believe that too!
HE has had her - I know she knows that.

Trace blessed me.  I asked her what God had been speaking to her...

She said -- "He said He was going to draw me near".   " He said, I have a purpose for you"  and  "He said to walk by faith and not by sight".

I don't think I have to say anything more.....   we all need to know that --

HE does have a purpose for us.
HE will draw us near -- are you pushing HIm away?   Are you listening?
And...Do you walk by faith and not by sight?

Heavenly Father,  I believe that is all I want to say this eve ...when you  release me to say more I will ...but right now -- please  -- touch her.

Touch those I spoke to for the past 3 days...
Touch those that I am praying for -- new prayer requests..and to the ladies -- especially Jeanuetta  and her team....bless them Lord, Amen.


Saturday, September 14, 2013

...MY healing does not always look like what you think...or what you want....

I was up --pretty much all of the night.

Thinking and praying for a family 1400 miles away - a family that is mostly a stranger and yet, a family that ---- is my brother and sister in Christ.

And THIS is not about me....oh Lord, that someone would read this and see that THEY too....would have this type of relationship with YOU....and seek YOU....and claim YOU....

When the sun came up, I was reminded - HE makes all things new.  God does make all things new.

As I sit here now - reading my  past blog posts about claiming healing  and reading  Trace's emails from this summer .....

I can hear the Spirit of God whisper.....

  "My healing is complete and it does not always LOOK like what you want to see".....

Wow -- speechless.  
YOU are doing something so precious for Trace 1400 miles away.  I may never know the extent to which  it is  ....I may not be privileged to see the 'end'...but I DO trust YOU enough God to know that she will be healed here and there with You too.

Thank you Lord.
I will trust you.

Beloved,  worship ME by living close to Me.  This is My original design for man, into whom I BREATHED MY VERY BREATH OF LIFE.  This is My desire for you:  that you stay near Me as you walk along your life- path. EAch day is an important part of that journey.  Although you may feel as if you are going nowhere in this world, your spiritual journey is another matter altogether, taking you along steep, treacherous paths of adventure.  THAT is why walking in the Light of  My Presence is essential to keep you from stumbling.  By staying close to ME, you present yourself as a living sacrifice.  Even the routine part of your day can be a spiritual act of worship, holy and pleasing to Me.   - God 

Genesis 2.7, Psalm 89.15, Romans 12. 1-2

Dear Trace, 
I am not even sure if you will ever read this....
But I wanted to tell you -- I am so proud of you.  
I look forward to the day in heaven when we will worship together. 
I look forward to meeting your children there and your devoted husband too. 
I will always treasure our high school time -- especially that night we walked from the high school to 2nd street in the freezing snow just to throw snowballs at Brendan's house and then we walked ALL the way back to your house in that freezing  weather and tried to warm up our freezing cold soaked bodies with hot chocolate at your house.   We were stupid silly kids and even back then ...I was being a  selfish kid that just sort of maybe would get a 'glimpse' of silly!!!   
I will also remember the day I was there at your house  and did dishes after supper and your dad commented on how  "I cleaned around the entire sink"....funny how some little memories stick.  
You stick.  
You have touched many.  THAT was a part of the word I got from GOD -- YOU are a deeply rooted and planted TREE in HIM...and your legacy will live on.  How beautiful!  
And - 

I have NO doubt that the word I got from God for you -- YOUR CHILDREN will be fine.  THEY will flourish and because of them -- there will be MANY in HIS Kingdom!!   That is such a promise.  

And I know that I know- HE is doing a healing in you right  now.... spiritually and mentally -- and I am NOT giving up the prayer for a miracle of physical healing  - not until...

I pray that today, YOU will be blessed by your children and family. 
I pray that today - HE will give you, your daily bread.  
I pray that today will be cherished.  And we won't worry about tomorrow.  

Everyone should be concerned about today - we are all one heart beat - one breath away from meeting Jesus - I am so thankful ..HE is your savior!  
- Michelle 

aka -- Chelly 

Friday, September 13, 2013

..a simple conversation with HIM.....

Ok, the news this eve was not what I expected. Ethan was to the point - the cancer has spread to her brain.

I expected it.  I knew. 

I know, but I want to say this....why DID you put that UNCTION in me to proclaim healing?
Why did I hear 'who says I can't heal her?'...

I did what I believed YOU wanted me to do.
I prayed.
I fasted.
I proclaimed.

I posted a blog.
I have been fighting the doubts cast by the enemy for weeks.

I believed.

I debated and took the risk and put it out there.
I published the post.  I tagged it for Facebook -- I WANT a healing so YOUR glory will shine.
Was I mistaken?    God I pray this was for YOU...for HER...and NOT for me.....

I am God. 
I will heal her. 
She is mine. 
She loves me .....did you forget?  I AM the I AM
I know exactly WHAT I am doing. 
MY GLORY does shine in her. 

I am not trying to say YOU don't.
I realized that when the cancer returned, I mean, I get it -- I can read between the lines but it seemed to me that  this 'impossilbe' feat could be obtained!

Nothing is impossible for me. 

But I visualized the cancer snaking back down her neck.
I believed.
Did I mess up?
Did I share false hope?

No, YOU did what I asked .....I am using you.  I am showing others to claim their faith. 
And my WILL will be done... lives touch other lives, she has touched many and she continues to touch others. 
I have her. 
I will heal her - in MY TIME for MY purpose. 

Ok, I won't doubt and I will believe I have  proclaimed and believed and I  did as YOU instructed.--  I will believe that You are pleased with me.

It is not about me -- it is all about YOU.

Thank you for last night.
I mean, tonight....I realize how GREAT and PERFECT Your timing is.
I am sorry that  it took me  several weeks before I finally 'took You off the hook'...I mean I am sorry it took me so long to SEE that...
And once I did YOUR peace came.  I am humbled.

And her children will be fine.  That is a word for her- to help her, knowing that her children will be fine.   Her legacy will flourish ... she is that tree.   
I will do what I said I will do - the time is short for everyone - I promise to heal her. 

Come to me and rest.  I created you first and foremost to KNOW ME and to live in rich communication with me.   Continue to do that -- I am using you.  Relate to me as your Shepherd, you are my subject, you are the clay and I am the Potter.  

Trace knows this.  Accept this thankfully - I have her.  

I am speaking to her too.  

My desire is for ALL of my children to stay near to ME as they walk along their life-path.  That is why walking in the LIght of My Presence is essential to keep anyone from stumbling. Present yourself as a living sacrifice....every thing you do can be a spiritual act of worship, holy and pleasing to ME. 

Genesis 2.7, Psalm 89.15, and Romans 12: 1-2

I will heal her.  

Thank you God.
Forgive me.
As Lisa said -- I too was that tree and YOU are using me to touch others.
Thank you for the healing for Trace.
Thank you for the guidance you are giving Ethan and her right now.
Thank you for showing me that her children will be fine.
Thank you for each and every person that agreed with me in prayer for her healing and I know they will continue to pray for her.
Thank you for allowing me to do this....I mean, I am humbled that I can be a voice -

I now pray for YOUR peace beyond all understanding for Ethan and her. I pray that her time left is hopeful and joyous, and a sweet blessing to her.   I won't give up the hope that YOU could still heal here where I would see it sooner....
We prayed ( TRACE  and I )  back at the beginning of this summer that she would have enough time  - YOUR time and I believe YOU have been answering that --

I believe YOU are right there with her.
I believe in miracles.

I do believe her life has touched many  and will touch MANY more.
I do believe that  YOU are totally enthralled with her beauty.
Lord, thank you.

..a post written to Trace and Ethan..a prophetic word from HIM

 the following is a post i put on trace's carebridge site this am...i was reluctant to share it here as well - but - someone else needs to know the power that god has for them...

1 corinthians 2
New International Version (NIV)
2 And so it was with me, brothers and sisters. When I came to you, I did not come with eloquence or human wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God.[a] 2 For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. 3 I came to you in weaknesswith great fear and trembling. 4 My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit’s power, 5 so that your faith might not rest on human wisdom, but on God’s power.

god’s wisdom revealed by the spirit

6 We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing. 7 No, we declare God’s wisdom, a mystery that has been hiddenand that God destined for our glory before time began. 8 None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. 9 However, as it is written:
“What no eye has seen,
    what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”[b]
    the things God has prepared for those who love him—
10 these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.
The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. 11 For who knows a person’s thoughts except their own spirit within them? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.12 What we have received is not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may understand what God has freely given us.13 This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, explaining spiritual realities with Spirit-taught words.[c] 14 The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit.15 The person with the Spirit makes judgments about all things, but such a person is not subject to merely human judgments, 

Now -- here is my letter/post to Trace and her husband - 

Good morning Trace and Ethan.....I posted scripture from 1 Corinthians and I wanted to expand on this -- 
“Who has known the mind of "......

As you know - and as I have been blasting this newsfeed - YOU are being prayed for by many!  One thing I have learned is that many believers are not  as BOLD as I am-- and for each person writing you and stating they are praying - there are probably 10 or more that are  praying as well ...they  just don't have the freedom and are as comfortable in their prayer conversations with God and well -- THEY pray....too -- so THAT really encourages me and I hope that encourages you.... but that is not the reason I am posting this am.  

In my cell group last night, we were reminded of our gifts - gifts that all believers have/can have access too...and we can live in those gifts and USE those gifts.  I believe you understand what I am speaking about.   I know I have a few gifts and a few  that I am pretty strong in - but that again- is for another post....

Anyway, we learned, we prayed and then we sought out a word from God.  There were six of us - six godly women that LOVE HIM and have been praying with me for YOU...yes you!

So, let me share with you how God blessed me with a word for me...but it is a WORD  for YOU...

1.  I do believe in your healing and have had this UNCTION to continue to proclaim it and believe it.   That is a sprit of FAITH...loyalty when you believe in something that seems impossible - but God continues to give me confirmations that I am NOT wrong to proclaim you healing!

2.  As the ladies prayed over me - all I could focus on was the Lord's prayer...HIS will be done.  Over and over. 
( unsure if that means anything specific to you -- maybe it does -- but I get great comfort in reciting HIS words!)  

As I was anxious....anxious in my spirit.  

I have proclaimed and claimed your healing but the Enemy continues to try and make me feel like ..."nah....her cancer is too far" ....but I rebuke that thought - as you know my husband was spiritually dead and God raised him from the dead.  

People will look at this and read and go -- 'really???'...but this home ( Earth )  is not eternal and a spiritual death - separation from God is FAR more serious than a physical death -- praise God that you understand this!  

So, if HE can restore my man-- HE can do whatever HE wants ..and HE will do whatever HE wants and I know we are in agreement - we have asked for healing.  

Before your recent and I spoke ( via email ) pretty extensively about healing and believing!!   

So..Ok.  After prayer then the ladies gathered around me and this transpired...

3.  The first lady - Jimi said, all she could feel was a feeling of anxiousness - that  was confirmation for me ...I was.  She did not know I was.    And then I shared about the 'what' which the next lady said..

4.  Well as I prayed for Michelle - all I could hear and see in my mind, that God kept telling me,  Trace would be healed...and she smiled and felt confident and I took it as!  Cool.  She is a new lady to our group but a believer and she is a mature lady that has great faith!   I could tell in her eyes ...that was GOD reaffirming my UCTION!  

To which another lady said ..YES...I kept hearing her children will be fine...her children will be fine...her children will be fine.  And at that point - that lady did not know I had such a burden for your kids, or even if she did...I  have felt the only MOM that could take care of them is YOU....YOU were needed period -- YOU could not go to heaven early way...and with tears in her eyes, she kept saying, I know God said her children will be fine.  

I just loved on God right there -- as she did not know the extension to which this  burden consumed my thoughts and expressions....... I had for your - that gave me great comfort and I then shared...yes - I know Trace is going to be in heaven - no matter what but I have been so burdened and  worried about her kids....

5.  That just warmed my heart right there!  So then, my Pastor's wife said, she saw a vision but did not know what it meant -- yet -- maybe one of the other ladies had the meaning...

She saw a huge beautiful tree - full of leaves and full of branches - it was a full tree and then it divided itself and became 2 trees, and then those tree's divided and then more and so forth until there was this beautiful forest - huge big full forest but  there was this mist around it.  

She asked me if that meant anything thing and I said -- "well, one person did prophesy over me once about a tree but I would have to go back over my bible /notes and read exactly what they said"
 ...but then the last lady in the group spoke up .."I know what it means" 
6....That tree is Trace -- she is deeply rooted and she has  this legacy and ....whether God heals her here or in heaven...her legacy will go on - and it will touch the greater population ...your children will touch others and they are those trees which share and tell about God...and those trees flourish ...and so forth and so forth .....

Right then I just got all emotional and loved God even more for sharing that with me....and then it was like instant ...peace...
And Michelle - there is a mist right is not clear....that is why the mist is there - so continue to proclaim healing...continue to share your faith - as YOU too Michelle are making trees and they are flourishing.  

I was so humbled.  And - 
That spirit of being anxious was gone....peace.  

I do believe God can and I am still going to claim that HE is going to heal you - period.  But then we all prayed and I believe I really really really BELIEVED...that direct word from HIM...was for me and for you -- YOUR legacy is flourishing.....You have planted and your children will flourish....
And that is why I am posting....and taking up this newsfeed!  
I love you Trace -- as I type this now -- I am praying -- God -- this is of YOU...may it bless her - amen.  
Michelle Pritchard

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

the faith of a mustard seed.....

This is Trace,  Trace Hoffman.  Trace Hoffman Roberts.   In high school she became one of my better pals.  She was always very soft spoken, loved to run, and had the  hairest arms.  I am not sure if she liked that or if it bothered her.  I know that girls I teach now hate their hairy  arms.  That was 30 years ago -- I am not so sure we were  that  worried about arm hair back then - we did not have ALL the stuff on TV to make us so self-conscious.  The prettiest one on TV was Farrah Fawcett  and well -- I guess --- yes....we did pay attention to that sort of  stuff.  


I wrote a few blogs back that her cancer had returned.  I wrote and shared my heart -- did not want to realize that my pal from 30 years ago would be in the battle of her  

I did not want to 'deal' with this....she is MUCH too young!    

I stay connected as best as I can through her CAREBRIDGE link, as she was updating and sharing what has been going on since March.  She dug in and went back to her cancer diet and put ONLY good stuff into her system and she dug her heals into prayer and believing.  I enjoyed many conversations with her this past summer - just catching up!   In the past month, there has been a turn of events.  Her husband is now blogging or updating.  She is in the battle of her life.  

She had breast cancer back in 2008-09.  I did not find out about it until she was in remission and I saw her with her sleeve on ....a sign of a woman that has dealt with cancer.  We met in 2009 and chatted and at the time, I was battling a HARD thing and yet....still...her battle was SO MUCH more.  I was humbled.  

The cancer... it has returned but this time it is attacking her chest and throat.  Recently the doctor felt it was best to place chest tubes in her to help drain off the fluid that was gathering up.  In reading what Ethan posted and just 'knowing' stuff -- it does not look too good for my high school pal.  The 'queen' of our Junior Homecoming!  The queen of her home....the mother of her three children...the wife of Ethan...

I am 1400 miles away.  Trace and I have kept minimal contact over the past 30 years - here and there.  She has her own set of good close friends and so forth and she has family there in Wisconsin too.  She does not need to worry about me.   She has a sweet husband and she was active in her church.  But...I feel like she is just high school-- like the past 30 years have not disappeared and I could pour my heart out to her in a second and she would smile and listen and have GREAT advice.  

She is one of the first 'close' people that have battled such a disease sort of 'close' to me ...1400 miles away. I mean --  it hurts to know she is in pain.   Anyway, as I said, I have been in prayer and continue to pray but sadly and realistically I had decided to find comfort in the fact that she would soon see JESUS and her final healing would be there. part of me says .."did I just write that?"...and the other says,  "whoops - delete!".  I am being real.  I have seen many movies, I was looking one way....

But as I prayed on Saturday and conversed back and forth with another high school pal and as I typed the words, "it looks like God will heal her later"......I COULD hear very clearly -- "who says I won't heal her now?".  

Really?  Did I hear that?  

All of a sudden, the spirit of the living God came OVER me and I sort of felt like I was questioning God...Really?  Would you heal her now?  

Of course...YES he can. 

 That came over me at midnight on Saturday and as soon as I got to church on Sunday,  and as soon as it was prayer time, I was the FIRST to head to another woman of God that has GREAT faith.......and I said,  "God brought my marriage BACK to life when it certainly seemed impossible and many many many many many many and many nights I would sing that song...'impossible is not a word - it's just a reason for someone not to try'....and I stood in agreement with my friend and we prayed for a miracle of healing.  I was not going to believe it was impossible.  And together we claimed healing and stood in agreement that our friend - 1400 miles away, was going to be healed!  


We claimed a miracle.   I got a confirmation via a message from Pastor Joel Stockstill on Monday.  Later Monday, I saw my 'miracle' baby ..that is another story.  I just know the Holy Spirit was filling me with little signs that I could TRUST God in this.  These confirmations were for increase MY faith and to continue to believe that HE would heal her.  

 I began to envision something as I prayed and I could see the cancer snake BACK DOWN her neck and those cells begin to line up and be attacked by the good cells.  

There I said it.  

I am NOT going to believe my pal is going to be defeated by this cancer -- NOT now...NOT yet.  Period.  
NO WAY!!  

I am being Stubborn God -- I WANT a miracle.  Restore her health, remove those crud and cursed cells - they do not belong in her body -- she is YOURS.  Amen.  

There I said it.  

Today is Wednesday.  This happened Saturday -- why have I waited so long to blog and claim this??  to blog this?   

...truth be told ...I was still having DOUBT....I wanted just one more sign.....I did feel like if I blogged it and if I was wrong...then I would look like a fool -- 

I am a fool for doubting.  Please forgive me Lord, my spirit is willing but my flesh is still weak.  

Today I got an update from her husband.  The Oncologist is going to give her DOUBLE the chemo to try and stop the aggressiveness of the cancer, which is making her VERY ill - dry heaves.  

I read that and I prayed ....that is OK...let them give her the medicine...she is a fighter and SHE is going to BEAT this....period.  

God CAN heal cancer.  
God can remove those cancerous cells. 
God can give back what the locusts have been taking from her since March and this past month....

She will eat her favorite chocolate again...
She will be at our 30th class reunion next summer....

And I will see her healed on THIS side of heaven and we will spend eternity together as sisters in Christ.  

Trace -- I am believing. 
Don't give up -- fight -- fight like you never have before - believing God is taking those cancer cells even as I type.  


God has NEVER let me down before.  Never.  

2 Chron 16.9 "for the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen whose hearts are fully committed to him"...Trace is committed....

Psm 19.14  Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer!  

Mark 11.24  Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer...believe that you have received it and it will be yours!