Friday, December 19, 2014

God heals. God hears. God does supernatural healing.

Healing ....
God can heal physical hurts and emotional ones.  He can change a heart.

I want others to experience the JOY only HE can bring.
I want others to believe in something that CAN happen with HIS help.
I want people to have growing faith - that WHEN they get beyond their own hurt and crisis...they will then PRAY it forward and speak life into another.

That is what happened with me.
I really thought I 'knew it all'.  But I did not.
God loves me enough to allow something to 'hurt'...so my attention was refocused.

And then HE healed me.
And then He restored me and restored my family.  Simple?  No.  But yet...yes.

However -- it takes God's time.

Psalm 34.18 says:  "the LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit".  

I have a sort of 'running' debate with a sister in Christ.  She says 'her pain'  was more  devestating.  More crushing.
I say, 'pain is pain'.  I know that when I was rejected and broken hearted -- there were days, MANY days when ALL I wanted to do was GO to heaven --  check out -- don't pass 'go...don't collect my $200'...( that is a reference from the game of Monopoly).

I would never tell her that my pain equaled her pain -- I did not experience what she did.
But now that God has healed and restored the earthquake that fell upon us -- I realize that when another sister in Christ is in pain -- her pain and hurt is real and that she may just want to check out too -- -- it is THOSE women and men, I want to say -- GOD WILL and CAN heal.

In my most darkest and broken hearted days -I did NOT want to get out of bed.
I did not want someone to tell me it was going to be 'ok'...I WANTED it fixed and yesterday!
I was TIRED of praying and waiting.
I WANTED answers and I wanted to know - that all would be well.
And on many of those days - I wanted GOD to come from heaven and SMACK some people around - I did -- I wanted JUSTICE...what the hell did I do to deserve this hurt?

This world is broken.  This is not our home.  I never did anything to 'deserve' this...but I was/am a sinner and  mercy is for the just and the unjust.... God showed me mercy.  I needed HIS mercy.

Unfortunately -- the only one that could really help me  was God Himself and He was at work - I just could not SEE it.  So then comes the TRUST factor.

So, today --  

I blog this  as a reminder to myself ---
No matter what -- GOD can heal and restore.  God can and HE will.  HIS perfect will IS to restore a marriage.  It is.   We must be obedient.

No matter what the 'world' may say -- GOD hates divorce.  HE does.  As I have said before,  if there is physical abuse or a cause of fear for one's safety .....then GET OUT...but, God's will is to restore and to heal and redeem.

  God's will is to restore.  It just is.  THAT is HIS will.  HIS will is to have a man and a woman as ONE FLESH -- working together to be a union....to show the world HIS love for His church.   People just don't fall out of love.   Love is a verb - it is an action.

When they say 'I never loved you'...they are lying. When they say, 'they love another' - they are lying- that is not love  -- that is EGO and LUST.

 Hurting people hurt others and lie...they have to JUSTIFY what they are doing -- to make it seem 'ok'.
 The Enemy is a liar and the enemy will make a person 'believe' that one never loved another....
        the enemy will make a person 'believe' that another will NEVER change....
   the enemy will make another believe that 'now they finally deserve someone better'........
     the enemy will continue to steal, kill and destroy -- cause he knows....WHAT God can do!

So with that, and with ALL assurance that GOD is CLOSE to the brokenhearted and HE will bind your wounds...I will say to you -- hang in there.....

AND God heals physical stuff - diseases and other stuff as well.  My husband and I experienced a physical healing with our son.  He was four -- with a lump in his neck.   Tests showed it was not cancerous but it had to come out to be sure.  6 months later, it began to grow again and some people told us they were going to pray for that lump.  The doctor stated to come back in 6 months and if it was bigger, it would have to come out -- that probably,  it was cancerous.  So we agreed in prayer with those  that continued to remind us EACH week at church that our son was being prayed for and guess what ...at that next check up the LUMP was gone.  But that was not our only time, when he was born, he had several situations and they were about to cut him open because of a deflated lung when  the pediatrician decided to take an xray  just in case and by then the lung was perfect !
I could go on....  I have a dear woman that is praying and I am in agreement - her husband needs a new heart - literally.  As his heart is dying....we are claiming that one morning, very soon, he will awake and a supernatural healing will have occurred.  If not - he will enjoy Jesus, but what if that is NOT God's will.  I mean...maybe GOD wants us to claim a healing - a crazy healing for this man... I believe  it CAN happen.  I am praying in that manner.  God does this sort of stuff.  Still. 

Earlier this week, our prayer group at school prayed  for a person who needed a direct physical  touch from God and prayers were heard and answered.   Two years ago, I asked God to give my sweet childhood pal enough time before he called her home.   That was her prayer, we agreed.  She had battled breast cancer several years prior to that and it had returned.  And, I believe that God answered our prayers...she had the time God commissioned for her and even though I wanted her to have a supernatureal healing and still be on earth, I know that now -- God had bigger plans and through her homegoing -- HE was glorified.


Today, I got news again of another sweet woman that has a cancer diagnosis.  And the odds ( as it says in Hunger games ) could  be in her favor.  I am believing and claiming it.  I am believing that she will beat the odds as I believe she calls upon HIM.   And I trust God to answer.  Nothing is by accident.  God did not wish cancer upon her - but HE is with her as she battles.  I have claimed the promise in Isaiah 43 ..that when we pass through the rivers, HE is with us....when we go thorugh the waters, HE will  not let it sweep over us and when we walk in that fire -we will not be burned -- we will  not be set ablaze.  So, as she passes through these waters, I KNOW HE is with her and as she crosses the rivers of chemo, medicine, and stuff, it will NOT SWEEP over her, and as the world or perhaps some doctors say she is in the fire, she will not be burned and she will not be set ablaze.  As I believe that one year from now, she and her family will have a testimony of healing - one they never imagined could happen.  Crazy - Supernatural ...but God's provision. 

God does this sort of stuff. 
I believe HE wants to shine more and prove to others EVEN more in these last days...HE is a miracle making God..... HE is God.
.Lord, I pray for all in mind and I know that I know - YOU hear me. 
 in Jesus name..amen.
michelle

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Weight Lifting

 Inspired by  Jesus Calling and my life:     

"When you are plagued by a persistent problem - one that goes on and one - view it as a rich opportunity... like a tutor who is always by your side. Ask Me to open your eyes and your heart to all that I am accomplishing through this difficulty."  - December 18th, 2014 

I go to the gym, I used to have a personal trainer to maximize my effort.  As long as I am teachable and consistent  -- my health should benefit.   Now that I no longer pay her to work out, I must be disciplined enough to continue what we have started.  When I fail to be consistent -- my muscles quickly remind me that they CRAVE this consistency and I ignored something -- 

 
The same is true for us spiritually. 

2 Corinthians 4:17 tells us that we are in an ongoing workout where the troubles of today are producing an "eternal weight of glory." 

Every trial, affliction or trouble we shoulder today can actively build eternal muscle for us in eternity!

In faith, I must thank God for the problem.  And, being consistent in going to HIS Word for everything is a must.  When I don't -- my body CRAVES....my head and thoughts CRAVE a more closeness to HIM that can only come with some quality time with Him.  

Last night, one of my Pastor's reminded me that God's love language expressed to me is quality time....  HE wants my time.  

 
The "eternal weight of glory" we will one day achieve comes through a commitment to be spiritually fit and faithful in the demands and disciplines of daily life. Being "grateful for a problem" changes us.

 Spending the time needed helps build my faith, and the problems become 'nothing'.  I see it through different eyes.  



Isaiah 30: 20-21 says Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more: with your own eyes you will see them.  Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you , saying, "this is the way: walk in it".


Recently, I let a few offenses seep into my soul.  Well, not exactly, I knew I was being offended and I prayed it GONE.  But my flesh, WANTED to soak in it.   My FLESH wanted to share the offense several times with others to get more pity and sympathy -- and yet, my Spirit and Heart could hear the Holy Spirit say, " you are being tested...hold your tongue, speak life and You will be rewarded".  

Even last night, while in worship, God met me and gave me one of those rewards - standing next to me was my son ( home from college ) and worshiping with his hands raised.  THAT spoke volumes and was my 'sign' from my God on the Most High....that my obedience to Him and my decision to not allow my flesh to 'win'.... was why, I got such a blessing.  


I needed the reminder.  

My Grandmother of 48 years, she was 44 when I was born, is laying in a beautiful room, cradled with PJ's on and her stuffed animals around her.  Her mind is losing ground.  I wish I could see her and tell her much more, but God reminds me of all the WONDERFUL times we sat at her kitchen table and 'caught' up before the Dementia set in.   Her 'eternal weight of glory' is close....eternity is close for her.  

Last night my Pastor reminded us all -- "what really matters?".  And God clearly reminded me last night about one of the offenses that occurred yesterday -- that I was to show HIS grace and mercy ....as that one, did not understand that God,  is allowing this  affliction right now....to cause her to draw CLOSE to HIM.  So I prayed.  Again. 

And this morning, the Holy Spirit spoke to me again and blessed me with the reminder....I am loved.  Accepted, redeemed, forgiven, adopted, and chosen -- for this time.  Amen.  



Perhaps, you -- that is reading this -- needed that reminder as well.  
God fights for us.  
Ask God to open your eyes and ask Him to SEE in a new way.  
Open up His word - Psalm 25 is a favorite as well as Psalm 23 -- my Grandma , I am claiming, is NOT walking in a valley of darkness.  I believe God has her breathing yet, cause maybe another has to see her and make peace.  Otherwise, God would have her home in eternity.  HE did not come for us to suffer....but for us to have life.  

Grandma, the next time I see you - it will be in heaven!  Amen!     I pray your home going does not labor out.....  God is merciful.  

Humbled,  
Michelle 



Thursday, December 11, 2014

The Largeness of Marriage

"Not everyone is mature enough to live a married life.  It requires a certain aptitude and grace...But if you are capable of growing into the largeness of marriage, do it."  - Matthew 19. 11-12 Msg. Bible


"Iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another."  - Proverbs 27.17

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In Marriage, opposites attract.  There is strength in this:  our differences are what enable us to be one.  But in time, things that once attracted us can become the very things that repel us.
                             - Lisa and John Bevere    "The Story of Marriage".


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I used to hear comments like, "in heaven I don't have to be married"  ...."I can't wait to get to heaven, so I am no longer married".    "Marriage - why did I ever do it?".

Marriage is hard.    Presently, we are getting ready to  lead an  special conference  ....a study on marriage.

So therefore, the enemy attacks  more.  But that is not what this blog is about.

I got to thinking tonight about something from the study  -- "the LARGENESS of marriage."

And, I got to thinking about something John Bevere stated.  He made the comment that he learned the hard way  -- as God reminded him, that 'she' ...his wife.... was HIS daughter.   God's daughter.

And from that moment, he treated his wife a bit differently.

And, likewise,   Lisa reminds us that the husband is God's son.  So, I need to think of my husband as God's son.

Which....  makes me treat him differently -- or it should.

Since that study, I have been thinking more of 'how' I treat my husband and men.
And I have watched people a bit more.  And I have searched my head and heart and asked God -- am I treating my husband like Your Son?  Your righteous heir?

Are we treating each other like the people they really are? 
                                          Sons and daughters of the MOST HIGH God?  

I know I have been selective in those actions and treatments -- the Holy Spirit reminds me and keeps me humble.

Tonight, one area I know that I must always continue to refine   -- is in the area of respect.  Showing respect to my spouse.

In therapy that was a BIG deal.  I had to make some repeated choices to change some behaviors that had become automatic.  As early in my life, some actions that were attractive had now become a repellant. It takes effort and practice and time.

That is sort of hard to accept.  But...if I believe that I changed  and what I expect  to see in my spouse changed...then why can't it change for me too?   I mean....we always are changing and we must be willing to embrace those changes.  And I must be willing to change.

Showing respect means -

-- now mind you, in some of this blog I AM speaking to myself and with other suggestions ...I am allowing the Holy Spirit to just fill my head with HIS words -- 

Showing respect means - letting him have the last word at times.  Showing respect means listening, really listening and making a physical note to follow up on something and or stop something.

Showing respect means I let him embellish a story here or there and just leave it be.  Showing respect means I don't take over the conversation and interrupt.

Showing respect means I guard his quiet time and when he needs to be alone - to let him be.

Showing respect means that I don't nag and act so needy that I drive him nuts.

Respect might be watching that football game when something else can wait to be done.

Showing respect is thinking ahead and doing some task or something that would help him out.

Respect might just be letting him make a decision and showing respect may mean that I  stick up for him   and protect him -- not allowing  another to fill my  head with 'what is wrong' about him.

Showing respect may be saying thank you for putting away the dishes.  And NOT letting him know that they were put away in the wrong places.

Showing respect might  be me just making sure he realizes-- he is loved.

Showing respect may be holding my  tongue when I know that I  know, he did not listen....
but letting the Holy Spirit do the convicting and disciplining.

Showing respect may be praying and asking God to show me HOW to improve the area of respect.  Showing respect may be doing what he has asked...maybe losing those 10 pounds, or dressing with the sexy little teddy more than once a month.

Point is...pray, communicate and ask God.

I would like to think the Largeness of my marriage is growing.

I would like to think that if someone asked my husband 'how' I show him respect, he would not have to think HARD to list something.

I would like to think that as our marriage grows, we are sharpening each other for HIS purposes.
I would like to think that God is happy with the story we are creating --

Lord, for WHAT I need to change and do or refine...  I am AT your mercy.  Change me Lord.  For the  women or men that read this -- maybe it enrich their lives and help their marriage, or may they just go about their day and praise God that their spouse respects them.  Or may it cause a few to reflect, repent, and change.  In either circumstance, protect this blog and USE it for YOUR purpose.  I am humbled Lord, thank you - 

- Michelle



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Wednesday, December 3, 2014

True Tori -- A revelation.

This is not the normal blog post.  Joyce Meyer stated something today, "people are filled with or obsessed with information but not much revelation".

I got to thinking.

God revealed something to me - on a TV show I was watching yesterday.

Last night, my husband and I watched a series of shows on Lifetime..called "True Tori".
 Don't judge us. 
 It was a very interesting evening -- watching a family unravel in front of you and then discussing what  should and should not have happened brought more insight and healing to the both of us.

Seriously.  Healing.  It is rather sad, but when you realize how blessed you are -- other stuff is just no big deal.    It was also something to laugh about at times.

I almost posted a FB status about watching the show,  as by the 3rd episode I wanted to scream...YOU NEED JESUS!!   But I deleted it and continued to play a game on my phone and we both watched this particular episode called, "He said, She said".  

 You can find it on You tube if you want to see what I am going to share....  It is was on Episode 5 of Season 2.


So... basically, the couple is in therapy and  decide to go and see a Spiritual Guru.


So, in the middle of this visit and the cameras are filming, Tori's husband breaks down and begins to sob.  If you listen closely to the Guru, you hear much of the new age...mumbo jumbo stuff that sounds well and good.    Then the break down continues and he is crying so hard  - like that 'snotty' cry.    But what unfolds next is WHAT stopped me in  my tracks  --- and I hit rewind and watched it and showed it to Brendan again and again...

Revelation ...


When Dean ( Tori's husband ) comes out of his crying fit, his eyes become fixated on the Guru and you can see a stare.  Transfixed.  Then there is a commercial break and they  repeat the scene.   To which then, his wife says, "Dean, are you ok?" and the Guru replies, " of course he is OK, he is in  authority now". 

 Then Dean says, "before, just before, your face..it morphed and changed...your face became dark and your beard black". 

 And the Guru says, "of course it did, we are many people" and Dean replies, "I don't understand that".  And the Guru lets out a laugh - a blood curdling laugh...that is very evil.  


Hello ...
Wake up...
Hello...
Wake up...

Did you catch that... the Guru morphed....? 

 Right there on National TV.  

 The camera's did not show it, but I know exactly what transpired.... no doubt.  A demon manifested and his face changed.  

Bingo.  

You may call me crazy; you may think I have gone over the top...but. ..people...

AS much as we call upon GOD...and boldly pray for HIM and HIS provision....who do you think is ..trying his best to STEAL, KILL, and destroy?   Satan is.  

Satan is alive, real, and for right now.... in control of many people, things, and he made an appearance in spirit - and I believe in flesh..on the show last night.  

I believe this episode originally aired 11/18...and as I searched the internet this eve...I kept thinking -- surely -- someone else caught this...but maybe not.  

Or maybe I am just going to open this can of worms - and who knows -- maybe it will go viral...LOL..But all I know is ....I won't let him win.  

So, with that -- I am sharing.  

You can believe me.   Or you can think I am crazy.   You can research the show and watch it yourself.  You can do your own research and maybe one of my readers will even want to debate me.  

But what I know is...  Satan is NOT going to win.  God wins.  

I went to Guru's Singh's page and found this note...from a person -- but no response...  

Satan is alive and real.  

I am not afraid of him...I was pumped up to share and speak again satan even more today -time is short.  
We are not promised tomorrow, but Jesus stated - he was coming again.  

I believe it maybe sooner than later.  
I keep watching the news, read, and think -- whoa....  

What has God revealed to you lately?  

- Humbled -- excited and yet...  praying right now that these people and the MANY that are lost will SEEK Jesus and not some Guru... In Jesus name, amen.  


Monday, December 1, 2014

Advice - Don't shave your butt.


I had a friend today,  ask me, what would you do?


I had to laugh at that cause this am, I accidentally shaved my butt.   Ok, well it was not by accident, but I was trying to get those little short hairs under my leg that were no longer short and I put in a fresh blade and then I was not being patient nor careful and all of a sudden, I noticed that I probably had shaved a spot that had never been shaved before.  LOL

Then.... I could not actually SEE down there, as I am not a contortionist and well, I could tell I was bleeding - but anyway.  No pun intended.  

But in all sincerity, I thought about that and was reminded of an old post.  A blog entry from November of 2011.  And after I read it - I just cried.  

Here it is:  

 November 9. 2011

These are some of the greatest pieces of HIS word and 'advice' that I have collected in my spiral in my purse -- which I go to daily -- which I say out loud and re-say outloud often!!

-a wife's prayers for her husband have far greater effect on him than anyone else's... even a mother's....as it says in Matthew 19.5.. man leaves father and mother and becomes one flesh...
- there is a difference between a choice and a mistake.... I am sorry will cover a mistake... but a choice... will need a "will you forgive me?"..   and that can reset a relationship...
- what am I to do?  Glorify God...
-be someone that people want to be around...
-don't let the torture of loneliness that leaves you longing for anyone who will look into your soul.... overcome you... seek HIM..... let HIM see you ... don't seek others.. seek HIM!
-the joy of seeing something hopelessly dead be brought back to life -- is the greatest joy we can know..
- Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things.....    Love never ends... 1 Cor 13. 7-8
- Praise HIM in the storm...

-Hide the word in your heart.. that you might not sin -- Psm. 119.11
- those who sow in tears shall reap in joy!..   Psm. 126.5
- above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins..   1 Peter 4.8
-HE will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry.. Isah  30.19
- Romans 12.12.. be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer..
- The Lord says, " I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you".   Psm. 32.8

So -- see -- this advise sounds good,  and I believe and look to each and every card in that spiral .. and there are more... and I will go to them often  and yet,  in  my quietness, the enemy will sneak up and just pounce.... so, we must have our armor on -- being ready to battle those firery darts.

We need to stand firm and claim HIS word, hold up our shield of faith and put on that belt of truth and righteousness...   it all works when we are ready -- to be ready  = prayer.

So Lord, I don't have any advice.  I know nothing - but YOU do.  YOU speak loudly to those who asked and to me.. via your word.  YOu know today, that I am claiming victory inspite of the fact that I am weary and tired.... and you know I want it 'faster'.. but I know that YOUR time is best and I can't wait.  So, rather than allow the enemy to remind of of what is 'not yet'.... I will proclaim you and proclaim what will become..

Lord,
my family will be completely restored, the hurts will be all in the past,  the awkward moments will vanish,  the counsel will turn to prayer and then it will pay forward..... the ministry will be revealed,  the  one will have his eyes opened and the other will too... the needs will be met..  the joy will resound all of the time  and what  YOU have lead me to believe... will come true... it will be better than ever.. in every situation, in every event.. with everyone... and with those and them and the others ... and then, another trial or season will come along, but this time, we will have victory in our back pocket so we will be able to fight harder, believe more, and get through that too -- until you call us all home......

Thank you Lord.  YOU are a great and mighty God.  I love that illustration how we fight with toothpicks and you come in with cannons!   Ex. 14.14 -- YOU are fighting the battle and winning - I need only be still.

Lord, this prayer goes especially to those two women on my heart right now - and me -- open the the eyes of their men..... let them get a glipse of what could  be-- may they want it.... may they experience you in a whole new way -- amen!
 - your daughter...   michelle


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I said I cried.  If you know me...and my story, you can see why I cried.  I can't remember the two ladies that asked me that questions back in 2011, the person that asked this of me today - needs only to know - HE IS fighting for that beloved one.  And as I wrote in my prayer -- back in November, that our ministry would be revealed -- it has.

I wrote- that the hurts will be in the past -- they are!
I wrote  - the joy will resound all the time -- it does!

I cried today because  God used this funny illustration and an old blog post to remind me ...HE wins.  We must believe HE is able and we call upon the unseen ....and we call it into being.  Be faithful...wait on HIM and tell God everything and maybe write it down too.  So when you are feeling just a little be overwhelmed or you believe that HE is not answering the prayers -- look back and SEE all that HE has done.

I stand amazed and humbled.
- Michelle


Sunday, November 30, 2014

Merry Christmas 2014

And this is Elsa Frozen  -- who was added to the mix this spring!  
This is Hunter at his last FAU game...with Ashtyn 

Taylor being SILLY on a Sunday - probably Easter ....
Merry Christmas to Friends and Family!  This year brought another MOVE and another family member.

Elsa belongs to Taylor and joined us in Spring.  Having a puppy around made us all appreciate Bella  - who is now 8...but the Patriarch of the  of the family at 56!!  Both dogs are a joy and we all agree Bella needed a friend to keep her young!

Hunter continues to play for FAU Men's Soccer and after this Spring...he will be      (on transcript) a Senior...with Junior status.    So he is eligible to play soccer for two more years -- unsure what he will decide come this Spring.

 He has been playing for so long - he debates back and forth.  Currently he helps Team Boca on the weekends with some of their camps and such, so he is still getting a little soccer in.   This past June, he and his team won the STATE CUP again for the  third year in a row.  We expected to travel to Louisiana or Kansas City again for Regionals but Brendan was blessed with a broken nose and he went with his team solo.  I sat in an operating waiting room as they set the broken nose and then some TLC began.  He got hit in the nose by another  basketball player.  Needless to say...Brendan has stated he won't be playing basketball with anyone other than his grandkids ever again.....

Hunter is doing well at college and working his way towards that Accounting Degree.   We traveled - not as much as previous years but we traveled to watch him play - often.  His roommates or Towne House mates state he is a good cook and keeps the kitchen tidy!    Who would of thought?  His sweet friend Ashtyn is a Senior at UCF and in Education  -- more teachers - bless her!

Taylor graduated last December.... and got a job at the High School within a week!  God's favor.  She continues to teach 11th grade American History and often....can be seen 'lesson planning' with her dad.   She is Varsity Coach for Girls Volleyball and certainly enjoys being their coach and mentor.  She moved out to be ON HER own this past  July and guess what... we thought that was such a good idea that we moved again - right next door.    She was not too happy with us for a good month or two but we are a convenient baby sitter  for Elsa when needed.  
Brendan and Hunter celebrating a WIN for Team Boca!  

Bella and Elsa



















Our time together as a family comes in bits and pieces now...with the EMPTY nest going on.  Once Taylor moved out and Hunter was planning his move to a Boca Towne House...Brendan looked at me and stated, 'why are we paying rent for a BIG house when we are the only ones here?'.....So, in August, God provided a small cottage and we moved again.

I really am tired of moving and prayerfully we will build in 2015...I am asking God for a 'fall' program!   We have a lot in a beautiful area that we bought in 2011 when we sold our house - we just have not been able to get that building program started.  But... it will happen.  Now that we have lived in 4 different houses, we know EXACTLY what we want to build!  In Jesus name!  
   
      As I said, our family time is limited but awesome when it happens and often it is just at a restaurant or a soccer game but it is still filled with love, teasing, and laughter!  Amen.  God is so sweet and faithful.

Brendan and I continue to ride our Harley.   My brother flew down here last December and we took a few days  to ride around southern Florida - what a treasure.   We took another   week this summer and rented one with my brother  and his wife for 3 days. We  went from Janesville,  Wisconsin to Iowa, to Minnesota and followed the Mississippi River back into Wisconsin -- what a trip and beautiful ride.  I had never been to western Wisconsin - what a treat.  Now...the bucket list is noted that we want to do that same trip but in the 'fall' when the leaves are changing.  We stopped in this beautiful park in Iowa and enjoyed the local fare.

In April we were part of a group that formed a new church and we have been very busy working within that area and seeing where God is leading.

What joy ...and what hard work....  but serving and doing what we know God has ordained is pretty important to us.

Our next door  neighbors, are, the  new Creative Arts Minister and his wife...  that has been a TRIP.  He is from Australia and she is from Michigan.  We laugh as we are 'suite mates'.  Literally, we are sharing a part of the same old Florida cracker house.   If he, Dave,  has his music loud ...it is just like in college...we have to turn our tv up louder.  Seriously -- it is such a blessing.  

Most recently, through God's favor and the blessing of a dear friend..... the Creative Team has created a new CD...music.  Four songs.  I can't wait to purchase it and/or place a link up to hear the songs.  They are pretty cool.  Hillsong worth like material.... I am dead serious.  I am not partial -- even though I know the authors of the songs personally.  LOL.
With the opening of HIS Church - Its Jesus's Church...there have been many rewards of NEW friends and now extended family - with all three Pastors and the people within.  Truly -- they have a heart for God and to serve -- it is quite amazing.  There is no HIGH like a Jesus high...

Taylor and I at a recent wedding.  


Brendan and I celebrating our 27th Anniversary in Key West.  


This is Taylor and her friend Jake -- no he is NOT from State Farm!


 Ok, I think I have updated the info.    We  also enjoyed am extended  weekend  in Key West - we were spoiled and had a beautiful home right at the end of a point - what a view.  I now understand what they mean about Key West!  We actually stayed on Little Torch Key and enjoyed several of the  keys -- what a blessing.

 And...we are still going to try and get a few more Harley trips in yet before the end of the year....that can happen when you live in Florida - I felt bad for my sister as she sat in Lambeau Field at the Packer Game today and it was ..um...9 degrees....and it was 72 here!   It is actually colder in our cottage at times.... Brendan keeps the air set at 70!


And as I end this letter.... as the last photo says - the most secure place to be in this world is in the family of God, our prayer is that Jesus is the reason for the season within your home and may God bless you in a mighty way in 2015.  We are still in Okeechobee...we can easily meet you in Orlando if you are visiting or we travel other places too.... after this 'house' is built I can offer a room -- LOL!

Until then, I can only offer a love seat sofa /couch.   Or, I will offer my sister's house - she has a beautiful spot, extra room and a GORGEOUS pool!!   ( its heated! )  My place...is a bit small -- poor Hunter has to sleep on the floor or the Lazy Boy when he visits... as we are really in a cottage for now  -- but it is the perfect place for us both right now.

 We laugh - it is like being in our first apartment back in Whitewater - and we are enjoying the life we have been blessed with  at this season of our lives -- and with THAT expectancy -- God wins.  Amen.

Michelle  and Brendan too....




Saturday, November 29, 2014

I am WORTH it. You are WORTH it.

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV         
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.


God has GREAT plans for me ...for YOU.  God has plans to give us a future and hope.  Yet, sometimes we forget and we feel left out. 

Psalm 139:  13-15 For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

I have heard this verse recited and I myself have recited it over and over.  God knew exactly what He was doing when I was formed.  That same promise is for you. 


Two simple verses with great power. 

So --

So...YOU don't have to settle.  Period.  End of story. 

If you are in a marriage and you are unequally yoked -- and you LOVE the Lord..seek HIS guidance and counsel to make the right and godly decision.  Know that God hates divorce, but HE never intended for you to be abused and hurt.   That decision is between you and God.  However, seek godly advice too.  Be careful as to WHOM you let speak into your life. 

If your husband beats you and/or  you have reason to believe that you are in harms way -- seek HELP.   And....God will provide. 

However,  I have read and know several -- where the wife knew...she was to be still and wait on God and their marriage was restored and God used the wife to bring back the husband to Himself. 

It is hard to fathom or imagine and yet, each woman I have spoken too -- who endured something in which only God held her.....there.... and then  EACH  have stated -- they would not change the past, as it has BROUGHT them here.  To this place, for such a time as this.   

But it took prayer and time.

I don't think we should try and make sense out of everything God does.  HE does work in mysterious ways. 

I would never advocate to 'endure'....and I know God would not intend for you to endure a physical beating in His name....  that  - to me is common sense - get out.  !!  But I know that if you are calling upon Him and You and Jesus are one flesh....then HE will fight for you and bring an end to this suffering. 

I have seen where some women -- want it. .....  they 'enjoy' the pity party.  Sad.  They are not willing to trust God in their situation.  BIG SAD.

Others --  they seem to believe this is a 'lesson' they have  to learn and maybe God is testing them...but seek God on it.  Search the scriptures and BE accountable to a few women to pray with .....  and allow God to move. 

And even more...don't trust God enough to seek the right help.   I can't blame them, the "SO called Christians" around them...have failed them. 

People will fail you.  God won't.

If your husband once loved the Lord....believe and pray that the Holy Spirit will convict him.  I know that the Holy Spirit is convicting but.....many times a person's heart is SO HARD...they won't hear.  Claim victory over their present state...and believe that God will deliver and submit to what God is asking you to do.  And speak life and be positive towards your children ...as that will always be their dad.   In this day of social media - keep the CRUD off the newsfeed - even if something makes you laugh...it shows the rest of us that you are looking for 'human' affirmation instead of letting GOD fight your battle. 


Maybe God is asking you to be still and quiet and let him walk this out....
Maybe God wants you to retreat and come to HIM for everything....
Maybe there is something that you need to change...... first...and then God will open his eyes. 
Maybe...there is more. 


Often I believe that both men and women are not willing to FIGHT or do the hard. 

Please note...your husband probably DID love you at one point and he wanted to make the family work...but most likely, he has listened to a lie. 

Hurting people hurt others.  In that sinful daze...one HAS To make the other feel bad...so that one can LIVE with the sin and hurt.  It is justified in their mind.    Again, it is hard to fathom and imagine...unless you have lived it. 

It is so hard -- if I had the power to SMACK a few, I would.

Romans 12:2 ESV         
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect

  God knows.  But I know that God is the ultimate warrior and HE will judge and ultimately....if that spouse continues in his sin... the sin will be found out and he will look at Jesus at judgment day and it will be settled. 

Truth be told, if God has released you - be released and seek  to forgive  and seek help but LET it be.  However, if God has asked you to be still and pray and wait...on HIM.  Then do so -- with HIM. 

You are worth it.   
You are worth it. 
You are worth it. 

And....if you loved this man at one time -- and he is listening to Satan -- he deserves your prayers right now - more than ever -- maybe God has called you to this moment to be that warrior on your husband's behalf.  Maybe. 

Please note - my blog post today is for a general audience.  I am unsure of WHOM this is for.  It has been on my mind - heavy...to remind myself...I am worth it.  God brought me to this blog a week ago and I just could not get it written....a bit weary to write....as there are several around me that are in such a dire situation right now, but I believe they will SEEK HIM and follow what HE tells them to do. 

In my own experience -- when my heart was ripped out and by the 'world's standards' - I had every right to walk away from my marriage...I knew that I knew, God had called me to wait and pray as one of the first scriptures God wrote on my heart was ..."love covers a multitude of sins". 



And...if you are not married but in a relationship where ....there is already hurts and baggage...RUN...why do you believe, "you can change him"????  


You can't.  Only God can.  When the changing has occurred....then relook at this relationship. 

Ladies...YOU don't have to have a man to 'satisfy' you -- that HAS To be Jesus. 
Being alone and walking in life alone is NOT a bad thing.
Trust that God can and will bring you the right godly man.

 Just because there is one right there is front of you ...it does not mean THAT is the right one. 
The RIGHT one would come without strings attached. 
The RIGHT one would be accepted by your friends and family. 
The RIGHT one would not have to tell you how much he loves you by his FACEBOOK post...

Dear Jesus....would she see ...she is WORTH so much more? 

The RIGHT one won't ask you to help make his car payment only after 2 dates. 
The RIGHT one  won't get a text from his baby mamma - every 5 minutes.

Ok ...I may be getting a little exaggerated here.  The point I know I was trying to make is....  YOU are worth it. 


Dear Jesus....would she see ...she is WORTH so much more?

You are worth being courted.
You are worth  the time it takes to get to know your family. 
You don't have to be someone's 'sloppy second'. 
You don't have to wonder where he is all the time.
You don't have to play referee for his kids...
You don't have to be the one to initiate the 'date'....and You don't have to settle. 

Colossians 3:1 ESV /     

If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God.

Dear Jesus....would she see ...she is WORTH so much more?


Please note - my blog post today is for a general audience.  I am unsure of WHOM this is for.  It has been on my mind - heavy...to remind myself...I am worth it.  God brought me to this blog a week ago and I just could not get it written....a bit weary to write....as there are several around me that are in such a dire situation right now, but I believe they will SEEK HIM and follow what HE tells them to do. 

And, there are several around me right now that are single and maybe  - in my opinion - they have settled.   I have another loved one in a young marriage but seeking God in it ...but it is still hard and it hurts  -- and I have had to release them both to HIM...as THEY have to FIGHT this out with God...it has to be that way.  In the meantime, I pray!  I have a daughter that is now dating and I praise God that he is a man, that has sought after God and the relationship is one that God is forming.  She knows God has brought her this person and watching it unfold is wonderful but I have to give it to God each day...as the mom, I  don't wish to see my own get hurt.   I have a niece that loves the Lord and her heart is broken at this moment, as her boyfriend broke up with her...as he is entering the Navy and wanted them each to have the time to do what they each needed to do...and see where God is leading them both.  Maybe God will bring them back together - or...HE has even BETTER plans.  It is very hard as they are both seeking God in this and yet, through tears, I have to remind her that GOD is fighting for her broken heart and HE will restore it - I pray she does not settle. 

And I thought back to my own Senior High Experience where my boyfriend broke up with me and I did just exactly what I should NOT of done...I settled.... and dated another RIGHT in front of me -- that was not God's plan.   It was awful. 

In our hurt...we tend to SEEK whatever will give us comfort. 

But...our comfort has to be God...and come from HIM... 

I guess, my heart just wanted to encourage my loved ones...continue to SEEK HIM.
My heart wants to encourage the women I have prayed with and for this past week...SEEK HIM and I still believe in miracles and marriage. 

My heart also wants to encourage the single ones around me -- you may not even realize that you are being prayed for -- but ...YOU ARE worth it... Don't settle. 

- humbled..
God ... this was YOUR post.  I pray YOU came through this. 

And....  to quote Beth Moore..."this challenging stuff...is what I am called to pray for and think about right now -- as THIS is where God has me...otherwise, I am pretty sure I would be PERFECT and sitting by his feet".  I think of that often -- God has me HERE right now -- maybe stepping on a few toes with this blog post or may be it is giving clarity to another -- but doing HIS will is what HE has be doing right now and it is challenging and hard, but OH so worth it.  As I will enjoy heaven even more - knowing I did what HE asked.  amen.

Philippians 2:2-8 ESV /         
Complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped,

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Dear Daddy... a daughter's letter that changed a family.


Today is Thanksgiving.  

I have scrolled through Facebook several times, made a cheese cake and then took several messages from family in Wisconsin.  My daughter is getting her 'bake on' and getting ready to enjoy the day with her boy that is a friend...LOL.  My son is sound asleep as he had a late night with his pals all home for Thanksgiving and then he will spend the day with his 'girl that is a friend'...and I am enjoying the Macy's Day Thanksgiving Day parade.  Later, we will travel to some new friends and enjoy some fellowship  and great food.  

 As a child...this was always the HIGHLIGHT of the day  ( the parade ) and then to Grandma's.  For many years, we would shuffle between two Grandma's and then as we got older, it steamed into one big celebration that had to be housed at a 'hall' as the family got too big.    It was not picture perfect and there were many Thanksgiving mornings where I was in tears as a young TWEEN...mad cause I was in the barn and /or pitching manure but this post is NOT about me.  

No childhood is perfect.  My parents did not wake up and  sit and drink coffee as they watched the parade.  Many times, there as a MAD dash and scramble to find socks that matched and then the smell of whatever my mom baking   to take to the Thanksgiving meal would start to burn and yelling occured.....but...for the most part - it was good.   And...the chores had to be done - cows did not milk themselves.   

Even though, if I could look back and watch EACH year....I bet I could see God's grace and mercy and find something within the day ...to be thankful for.    But as a child...I do remember several 'sad' Thanksgiving mornings that did not go as I expected.  

And then, as an adult....as we raised our children - I had the authority to invite and plan Thanksgiving dinner so that I could sit and drink my  hot cider and enjoy the parade.  However, even as an adult....there came a time when the idea of being with family and celebrating the holiday - hurt ...as  we were broken for a time.   But today....

I am VERY thankful today.  
I have  my mug of apple cider near this computer....My man is running some errands, the kids are accounted for and I know my family is getting together in Wisconsin at various homes and my family here is busy too....grateful.   My heart is full and happy.  But...

But....  I found this letter/devotional today and it stopped me -- quickened my spirit and took me back to several childhood times...back to one particular year just four years ago...and it took me to a new spot.  As I know one family even today .....that is being torn apart - even as we speak.    Satan is a liar and he constantly convinces those that will listen....that it 'just may be better' with another.  OH I HATE him.  

Anyway..... I pray.  Daily.   When I awoke this am, I prayed for another sister in Christ - one that has seen MUCH heartache and trials...and one that is desperately trying to place her family in that Book of LIFE...with HIS help.  She longs to sit with her husband in church and worship with him and her kids.   She has been through much already - even the death of a child -- but I know that I know...God did not bring her across our path.. or my life for nothing.  

I believe GOD is alive and LARGE and I believe that HE - God- is the master chess master  and even with this recent wrinkle within her life....God can and will win.  So, with that...I prayed boldly this am and I am going to stand in the gap for as long as God has me and encourage her to believe that ....her husband will ....see and open his eyes.  Period.  

Ok -- so with that....I found this devotional written by Gary Smalley and  John Trent.  It is a letter that a young teen wrote to her dad.  It touched me so.  

I have already said too much -- read this letter and be blessed and believe....that God will win.  
Amen.  

If this letter touches you -- seek Crosswalk.com and sign up for James Dobson's Couples Devotionals as this week he is going to be looking at 'divorce'....is this the solution you believe should happen next?  

I knew, God told me in my most darkest moment that HE would fight for me and that HE wanted me to extend grace and mercy - I am so glad I listened to God as I am so very thankful that I am not divorced and that my Grandchildren will be with us as we celebrate our 50th wedding anniversary...in um...  23 years!   Or maybe our 40th...I don't want to 'wish' on any grandkids to my kids until...years from now.  LOL!  


Dear Daddy

by Gary Smalley and John Trent
Largely unused in marriages, homes, friendships, and businesses is a tool called emotional word pictures that can supercharge communication and change lives. This concept is as old as ancient kings but so timeless that it has been used throughout the ages in every society. It has the capacity to capture people’s attention by simultaneously engaging their thoughts and feelings. Along with its ability to move us to deeper levels of intimacy, it has the staying power to make a lasting impression.
When faced with the breakup of her parents’ marriage, a hurting teenager named Kimberly used the following word picture in this letter to her father:

Dear Daddy, It’s late at night, and I’m sitting in the middle of my bed writing to you. I’ve wanted to talk with you so many times during the past few weeks. But there never seems to be any time when we’re alone.

Dad, I realize you’re dating someone else. And I know you and Mom may never get back together. That’s terribly hard to accept—especially knowing that you may never come back home or be an “everyday” dad to me and Brian again. But I want you at least to understand what’s going on in our lives.

Don’t think that Mom asked me to write this. She didn’t. She doesn’t know I’m writing, and neither does Brian. I just want to share with you what I’ve been thinking.

Dad, I feel like our family has been riding in a nice car for a long time. You know, the kind you always like to have as a company car. It’s the kind that has every extra inside and not a scratch on the outside.
But over the years, the car has developed some problems. It’s smoking a lot, the wheels wobble, and the seat covers are ripped. The car’s been really hard to drive or ride in because of all the shaking and squeaking. But it’s still a great automobile—or at least it could be. With a little work, I know it could run for years.
Since we got the car, Brian and I have been in the backseat while you and Mom have been up front. We feel really secure with you driving and Mom beside you. But last month, Mom was at the wheel.

It was nighttime, and we had just turned the corner near our house. Suddenly, we all looked up and saw another car, out of control, heading straight for us. Mom tried to swerve out of the way, but the other car smashed into us. The impact sent us flying off the road and crashing into a lamppost.

The thing is, Dad, just before we were hit, we could see that you were driving the other car. And we saw something else: Sitting next to you was another woman.
It was such a terrible accident that we were all rushed to the emergency ward. But when we asked where you were, no one knew. We’re still not really sure where you are or if you were hurt or if you need help.
Mom was really hurt. She was thrown into the steering wheel and broke several ribs. One of them punctured her lungs and almost pierced her heart.

When the car wrecked, the back door smashed into Brian. He was covered with cuts from the broken glass, and he shattered his arm, which is now in a cast. But that’s not the worst. He’s still in so much pain and shock that he doesn’t want to talk or play with anyone.
As for me, I was thrown from the car. I was stuck out in the cold for a long time with my right leg broken. As I lay there, I couldn’t move and didn’t know what was wrong with Mom and Brian. I was hurting so much myself that I couldn’t help them.

There have been times since that night when I wondered if any of us would make it. Even though we’re getting a little better, we’re all still in the hospital. The doctors say I’ll need a lot of therapy on my leg, and I know they can help me get better. But I wish it were you who was helping me, instead of them.
The pain is so bad, but what’s even worse is that we all miss you so much. Every day we wait to see if you’re going to visit us in the hospital, and every day you don’t come. I know it’s over. But my heart would explode with joy if somehow I could look up and see you walk into my room.

At night when the hospital is really quiet, they push Brian and me into Mom’s room, and we all talk about you. We talk about how much we loved driving with you and how we wish you were with us now.
Are you all right? Are you hurting from the wreck? Do you need us like we need you? If you need me, I’m here and I love you.

Your daughter, Kimberly

LOOKING AHEAD …
More than two months before writing this letter, Kimberly had watched her father, Steve, walk out of his family’s life with plans to divorce his wife and pursue a relationship with another woman. The heartache that Kimberly, her mother, and her brother felt was indescribable. But the anguish also extended to Steve. Only a few weeks after leaving, he began to second‐guess his decision.
That’s the impact of divorce. It appears to be a solution when in fact it brings only pain and new difficulties. A few days after receiving Kimberly’s letter, Steve appeared on his family’s doorstep and asked to come back. He realized that divorce wasn’t the answer to his family’s problems.

Would you ever consider it an answer to yours?
Has your marriage ever been on the brink of breaking up?

- James C Dobson

Monday, November 17, 2014

Don't GIVE up --- HANG on and HANG in there.


  Today I got an early morning call.  I prayed.  When it seems like ALL is lost.... we must believe that HE has NOT given up on us...GOD never quits.  

Our circumstances are temporary.  What seems impossible at this very moment -- is NOTHING for God to change.    Nothing.  

   This is from Romans -- Chapters 8 and 9 from the MSG bible.  

Read to the very end.  Please.  

20-33 Who in the world do you think you are to second-guess God? Do you for one moment suppose any of us knows enough to call God into question? Clay doesn’t talk back to the fingers that mold it, saying, “Why did you shape me like this?” Isn’t it obvious that a potter has a perfect right to shape one lump of clay into a vase for holding flowers and another into a pot for cooking beans? If God needs one style of pottery especially designed to show his angry displeasure and another style carefully crafted to show his glorious goodness, isn’t that all right? Either or both happens to Jews, but it also happens to the other people. Hosea put it well:
I’ll call nobodies and make them somebodies;
    I’ll call the unloved and make them beloved.
In the place where they yelled out, “You’re nobody!”
    they’re calling you “God’s living children.”
Isaiah maintained this same emphasis:
If each grain of sand on the seashore were numbered
    and the sum labeled “chosen of God,”
They’d be numbers still, not names;
    salvation comes by personal selection.
God doesn’t count us; he calls us by name.
    Arithmetic is not his focus.
Isaiah had looked ahead and spoken the truth:
If our powerful God
    had not provided us a legacy of living children,
We would have ended up like ghost towns,
    like Sodom and Gomorrah.
How can we sum this up? All those people who didn’t seem interested in what God was doing actually embraced what God was doing as he straightened out their lives. And Israel, who seemed so interested in reading and talking about what God was doing, missed it. How could they miss it? Because instead of trusting God, they took over. They were absorbed in what they themselves were doing. They were so absorbed in their “God projects” that they didn’t notice God right in front of them, like a huge rock in the middle of the road. And so they stumbled into him and went sprawling. Isaiah (again!) gives us the metaphor for pulling this together:
Careful! I’ve put a huge stone on the road to Mount Zion,
    a stone you can’t get around.
But the stone is me! If you’re looking for me,
    you’ll find me on the way, not in the way.



God is in control.    Today was 'no' accident.  IN the middle of a trial, in the middle of our despair -- we must remember -- GOD wins.   

Our troubles are temporary and stand relative to the fact...JESUS died for it all...no matter what....what is most important  -- is our NEED for HIM and our NEED to allow HIM to move the mountain, restore the brokenhearted...and RESTORE what the locusts have taken.  

God can do that.  
Don't give up.  
Don't give in to flesh.  
Believe that WHEN YOU FOLLOW God...FOLLOW wHat HE has asked you to do.... then...there will be GREAT rewards and... a peace that NO one can take away. 

Speak life into your own heart and demand of God what HE has promised....a life of abundance and peace.    Remind yourself of WHAT God has done...and THAT HE can do that again.  REMIND the enemy that he has NO authority within your life...NO authority over your husband or children...and he has NO authority to harm you any more!  

Sometimes we can't listen to the ones CLOSEST to us.... even our family MAY NOT have the best advice....so seek GOD. 

Don't listen to your heart...hearts can be deceived.  Listen to HIS word.  


I believe that a marriage CAN be restored.  I know marriages and people that have come through MUCH more than we ever have.  

I believe a man or women CAN change...and become the person GOD so intended us all to be...HIS.  

I believe that when it looks MOST impossible...THAT is when most can attest...'it HAD to be God'....  

I know I have been a part of a miracle.  Several.  

I can believe that GOD has so many more for many of HIS children.  

I believe CAN can restore a family -- whole...
I believe SATAN can throw such an assault upon a family that -- they all believe...nothing will change....BUT GOD does change people.  

Don't let your heart HARDEN so hard....  and if you are seeing a person...whose hard is THAT heart - where you can see and know - he or she is NOT calling upon Jesus -- then pray even more.  


Lord, tonight my heart is heavy with several families and loved ones so close to me that are not listening to you -- but listening to the enemy and believing a lie.......believing that YOU have left them.  Lord...... may they dream this eve and get a glimpse of WHAT could be....good or bad...but change them tonight Lord...I am TIRED of watching another family get torn apart.  I won't STAND for it on my watch...

Heading to bed....  praying....believing that... GOD wins.  Amen.