Monday, February 28, 2011

my direct 'hug' from my Lord .. my hero ..

I had a tremendous weekend. Thank you Lord. It was perfectly orchestrated, and prayed over, and then executed so that I could have a face to face ENCOUNTER with my Lord.

Thank you!

In the course of the weekend, a very sweet counselor advised me . .that 'michelle, this weekend God wants you to forget about everything and everyone else and concentrate on Michelle and God and seek HIM only and really allow HIM to minister and heal what needs to be healed and to deal with what needs to be dealt with. .. . .So that is what I did.

I am a 'good student'. I listen.

Saturday I open my sweet B-day present from my family . .(B, HP and TP) and I read the Jesus is Calling Devotional for February 26th -- my day to really have a meet and greet with my Lord.

And I did . .too too too too so much to share .. and I can and will . .slowly, but for now -- I just want to share the devotional that started my day as Jesus called me out - HE reminded me of what I thought I wanted and then HE showed me how in control HE really is . .and by Sunday morn -- I hugged HIM, I saw HIS face in others, and I was healed of many many many things, feelings, and just the STUFF.

But -- I wanted that . .I sought it out. Some people want to stay in their sin. Some wish to stay in self-pity, and others just don't want to be set free. If you want to be set free -- ask me. I know a secret and it is one I will share.

In the meantime, be blessed by this message from Jesus:

I am leading YOU, step by step, through your life. Hold My hand in trusting dependence, letting Me guide you through this day. Your future looks uncertain and feels flimsy -- even precarious. That is how it should be. Secret things belong to the Lord, and future things are secret things. When you try to figure out the future, you are grasping at things that are Mine. This, like all forms of worry, is an act of rebellion: doubting My promises to care for you. Whenever you find yourself worrying about the future, repent and return to Me. I will show you the next step forward, and the one after that, and the one after that. Relax and enjoy the journey in My Presence, trusting Me to open up the way before you as you go. - Jesus

Deut 29.29 Psalm 32.8

Does that just not make you want to hug HIM too?

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

happy birthday to me

Lord, thank you for today.

I pray that you will give me another 45 years -- so now, I can serve you in this half - ALL the time.

Remembering what Pam said, the Manual, the Master, the Mind Set and the Ministry --

I am blessed, chosen, accepted, adopted, redeemed, and forgiven.

I am humbled.

Thank you- 45 and grateful!

45 and loved.

45 and hopeful.

45 and expecting.

45 and YOURS.

Thank you for today - even the smallest of gestures did warm my heart.

Waiting and being obedient while I wait -

your servant, michelle








pumpkin -- I love you LORD.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Lord, for him . .I pray and Lord, may this apply to many of the other men in my life both at home, in Wisconsin, here in Okeechobee and in my future. I love You Lord,amen.

a prayer for him

Lord for his head, your word states in 1 Corinthians 11 that we look to You and I pray he will look to YOU and want more of YOU Lord. Lord, for his mind, 1 Corinthians 2 shows us that we are to have the mind of Christ and think of how the Holy Spirit will lead and not our flesh so I pray this in YOUR name that he would deny flesh and think of YOUR mind. Lord, for his eyes, I pray that YOU will keep his eyes from tempation and that he will turn his eyes from sin. Lord, I pray for his ears that he will hear YOUR still small voioce instructing him as YOUR word states that in both Psalms and 1 Kings. Lord, for his mouth, that his words would be pleasing to YOU. Lord, for his neck, that he will humble himself before YOU and be strong, courageous, and careful to do everything written in Your word so that he will be prosperous and successful. Lord, I pray for his heart that he will LOVE and TRUST YOU with his whole heart. Lord, I pray for his arms, that YOU will be his strength. Lord for his hands, that he will enjoy the work of his hands and see it as a gift from you. And Lord for his feet, that YOU will order his steps and that he will walk in YOUR truth.
Lord, for him I ask all of this in YOUR name and I secure the blessing of knowing YOU have great and powerful things in store for him. I pray he won't miss any amount of his heritage.
Lord, I love him but YOU love him more. May I never forget this.

Monday, February 21, 2011

45 and . . . . .14

Today we celebrated President's Day .. Tomorrow is the official day of George Washington's birthday. . earlier this month Abe Lincoln had a birthday. So did my Aunt Pat -- so did Ella my brother's littest, as well as Uncle Donald, Danny, Brennan, and even Devin. And on the 23rd Jordan and I will SHARE a b-day. wow . .

Happy Birthday Jordan -- here is your CARD early . . and mine too -------

Happy 14th Jordan \

OK Birthday baby -- 14 and fabulous
14 and never been kissed?
14 and special - yes!
14 and talented - oh my - softball, smiles, and volleyball
14 and emotional . ..I mean -- she IS a girl and DAryl's child!!!
14 and caring, she is the sweetest young lady
14 and beautiful - inside and out -- of course, she is!
14 and wonderful . . full of wonder, friendship, and loyalty
14 and funny and fun to be around
14 and curious . .about many things
14 and christian, she knows what Jesus did!
14 and social -- of course, she is her father's child
14 and chosen for a special purpose
and 14 and deeply loved.

Jordan - happy 14th birthday -- I wish I was there to share some cake, but we will have to plan for next year . .I will 'save' some of my sick days so I can sneak up there and you will be 15!!! wow -- but, enjoy 14 for this year. I love you lots. The best birthday present I got some 14 years ago was the phone call from your dad - and it is one I will never forget.
Lord, bless her in a mighty way today -- tomorrow and on our big day .. and for the rest of the year. I pray protection over her, health, and wisdom. Lord, help her to see YOU in each circumstance and may she seek YOU in every situation. Happy Birthday Jordan.

Now for me -- 45 - and fun -
45 - and fabulous --
45 and wicked -- ha ha ha h

In reality -- 45 and blessed, chosen, accepted, adopted, redeemed, and forgiven . .

In all seriousness - Lord, thank you for this week. But mostly Lord, thank you for the recent knowledge of KNOWING that I am in the center of your will. I make a big deal out of 'dates' and time but as each year passes - I really only come to understand how precious life is, how short it is and how I deeply love and respect you as Lord and Savior. And Lord, I WANT your will be done. For my birthday Lord, hear my prayer.
Lord, I want and wish for each of my family and extended family to see YOU shine in me. Lord, for my birthday I will ask for that miracle that I believe YOU promised me; however, in YOUR time Lord. Lord, for my children, may their hunger for you grow and grow in a good way. Lord, I am so grateful for this day -- for YOUR love and what YOU have allowed in my life. And Lord, I am thankful. Lord, Use me, teach me and bless me today. Like that verse about Jacob -- I won't let you go until you bless me -- bless me Lord, I pray. Be with me always. Thank you.
Your daughter.

do not fret

Psalm 37 has this great word from our Lord:

Do not fret because of evildoers, Oh Lord, it is hard to not fret but then again, fretting is doubting and we can voice our doubts to YOU but that is just it, we must voice them and then GIVE them to you and let YOU have them, therefore, do not fret . . Nor be envious of the workers of iniquity. Oh Lord, this too hits me hard. You know my issues with jealously and how I believe that is one way the Enemy has lied to me for year. It is because I felt I was never good enough -- yet, in YOU I am good enough, I am perfect. So therefore, I should not be envious or jealous of anything, anyone, or any situation. 2 For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, And wither as the green herb. Lord, it has hard for me to think about you being that JUST but YOU are my avenger. And YOUR ways are not our ways, and one day every knee will bow and each person will look to you and that is their choice. However, I pray for those that seem to be winning now -- for those whom hurt me and my family -- for those whom this verse would apply. Therefore again, I won't fret! 3 Trust in the LORD, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Lord, I do trust YOU. I know that I have had another day of doubts . .but the doubts DID not last as long -- as YOU are gently changing me and making me different. I am - little by little - changing and for the better. You are working death in me with a few things and bringing forth life in other parts of me. I do trust YOU. And YOU know that I have not in the past. That is why I had to control, I had to fix and I had to fret - forgive me Lord. But, this is a better 'way' to be -- keep me here. 4 Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. LOrd, I do delight in you. Today, a day the enemy set forth again to destory -- YOU brought forth beauty out of the day -- and I saW it. And, again, I was reminded of how much you love my man- my son, mydaughter, and me -- how much you love all of us. Oh Lord, I so want to move beyond this and do YOUR work, but YOU are still in the middle of this storm and I am waging war - - I won't falter. I can see Jesus on that WAter saying, "do no be afraid" and I won't. I will replace the fear with faith. I have faith in YOU. 5 Commit your way to the LORD, Today Lord, it hurt the most to hear that my son has a limited view of YOUR power, but I am committing this all to you and one day he will see that. He is young. IT is not his fault. It is ours. Forgive me Lord, but give me the time to show him otherwise and do that miracle and let him really testify on it himself. Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass. 6 He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your justice as the noonday. Everyone will stop me and say this -- you are so strong, you are so godly ..but it is ALL YOU -- it is YOU that sustains me and it has been this storm that has gotten me to this point -- it is YOU Lord. All YOU. 7 Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; I will wait patiently for YOU. I am. I have. I won't give up. I am too stubborn to. Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass. 8 Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; Do not fret—it only causes harm. There is no anger -- well, maybe a little but it is gone now. Again, you remind me.. . . if he can't love me how can he love you .. . I know how long you waited for me, and I know that YOU have far greater things planned for this Pritchard family so I am going to wait, and be patient and TRUST in YOU. As Shelley said, over 10 months again, it will be YOUR love, YOU Lord, that will BIND us. IT HAS to be. Do it Lord, Take over. I will let you. I believe I am ready. But YOUR will be done.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

examine oneself

Each person should examine his own work . . not in respect to someone else. For each person will have to carry his own load. Galatians 6. 4-5

The very nature of love is sacrificial. In fact, if we are not presently feelign the squeeze and sacrifice of loving someone, we're probably exercising a preferential, highly selective, and self- centered human substitute.

God calls us to sacrifice our selfishness.

- from Beth Moore

Lord, I am examining my own work .. and I know that my love for many of my family members and friends have been more selfish at times -- now Lord, I want that to change. I pray that I will daily show a sacrificial love for each of them - being a servant.

I want to be so full of YOU that YOU spill out.

Lord. I love you.

A new week . . . .

Lord, this week is a biggie for me. I mean, a lot is going to happen. I am going to turn 45 and who knows - that could be the 1/2 way mark. I mean, my grandmother is almost 90 and Bren's grandmother is 93 .. it seems very hard to believe that this could be the 'hump' year. Do you think?

Lord, it has been another weekend. I am very thankful for each day. You know my heart, my hurts, my desires, and my needs. I sit here this eve, just thinking about the coming week. The challenges I know that will come before me. The expentancy of this coming weekend and attending the 'Encounter' and I also have expressed to you my fears.

I have learned many things but fear is not of you. Fear is a lack of Faith and You know how I have been fighting and battling that, expecially the past two days.

Lord, this is YOURS. This week is yours. I will prepare my heart and head for this coming weekend to GET out of the Encounter all that YOU want me to. I also state this week is yours as you know what I am trying to 'save' and what I don't wish to happen after this week.

However, Lord, I know that YOU know I trust YOU. I really do.
I have been thinking and thinking and praying and seeing more and more the why of the timing, as each day or even every couple of days, I see or learn something that I probably wouldn't of if .. this trial had a few more answers or 'endings'. So, with that, I will continue to do and follow what I believe, no I know YOU want me to do -- be still and wait. Love unconditionally and allow YOU to do what needs to be done.

I also don't believe the enemy as much anymore, I see the enemy for what he is, a liar and I can see myself seeing it more clearly. And, there is a purpose or well, I can say I know that YOU have this.

Lord, YOU are who YOU say YOU are. Lord, I am who you say I am. Lord, YOU will do what YOU said you would do. Lord, I can do anything within YOU. And Lord, YOU will do YOUR will and being in the middle of YOUR will is a very safe and secure spot.

Lord, this post is a bit of random. Taylor, again inspired me. She made a new blog. How I love her so. She was the reason why I started the tumblr account . . and she did not realize it, but I already had a blogspot account too. Now today, she started a blogspot one and it floored me. I mean - she is a brilliant writer - like her mother. Yes, I am a writer. I know and recoginize that. I encourage and have great wisdom that comes from YOU. And, I will use my life - -once YOU have done a few more miracles . . for YOU. I want and will help others. I will be the 'Sandy' to another. Lord, YOU watch over every aspect.

Even today, alone in the car I cried out and YOU again, showed me -- how many times, that YOU know each and every moment and having Fran text me -- just at that moment. I KNOW I am loved by YOU. YOU did that.

YOU have given me so many answered prayers, given me so many delights, and YOU have sustained me. I know you have not brought me to this point to leave me -- I will wait for you to continue and finish this present trial. Lord, without a test, there is no testimony.

Lord, for my son - for our son -- YOU again have shown me much today. My heart was sweetened today by his tears. I know that I know, he wants restoration, peace, and redemption and I am trusting that IN YOUR time, he too will do what YOU have called him to do.

Lord, Taylor just walked into the house, I need to get back to 'stuff' and I just wish to thank you again for everything.

YOU are the hero I so longed for. YOU are the husband that meets each and every need. YOU are the father that keeps me under the shadow of YOUR wings. I praise YOU Lord.

- your beautiful and loved and esteemed daughter