do not fret

Psalm 37 has this great word from our Lord:

Do not fret because of evildoers, Oh Lord, it is hard to not fret but then again, fretting is doubting and we can voice our doubts to YOU but that is just it, we must voice them and then GIVE them to you and let YOU have them, therefore, do not fret . . Nor be envious of the workers of iniquity. Oh Lord, this too hits me hard. You know my issues with jealously and how I believe that is one way the Enemy has lied to me for year. It is because I felt I was never good enough -- yet, in YOU I am good enough, I am perfect. So therefore, I should not be envious or jealous of anything, anyone, or any situation. 2 For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, And wither as the green herb. Lord, it has hard for me to think about you being that JUST but YOU are my avenger. And YOUR ways are not our ways, and one day every knee will bow and each person will look to you and that is their choice. However, I pray for those that seem to be winning now -- for those whom hurt me and my family -- for those whom this verse would apply. Therefore again, I won't fret! 3 Trust in the LORD, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Lord, I do trust YOU. I know that I have had another day of doubts . .but the doubts DID not last as long -- as YOU are gently changing me and making me different. I am - little by little - changing and for the better. You are working death in me with a few things and bringing forth life in other parts of me. I do trust YOU. And YOU know that I have not in the past. That is why I had to control, I had to fix and I had to fret - forgive me Lord. But, this is a better 'way' to be -- keep me here. 4 Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. LOrd, I do delight in you. Today, a day the enemy set forth again to destory -- YOU brought forth beauty out of the day -- and I saW it. And, again, I was reminded of how much you love my man- my son, mydaughter, and me -- how much you love all of us. Oh Lord, I so want to move beyond this and do YOUR work, but YOU are still in the middle of this storm and I am waging war - - I won't falter. I can see Jesus on that WAter saying, "do no be afraid" and I won't. I will replace the fear with faith. I have faith in YOU. 5 Commit your way to the LORD, Today Lord, it hurt the most to hear that my son has a limited view of YOUR power, but I am committing this all to you and one day he will see that. He is young. IT is not his fault. It is ours. Forgive me Lord, but give me the time to show him otherwise and do that miracle and let him really testify on it himself. Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass. 6 He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your justice as the noonday. Everyone will stop me and say this -- you are so strong, you are so godly ..but it is ALL YOU -- it is YOU that sustains me and it has been this storm that has gotten me to this point -- it is YOU Lord. All YOU. 7 Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; I will wait patiently for YOU. I am. I have. I won't give up. I am too stubborn to. Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass. 8 Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; Do not fret—it only causes harm. There is no anger -- well, maybe a little but it is gone now. Again, you remind me.. . . if he can't love me how can he love you .. . I know how long you waited for me, and I know that YOU have far greater things planned for this Pritchard family so I am going to wait, and be patient and TRUST in YOU. As Shelley said, over 10 months again, it will be YOUR love, YOU Lord, that will BIND us. IT HAS to be. Do it Lord, Take over. I will let you. I believe I am ready. But YOUR will be done.
Amen.