Wednesday, December 16, 2020

Merry Christmas from the Pritchards 2020

 It is that time again.  ๐ŸŽ„

I looked back and read my Christmas POST of 2019 to prepare and get into the mood to write.  I asked Holy Spirit to make sure HE was writing this and that I would keep it brief!   Let's see if it that will work. 

 I will say this... the 2019 letter ( link  below๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป ) was indeed shorter than 2018!!   I need that emoji now where both hands are up!   ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผ‍♀️ Let's see how the 2020 letter plays out!  

Christmas 2019 

As  I read, I was amazed.  I had literally forgotten my 'word' for the year. 

 Clarity.  2020 was to bring clarity.  It has.  It did.  


I feel,  in the past 3 months,  SO much has transpired in front of our eyes  and I believe God is moving in many believers  to  see "new  and clear revelations".   I heard another mention her word for the year  a few weeks ago at our  SALT or LIFE group and I asked myself..."what is mine?"    

    "what was mine?"  ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผ‍♀️   

 I asked Bren too and we both sort of laughed.  I feel we are both trying to LIVE in the present  right now, that we are just making each day count  we can get very busy in that moment and our  word for the year  - just got placed in one of the piles that I keep trying to organize in my home!   

    BUT GOD.  THAT word was indeed perfect for this year.  

So, as I read it - I was tickled - OF COURSE!  ....... Clarity!  

There has indeed been MUCH clarified this year - and much  that we are waiting on God to reveal.  

I will just put it out here  first -- if you read past my soap box... you love me and will catch up on our news, if you don't make it past these next  paragraphs - I am sorry.  I pray you won't debate me, but give me a call and let's talk!!   

No, we don't believe we will take the  Covid Vaccine.  Yes, we have social distanced a bit, but mostly - we have gathered, and lived, and gathered and enjoyed the perks of being 'home'. Family dinners and church and hugs!  

 Yes, we both believe we have had COVID but have not taken a test.  It was with  minor symptoms but when the taste buds disappeared - we kind of said...oh, I think we have become a part of the heard immunity.    No,  we don't  wear masks unless we must.   And, yes, we are the ones that will smile at you at Publix without a mask.  But we keep our distance -- we just do.  I don't or won't shame you for believing what you do - please don't shame me and remind me,  that I am not doing my part.  I believe I am.  We don't believe this was a world wide pandemic, the numbers never really justified this.  Indeed, this is a crisis, but we are going to trust that God has  allowed it and He will provide the protection and guidance.  ⏰

 But, we have stayed close to home and washed our hands. ✋We don't buy into the conspiracy theories - but, we do believe this is a man made virus - meant for harm and the timing is.....interesting.  

Please.. don't debate me. ✋

 If you  wish to stop reading - that is OK too.  Your opinion is yours. 

 But, we do believe many are  living in fear and we just won't.  We  believe we have lost more lives through suicide and abortions - and that is what truly pulls on our hearts.    

  ๐Ÿ™We have had some around us - that have contracted the virus and they didn't fare well, but that is also true of other ailments. And, we have prayed for many -- many, and we continue to pray for a 'cure' or real discoveries of what is truly needed for our world -- more answers and  Jesus.   Our hearts have been truly saddened by the news of many hurting ones.  ๐Ÿ’” And we pray, for our front line workers and health care people that are indeed, always serving.  

 I will share one more insight  -- in God's Word, it tells us HE knows our comings and goings and we have a birthdate and an end date in His Kingdom calendar -- death is always hard.  Some do die too early - but God knew.  God knows.✋ 

 Some seem to escape  death and yet, others don't. I won't play God  or try to figure it out -- I won't  take matters into my own hands - but, I trust HIM and the ENTIRE bible, and as I read -- we are getting closer and closer to seeing Jesus return. ✝️

So we cast EVERY burden onto HIM...  

๐Ÿ™  We  pray and believe, we will be raptured out and up -- and  those left behind, we pray that their eyes will focus on  Jesus and seek HIS Word to know how there will be a 2nd chance.   

 In the meantime, we should be clear about WHERE we will be when we do take our last breath - whether from a ventilator in a hospital or just as we head to bed... 

 Jesus is the Savior and  we truly  pray  those around us know Him well, personally... then that peace and that blessed assurance is felt and  experienced.  When that is indeed happening -  the expectation of the  Christmas holiday brings much JOY. We expect much from God this holiday season and will  celebrate with our  loved ones.  ๐Ÿ™Œ

So, there -- THAT was rather bold, ๐Ÿคท‍♀️ yet,  it is nothing I wouldn't of said if we were face to face, I just prayed over this and asked Holy Spirit to bathe this in HIS grace and mercy -- truly...  I am nothing if but just a sinner - saved by HIS Grace.  ๐Ÿ™Œ  

Now to our family news - 

The BIGGEST news....  we are getting  another daughter!  

   Bren and I enjoyed the year - taking cycle trips and several trips to Wisconsin as I have been ON LINE and teaching since March ....so, as long as I have the internet - my classroom travels.  This year has been challenging, but I am SO thankful for my job and I still get to make connections to our parents and students.  Indeed, this is NOT ideal - but - I work with a team of great teachers and WE ARE making it work!   I am not sure what 2021 will bring, we are praying that we can go BACK  and be LIVE  in  our classrooms by Spring. God can bring that to fruition.    ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

The BIGGEST news....  we are getting  another daughter!  

Brendan has enjoyed the year at the Insurance office and some new friendships with a love for Harley cycles as well.  He spends a lot of time in study (God's Word) and on his phone, as he is chief marketing person at our offices and he travels a lot keeping brokers with our phone number close for quotes.   He is also very prayerful about the next President and how this all will play out, if you are close to him, you know exactly HOW he thinks and feels and I am SO very proud of his faith! ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป And - He has also enjoyed being back at the gym - each morning.  I join him 3 days a week -- this 'middle' age stuff is NO fun!  LOL ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผ‍♀️ 

The BIGGEST news....  we are getting  another daughter! 


These girls - 

These two have grown SO much.  The photo  below ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป from 2 years ago, but I will update a little.  Ava is  just 5 and she has become this very sophisticated young lady that does not forget a thing.  She is very happy being MOM to SJ, but that can bring its own troubles.  SJ wants to do everything that AVA does and THAT does cause some troubles too -- as they are almost the same size now.  Just give SJ another year! ๐Ÿ‘‰

 Both girls are in a wonderful school where they are loved and learning much.  Each time Ava visits, she is writing her ABC/s on a Post-it note and I have saved them all and to see her progression from September to now - is amazing. 

 THIS teacher's heart is full.  I taught first grade for 6 years... and I would LOVE to be her teacher.  I pray -- but don't think God will move me to her school - but, I do pray.  Since September, SJ's amount of vocabulary and imaginative play is just remarkable.  Each visit there are more baby words that are now...no longer used and she corrects me.   She used to say, "waa wee" for water and now she will look at me and say, "NO Mimeeee, its warrr ter". ๐Ÿ˜Š

Both girls are loved so much -- and nightly Face time calls and trips to Mimi's hooousee is a must every few days.  


The BIGGEST news....  we are getting  another daughter! 


Cindy Renea Wine will join our family - officially in January. 

 She is kind, funny, and I have SO enjoyed getting to see her smile. I have known her for about  2 years but marveled at how GOD had already knit our families together.  As, the Holy Spirit would remind me of stuff,  I kind of did watch her grow up from afar!   And, the cutest thing, one Saturday, in looking at a photo album, I came across this. ๐Ÿ™Œ

Look below, that is Cindy and Hunter on a bench at a soccer game way back when he was four and she was six...  how sweet. 

 We were planning a trip to Wisconsin and I was trying to show Hunter what the Wisconsin Dells were and  as Cindy skimmed the photo album, she noticed her soccer team and said, "hey, I played for Don's Appliances"  ........  THEN the laughter as we studied the photo and I pointed to HP and she pointed to her little self.  ๐Ÿ™Œ Little  did we know -- and the screams of FUN!!   How cute, HOW adorable, and HOW perfect!    And he even had his arm around her - back in 1999!! 

  THIS was just a very sweet, very FUN confirmation that God is in the details.  

The BIGGEST news....  we are getting  another daughter! 

 She is an excellent cook and I LOVE that she 'dishes'  the comebacks and comments right back to Brendan when he wants to give her a hard time.   On our Wisconsin trip, I was humbled as I noticed that God created Cindy to be Brendan's other daughter - I relish their banter back and forth.  

 As I watched from 'afar' this year... I got to witness Hunter move home, due to the STAY AT HOME order and see him, make some new friends,  rekindle some other friendships, and begin to assimilate  back into Okeechobee.  I really felt he was going to stay SOUTH  but God.   God changes plans, or was this God's plan from the beginning?   Probably!    Hunter also joined our Insurance Office in October and fits nicely into our future plans for growth in the office as his Grandfather begins to step back and retire.  

  Then I had the pleasure to watch a courtship and I even got to be in on the surprise of the 'asking'.. this Momma or Mumzie as HP calls me,  is smitten and full of JOY.    We are thrilled with the extras that Cindy comes with and it has been so sweet enjoying the extended family over the last 3-4 months!   The wedding is in January, 2020 brought some clarity with our family and with the addition, we are just praising God.  

















 Last but NOT least....   


Taylor and Jake ...  we have enjoyed them on many Sunday's during the shut down, as our church continued and they were on line, so the Sunday dinners were pretty consistent throughout the summer and into the fall.   WE enjoy meeting them for dinner and asking them to hop in the car and join us here for dinner or a football game.  ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿผ  


The photo below is from when SJ turned 2 -- she is about to be 3 in about 3 weeks.   She has mastered potty training this year and it took a few extra months, but poopy training is finally being mastered!  yeah!!  

Taylor works at our Insurance office and runs between the Okeechobee Office and the PSL one.  She watches over several different aspects of HR and Payroll stuff and can be found each week helping Lowell with an email or some new 'tech' thing -- as we ALL try our best to stay up with the currents trends, but that generation is just BETTER at it!  This momma gets great joy seeing Hunter and Taylor work together and dinners will usually have some aspect of the 'office' to speak about!    She is also VERY much into her oils -- and calls herself the 'hippie ' mom.  However, the stuff works and her testimony of just the # of doctor's visits that SJ had in her first year, compared to her 2nd is a remarkable FACT and proof that those 'ancient' oils are indeed God blessed.     I LOVE when I see a call from her and love that our mother-daughter relationship has changed to friendship with that Ma's tone... she is my first born, I learned a lot in growing her and as SJ reacts and gives me the side eye... I love to let Jake know -- THAT is from him.  LOL.  

Speaking of Jake, he continues to work for Westside after school but his main job is being an inclusion teacher at Centennial High School.   He still coaches to an extent and mentors but mostly, he has been DAD and he is a good one.  Ava and SJ adore him!   This past summer, between his efforts and his mother's, Ava became a fish and next summer, I believe SJ will follow suit.  Jake's parents permanently moved to TN at the beginning of the year -- so we now try and plan some 'visits' to TN!   We bought our cottage right next door to them for a purpose - and then they moved..... am I a little sore about it -- NA....  they are building and that will be a  cool get away come next summer!   But we miss our neighbors and  Sunday dinners are not quite the same!!  

  Halloween was a fun memory - SJ is obsessed with Umizoomie.  It is a cartoon that was created several years ago and runs on Prime network.  SJ, probably has the first three seasons memorized and it is really a good show, it teaches kids many concepts.  Both Ava and SJ know the difference between a hexagon and a crescent!!  Seriously - but when it came time to Halloween, this Mimi set out to make a costume.  I had to laugh.  Taylor priced one on Etsy and I bragged that I could make it cheaper - well.... I didn't   Between the elements and the time.. I got MUCH satisfaction as the Pre-K teachers all recognized the accuracy of the costume, but, indeed, it was not cheaper making it myself!   
SJ and Ava on Valentines Day in 2020


SJ and Ava are dearly loved and we so enjoy our time with them... did I say that already? 

One last memory - 

 In July - we went with  Jake and Taylor to North Carolina and enjoyed a beautiful time exploring Chimney Rock and the sites near Waynesville .  The Buttered Biscuit will probably never forget us - but we certainly had a blast!   Traveling with a toddler is always filled with fun and needed patience!  


We pray and hope to have many more vacations with these kids!  

Ava enjoys reading books and so does Sawyer and reading with them is an adventure.  I love to see and hear Ava as with each visit, I can tell she has learned even more. 

Both Ava and SJ are looking forward to being a flower girl in the upcoming wedding!!  Well, let me clarify - Ava is.  She gets it.  She was a flower girl in her Uncle Nic's wedding, Sawyer - probably won't understand  -- but will have a BIG smile on her face and do what Ava does as she loves her Uncle Hunteeee 

Ok, going to wrap this up -- 


The BIGGEST news....  we are getting  another daughter! 

Bren's parents are doing ok, older hips and knees tend to cause some trouble, but they stay active and we love the time spent with them.  My folks turned 76 and 75 respectfully this year and I had the pleasure of seeing them a few times as I traveled to Wisconsin.  My dad stays busy delivering for Napa and my Mom is still a Wal-mart Clerk!  This summer she got to work in the plant department and loved that!   We are thankful for their health!!   A few of my siblings will travel south for the wedding and I look forward to that -- but, many are very busy with their kids and sports!   

Again, if you are a far away friend - we have a guest room -- with a very comfortable Temperpedic... or we will once HP is married in January, then it is OPEN again!   If you are a close friend, we pray that in 2021 - there will be many opportunities to have dinner or sit for a chat, in spite of the world's problems.  

This year, one of our BIG blessings have been to get to know a few new friends.  Through our Church family, we have met and gathered with several that are dear to us.  We have also rekindled several friendships that  have been such a blessing, that we know - will  be prayer warriors for us when and if needed!   However,  when Will and Kerry  ( Taylor's in-laws) moved to TN, the neighbors that moved in... became family as well.  Our friend, Sonia and her daughter are here cause they literally lost everything when Hurricane Dorian hit Marsh Harbour last September of 2019.  

I treasure and love the fact that I am one of 9 in my family.  I have a cousin list of 24 and when you add in their spouses and all of my aunts and uncles -- there are a lot.  Our new friends, Sonia and her husband, Ross - lost 18 of their family members.  I stop and think and cry - if I lost that many.  I know I would be a different person.   Many of those  family members were never recovered.  In one storm.  On one LONG day when that hurricane beat on that little island.  As we began to enjoy her Bahamian cooking and we began to share our stories... we knew why God placed her right next to us.    Perspective and Clarity.  

There are often - many around us,  that God brings to our table or to our lives -- for HIS purpose.  And in that process -- of learning to love them or getting to pray with them... God blesses - us.. me with the blessing of them.  

Fellowship.  Human touch - communication.   Mother Nature, Covid 19, the Media,  and MUCH of our politics and the 'world' have TAKEN TOO much from us.  2020 was a year of clarity.  It is almost done.  

I don't believe we are going to be 'back to normal',  we must begin to LIVE through Christ within our circumstances and be HIS hands and feet. 

 But, I want normal back... and I am determined to do some things -- like normal and trust that God will bless it and protect it.  

I am also believing that my word for 2021 is grace.  I have had that word before -- but, extending grace is something I want to pray for daily and share.  Our world is a MESS, but those of us that love Jesus -- I feel we need to do a better job of letting the World know why we have that peace.  ๐Ÿคท‍♀️

And with that - I really need to close.  

So, I have a feeling that THIS letter is now longer than 2018 and I know for sure it is longer than 2019's.  

May you all have a Merry Holiday and may the knowledge and expectation of Jesus and WHAT HE meant for us -- be enough.   May HIS grace be enough.  

Merry Christmas - and Happy New Year.  
Our door is open - and we love company. 
 May you and yours have a blessed day!-- Michelle and Brendan 





November 2019 - Ava 4 and SJ almost 2. 






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PS, did I mention we are getting a another daughter??     ๐Ÿ˜  ๐Ÿ˜   

Tuesday, November 17, 2020

Thinking - God is in the DETAILS.

 

I have not blogged since September.  Writers block has not kept me from blogging, other things to write and focus on too precedence.  

I literally WANT to blog more often than I do, but I am always trying to be obedient to WHAT God has me to do that day, and to focus on HIS timing in stuff.  However, the enemy will try and bully me into thinking -- "nope, you are done as a blogger".  And to those stinking whispers - I remind him that he is  liar!  

This photo is from Oklahoma back in 2013.  We were on a road trip with HP, our son, and his soccer team.  The boys won, two weeks later, we were back in the car for Texas and the finals. 

 Well, maybe we were to TX first and then Oklahoma -today, my memory slips.   Bren snapped the photo and I have looked at this photo each November and wonder - what WHAT in my head at that moment!!??    Then I scroll past it and ask God, is this for a blog?  I mean - who really cares to see my wrinkles and Ray-bans? 

Was I thinking of how the team could win? 

 Was I thinking of what was 'next'? 

 Was I thinking of a particular memory or future event? 

 I look so determined.  And as I have stated,  each year as this photo pops up, I always ask, "Lord, is this for a blog?"  


Today - it is.  Today I want to share something.  GOD is in the details.  

Long story short -- I had some minor surgery -- that sounds scary.  It was a cyst that was removed and it started to bleed a bit.  It was a bit bigger than the onocular plastic surgeon thought.  The backstory with this cyst on my eyebrow plagued me for a good 8 weeks.  And getting to that onocular plastic surgeon is another cool God story, but today that is not the story I want to share.   But God was in THOSE details as well.  

In the middle of the procedure, a month ago,  I knew I  had began to bleed a little more than normal.  Prior to the procedure, the surgeon looked to me like a hippie with his long grey hair and Jay Leno white streak in the front, but his bedside manner and tone just made me think...."what does this guy do on the weekends?".  However, he came highly recommenced by two other doctors that I do trust!  

Back to the procedure: 

So, as the nurse begins to wipe the blood out of my hair and he stitches me up, he continues asking me questions about previous surgeries and such.  

I share my history as I did have a surgery, back in 2004,  where three hours in post-op, I did began to bleed out again from my incision and the doctor had some swift actions. 

 However,  in that moment and in those questions, I assured my onocular surgeon that my other doctor  said  I didn't have a blood disorder,  it was just a complication of the surgery. 

 But... as he continues to stitch and I can't feel pain, but I can feel the  movement of him with his instruments next to my eyes -- I began to  call on and claim Jesus a bit louder! 

  After it was all done, he gave me  the post-procedure info and then left the room. 

 The nurse, who had been under her mask this entire time, lifted her head covering, sat in front of me, and removed her mask...and said, "hello Michelle, I was there with you in 2004 when you had that surgery and when you had that 2nd surgery to stop the bleeding - you are going to be fine".  

Wow.  Relief.  16 years later - what are the chances of HER being my nurse for that fateful cyst removal?  

God --  God chances.  

HE did that.  HE knew my fear and my anxious heart.  HE also knows what lays ahead in my future and I am going to believe that HE orchestrated that day.  

God is in the details. 

We all know that - but when we get such a personal experience and we are reminded that HE goes before us and is always near....it becomes a very good day!  THAT knowledge and faith has held me and I have been able to share that story several times.  

I know now - more than ever, that NOTHING is wasted in our lives.  Not the silly things nor the hard things...

God wastes nothing and uses every aspect of our lives to remind us that HE adores us.  HE reminded me that I was WORTH it.... to be comforted by a nurse that had comforted me 16 years ago.  

God is THAT personal. 

  So, 7 years ago when I pondered something and my husband happen to snap a photo of me....   I know that whatever was in my thoughts at that time - God knew and God will use if HE needs to, to remind all of us -- HE is in the details.  


23 The steps of the God-pursuing ones
follow firmly in the footsteps of the Lord,
and God delights in every step they take to follow him.


Sunday, September 6, 2020

Faith over Feelings #40 - Beloved

Yesterday, I blogged a LABOUR of LOVE and God had me writing because it helps me to COME out of the FUNK or depression that can weigh me down.

I figured and didn't plan on blogging again today, as my Writer's Block has been pretty consistent over the past year, however --

this morning -- early morning, about 3:14 to be exact, I was wide awake and speaking to God and praying. HE met me where I was at -- GOD did.

Much has transpired in the past month ( I think I say that on every blog.) and often I want to TRY and fix things or take away another's pain, but often as we continue to walk in faith over our fears ...it is NOT easy.

Being a Christian or Christ follower does not mean things are easy. Quite frankly, when we claim Jesus is Lord, trouble seems to follow us. So often, sometimes the most trouble comes right from our own backyard or inner circle. However, God still is faithful and always is RIGHT there giving comfort, being faithful, and providing.

So, last June, June of 2019, I began this series of FAITH over FEELINGS blogged prayers. I honestly felt it was going to be about 40 days...then about 4 months, and yet, today as I do the 40th, it has been over a year.

But, as I am obedient and faithful to the Lord, HE writes these and dictates so, whatever HE has next for me to blog about - is going to be HIS and good.

At 3:30 this am, I heard the words. WRITE. So, I am going to be a bit more faithful with my writing. And I will see where it goes.

And, yesterday was DAY 40 for a particular ministry that was started back in January of 2020. It is called "Beloved". It is a group of women that mentor others and as God showed me and confirmed how my involvement was to happen, I was faithful and obedient. Then COVID hit and well .... nothing is the same is it?



At 3:30 this am, HE reminded me to be transparent and write and share. I deal with depression and it will come and go. I am 54, and have watched many around me deal with depression. Some with medication and others without. I know what works for me to PULL myself out of that cycle and I can do that pretty quickly now -- truly GOD has been the healer in that. My husband and I have prayed that the stronghold of depression does NOT continue onto our children and their children, we believe there is victory. He, GOD, gets the glory, but HE wanted me to share and be transparent to the group of women in Beloved and then sharing it here as well.

If you are interested in mentoring or being a part of the private Facebook group that supports and helps women who love Jesus mentor - contact me. I will get you plugged into our group. We WERE to meet every 40 days...however -- we have met via Zoom, we have had some prayer sessions, but HOW this has played out is NOT what I expected, and THAT is all right too.

Our next Gathering is suppose to be October 15 -- and I will let the LORD lead and see if we gather. God is the leader of this group and I have learned much this summer but one particular thing is this:

"what I THINK stuff, or events, or happenings should LOOK like ...doesn't LOOK that like anymore and THAT is OK"

I have learned that GOD is BIG enough and HE has plenty of workers that when I fail to do something I THINK I was suppose to, I need to reflect and make sure it is what HE wants me to do --- that IF HE commissioned it - I will have the time and the power to complete it and if it was something that I pushed to do, I can drop it, as HE has it under control.

And also -- that it is OK to say, I failed and did not do that - just did not have the time. Period. And there is grace.


THAT is peace.
THAT is freedom and with that freedom comes the time to DO what HE needs me to do and now...THAT doesn't quite look like I expected. As I said, THAT is Ok!

OH I pray Holy Spirit is helping you comprehend this and it is speaking to you as well.

So with that, you are getting the copied and pasted message I sent to our Beloved group this AM. And with that -- my FAITH over my FEARS series is 'done' for now.

It took faith to admit and be transparent that I spent some time yesterday in the fetal position - read below. But, God is at work, HE created me and I know that I know, HE is pleased with me.


Lord, for the one reading - I honestly pray she is reading this or he is reading this and knows that HE too or SHE too is loved and that YOU are pleased with them.  I pray that the one reading, will hear my heart and hear you, as they spent this time reading.  I pray that they would come back and read again or even share this with another -- to remind another that THEY too are YOUR Beloved.  I pray that if one wanted to contact me and talk about depression - they would.  And I pray for the next Gathering of Beloved or its NEW members... may we all be YOUR hands and feet and remind those around us -- YOU are coming back, and we are ready.  In Jesus' Name - amen.  
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Beloved -- yesterday was our DAY #40.
I knew it a week ago.... I watched the calendar. I prayed and avoided. These past two weeks have been HARD. Professionally -- the LORD is working out much, personally -- when our children hurt we hurt. Just do. The enemy is alive and real.
BUT God.
As 'DAY 40' approached, I pleaded with God and asked WHY--
" God, why have YOU done this?"
( Why would you give me and birth an idea for a mentoring group and then seem to allow it to be different than WHAT I had expected?)
I felt God reply:
"Why did I ask you to be obedient? Why did I ask you to speak life? Why did I ask you to show grace and mercy?"
Then, instead of God being SILENT - I WAS.
I know why.
But, as I asked God about our DAY 40 Gathering and went back to my journal and my notes about "HOW" is it suppose to look like..... CRICKETS! God was Quiet.
I go back to what I have been taught by good mentors, when God is silent -- do what HE has LAST told you to do - nothing has changed.
As yesterday approached and then happened, I sought Jesus and was literally on my knees for a Fractional part of the day, in tears.... I was reminded that -
-the name of Jesus is wonderful -
-the name of Jesus heals -
the name of Jesus... at times, may be the only THING we can say or do.... and THAT was me, yesterday.
Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus
I do work through depression from time to time. Yesterday was a day where being in the fetal position felt the best.
Bible reading didn't happen too much...cause I did not WANT to read HIS Word.
I did listen though and I did praise through worship and tears and played a new album by Jeremy Camp and his wife - OVER and OVER and OVER -- and Psalm 43 keeps coming back to me over and over!
But, in this depression, I have lived long enough to know, to seek some godly counsel, prayer, and then PUT into action some faith and I did. I planned to make a house call. I sought my husband's prayers and guidance along with texting a pal for prayer and then GOT out of bed! But as the day progressed, I came back to the Gathering and the enemy wanted to remind me....
"YOU sent no invites, YOU didn't plan ahead, and YOU failed".
The Enemy is a liar and most times when I type his name in a blog or something, I won't even use a capital letter E, as I don't want to give him that "PROPER" power, but Satan and his minions are real and with that capital letter E, I am claiming that he is real but NOT a power in my life. He wants to defeat me, as much as he wants to defeat you.
In praying and speaking to God early this AM...like at 3:14 am, I asked God and we spoke about the "BELOVED" gathering and I felt peace that I am to remain faithful and provide support through this group. He also told me to WRITE.
WE will be ABLE to gather again -- in HIS timing.
That even though many do not feel comfortable speaking up or sharing, HE created me to be me. I am transparent. HE gives me the ability to communicate with my words. In have not been blogging as much on my GOD WINS site. I have been writing a series of prayers - FAITH over FEELINGS and God reminded me that TODAY was the BEST way to end the 40 blogs... with a transparent confession of what goes ON in my head ..when the enemy wants to defeat me with depression and just the 'daily life' of stuff when we are walking in THESE times that HE has placed us in.
So if we were standing right next to each other in Publix or at the Gas Station and If you asked me how I was doing???? YOU would of HEARD ALL of this yesterday. That is me. But, I also believe that in sharing my hurt and my struggles, you will see that GOD can be used in EVERYTHING.
AND if I, if we...us 'older' and wiser can be pulled down by depression and our circumstances that we just want to stay in the fetal position all day -- then goodness ....there are SO many more around us that are feeling the same way. AND, we can speak into that. And so therefore, I will blog and share and be transparent and conclude that series.
Now to me -- THAT is HOW God loves me and speaks to me and makes me feel SO loved. It is kind of like those Seinfeld shows -- if you were a fan -- remember how every little weird thing or circumstance seemed to ALL tie together at the end of the show and make you laugh? WELL, God MET me at 3:15-4:27 am and reminded me of HOW HE is at work. Amen. And I laughed... and fell back asleep - and awoke with such peace and a wanting to SHARE!
So with that -- if you knew it was the gathering cause you took my letter that first time and marked your calendar .... and you wondered, now you know. And if you totally forgot - THAT is OK too! God knew. Praise HIM!
The present HARD situation within my close circle -- well, it will be OVERCOME in HIS time. As, I made the house call, I felt peace as I released the situation AGAIN to God -- and HIS hands. Again, when our children and close family hurt, it is easy to get caught up in TRYING to fix and solve, when we do best by allowing GOD to do the fixing and the solving. Praise God when that is their desire as well. It is just HARD in the meantime.
Maybe WE will be able to gather in the next 40 days -- TIME and GOD will show us and lead. Until then, if you need to chat - I love to chat and then we will pray.
I trust this finds you good -- if not, please know - THERE is ONE who will meet you too. - So humbled and honored that you take the time to read my ramblings -- Michelle
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    Wow !!! That was so awesome ๐Ÿ‘ to read as I have been going through the same feelings this week!!!! Thanks for sharing it heals others & you as you share ! As you always say God Wins !!!! Love you ๐Ÿ˜˜ praying ๐Ÿ™ for you & others walking through ! The Lord … 
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