Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Totally Trusting God - Part 2

On a dreary day back in April of 2011, I read my Jesus Calling for the day after a very hard day and read this: 

Dear Beloved, When I give you no special guidance, stay where you are. Concentrate on doing your everyday tasks in awareness of My Presence with you. The Joy of My Presence will shine on you, as you do everything for Me. Thus you invite Me into every aspect of your life. Through collaborating with Me in all things, you allow MY life to merge with yours. This is the secret not only of joyful living but also of victorious living. I designed you to depend on Me moment by moment, recognizing that apart from Me you can do nothing.
Be thankful for quiet days, when nothing special seems to be happening. Instead of being bored by the lack of action, use times of routine to seek My face. Although this is an invisible transaction, it speaks volumes in spiritual realms. Moreover, you are richly blessed when you walk trustingly with Me through the routines of your day. - Jesus

Colossians 3. 23 John 15.5 Psm 105.4

I don't know exactly WHAT transpired back on that day, but I do know that my husband and I were living in the same house, but counsel seemed to be getting no where

You see he was not happy.   He was not content or satisfied.   But, he was also allowing the enemy to steer his thoughts and he was in NO position to trust God.  He really did not even have a relationship with God then.

  From my perspective -- TOO much time had passed and I was SICK of waiting on God.  I was still so very lonely even though he was in the home.  But, God reminded me of what He asked of me.  

So, I wrote that Jesus Calling devotional into my journal and personalized it:

Dear Michelle, When I give you no special guidance, stay where you are. Concentrate on doing your everyday tasks in awareness of My Presence with you. The Joy of My Presence will shine on you, as you do everything for Me. Thus you invite Me into every aspect of your life. Through collaborating with Me in all things, you allow MY life to merge with yours. This is the secret not only of joyful living but also of victorious living. I designed you to depend on Me moment by moment, recognizing that apart from Me you can do nothing.
Be thankful for quiet days, when nothing special seems to be happening. Instead of being bored by the lack of action, use times of routine to seek My face. Although this is an invisible transaction, it speaks volumes in spiritual realms. Moreover, you are richly blessed when you walk trustingly with Me through the routines of your day. - Jesus

Colossians 3. 23 John 15.5 Psm 105.4

But today as I was praying and trying to give guidance to another, I found myself asking her -- do you TRUST God? 

Can you trust God to discipline that wayward hubby?
Can you trust God to discipline that baby daddy that won't help or seem to help?
Can you trust God to discipline that husband who has betrayed you and now won't follow up and provide? 
Can you trust God to discipline that child who continually seeks the world instead of your advice?
Can you trust God to hold you ..... still?
Can you trust God to provide...when it looks very pitiful?
Can you trust God to bring joy back into your life? 

I will tell you this -- YOU CAN Trust God and Jesus -- but you must LET Him be everything and deal with everything. 

I found this prayer that I wrote earlier this year: 

Dear Jesus, I believe I have stayed in Your Presence and yet, begged  for mercy and called  for Your steadfast love over and over,  here and there for the  past six years,  over and over.  And Lord, I am very aware of YOU  and YOUR presence every day in every little task.   Lord, I pray people can see the JOY you bring me.  All. The. Time.  Jesus, I pray that you can totally see that one of my MAIN goals is to always be in collaboration with You - doing what You ask of me.    God, I do believe I have experienced some JOYFUL   and victorious living!!  I do realize that I NEED you 24/7 and YOU are the only one that can totally fulfill me.  

And I am adding today -- Lord -- I want this precious woman of God, this sister in CHRIST to GET it ..to allow YOU to take over and I pray she will trust you - totally.  I pray she will allow you to 'work death' in her of what needs to be removed and then.....allow YOU to fill those spaces with Your Word, Your love and Your peace.  Lord, I pray for that one that wants to give up - I want to give up with her...but God -- MOVE...and HOLD...and SHOW... and let her know her waiting is not in vain.   Lord...move like only you can MOVE.  Lord, I release those I had a burden for today - I have prayed.  I know you will provide and answer and I know -- that I know -- You will win.  God... I want them SHOUTING as LOUD as they can...God won!!   

Until then....   just HOLD them...  IN Jesus name. 

So now it is YOUR turn -- God brought you to this blog for a reason.  
Do you trust Him?  
Can you?  

Learning to totally lean on God and trust everything into His hands is a process.  One that can be accomplished in time.  However, it can start today as well.   

I would ask you, do you trust God?   If you can't answer that or you know the answer is "NO", then I  would encourage you to find another to pray with you.  And face that question, "do I trust God ?".  If indeed you don't have a grasp on that question -- then it is really time to start and change up that walk with Him.  

So, I would encourage you today as I pray -- Lord, for the one that NEEDED to read and hear this Lord, I just pray that indeed there is a realization and awareness of the trust issues and then that she or he would reach out to their pastor or mentor/accountability partner and pray and be held accountable.  I know Lord you will provide them with the RIGHT path or people to meet - just like you do for me every day, I pray he or she will shout, God won!    In Jesus name.  

Friday, August 11, 2017

God Won - Number 7 is complete.

This is a photo that was placed on the paperwork and promotional fliers  for Grandma and Grandpa Africa as they left for their missionary work in Ghana, Africa back in 1952.

Their real names were Rev. Edwin Ziemann and Mrs. Bernice Ziemann.

My mother-n-law is on the left.

Grandpa went to heaven  over 15+ years ago and Grandma joined him some 5+ years ago. 

IF ONLY I could of spoken to them today, this early AM when the Lord has awoken me for something. 

There has been an overflow....

If you read this  blog on a regular basis, you will notice that I have been a BIT quiet since July 21st.  I hate to repeat myself but when my thoughts become an actual blog - it is always Holy Spirit guided and at 2:03 as I woke this morning, I could not sleep.  I did the usual - went to the bathroom, the pork nachos I had for supper were reminding me that my body does not do barb-b-que well, and I even prayed.   I headed back to bed and then Holy Spirit began to speak again to get up --

As I calculated the amount of sleep I had in my bones, I asked the Lord, 'What?'.....

The Holy Spirit also reminded me through a very LOUD memory of what Beth Moore stated recently in a Living Proof Weekend event--"go ahead, sleep that extra 45 minutes and skip your quiet time with God while Satan comes for your children.  Go ahead, sleep  or watch that TV program while Satan comes and destroys your family and takes your marriage.  God ahead, and use whatever excuse you have -- and when the enemy comes, what will you fight with?"   

 We have so many idols and STUFF that we believe we must do and yet, we are not taking the  TIME to be with God.  How on earth will we know what He wants us to do or how to respond if we don't KNOW His Word?  

I was reminded,  do I have a holy fear of God??   Will I obey?   

I am in still such a Jesus high from a Women's God Encounter Weekend, that many of my alone moments are spent rethinking the glory that fell those 3 days up in Titusville.  I praise and Thank God for the one who lead our Intercessory Prayer Team -- who knew she was going to be busy at this time of year, probably welcoming in her first grandchild into the world as I type.  I praise and Thank God for a Pastor and Elder team of wonderful godly souls that trusted Holy Spirit in me to work through my crazy lists and quirks and believe that this tool God has placed in my lap for a season -- accomplishes what it sets out to do.  Set. Women. Free.  And I am forever grateful for the covering of my husband and his prayers, my accountability partners who ask tough questions and for those who just serve this event by being obedient to what I ask them to do -- or what God has asked them to do. 

I will tell you this - that weekend was INCREDIBLE - I am humbled and just in AWE of HIS power.  I am well aware of HIS healing power, HIS majesty, and HIS divine appointing and time...but to be able to witness when another in Christ gets set free.....WHOA!   The Earth moved!

Hearts changed. People changed.  Families changed. 

It was not just one who  got healing or a breakthrough  .....
...it was 32 women....32 women all experienced a direct ENCOUNTER with their heavenly Father and EACH got a filling, each received what they truly asked for whether they were there as a guide or a recipient to find some healing.  As we witnessed, there is healing in His Presence! 

 Including ME!

Some fell in love with Jesus for the first time, others finally figured out HOW to love HIM, others needed to fall deeper...
All forgave something or someone, many forgave MAJOR hurts ...and even today - the layers of the onion are STILL being peeled off!
And many received an extra dose of POWER once they asked to receive it!

Back to that photo above with Grandma and Grandpa in Africa.
A story shared around an evening meal so long ago has  not been forgotten.   Grandma and Grandpa  told the story---is of a time when Grandpa went to Upper Volta and visited a village that had a man in STOCKS outside in their courtyard.  He has been there for years.  His skin had begun to grow around the stocks and Grandpa asked as to why he was there.

He was 'crazy' or had demons.

I believed the story RIGHT away -- cause it was Africa...that happens in Africa....not here..........

I can almost see Grandpa sharing it as he sat on the dinner or supper table with me in my Kohl's uniform and Brendan sitting next to me.  We were in college.  It was a Thursday night.  We would drive to Watertown together, have tenderloin  at their house, I would go to work and Bren would visit with her Grandparents and stay there the weekend ---as his parents had moved to Florida.  I would travel back to Whitewater that evening and return to school,  and Bren would  return to Whitewater as well if he had a Friday class.  otherwise  he stayed with them for the weekend and I had to drive back to Watertown anyway the next evening.  My work schedule there, at Kohl's grocery store,  was every weekend.  Every weekend -  Wow...so many years ago -- over 30! 

 Back to the story, Grandpa knew the village was to pray and fast for some time, overnight.  They did.  In the morning, Brendan's Grandpa prayed over the man and stated he should be released from the STOCKS and he was and he was no longer 'crazy'....he was healed.  HE was a new person.

Praise God.

God did that.  The obedience of the village and their prayers helped open the windows of heaven.

Can you imagine how his family felt?
Can you imagine the joy...and that man became a man of God.

He went to school and became a preacher.

God USES us..our messes become a message.  Our tests become our testimonies.   There is a HEALING in a wounding....

So if Grandma and Grandpa were here,  today, I would rejoice with them and we'd talk about that story and I would then begin to tell them of what I witnessed....in 32 women.....

Many were finally SET free of those STOCKS!

Whether Satan's demons are in ya...on ya...or around ya....that is a matter of geography...oppression was  and can be VERY apparent in the countenance of anyone.  But God can set us free!  

It was a TREMENDOUS event -I want to share more, but  can't.  I am humbled at HIS glorious provision and WHAT HE does. What is shared, what happens there - stays there.  Only a person who attended can share their testimony and here is mine: 

God wins ALL the time.

What did God do for me? 

First and foremost, the timing of this Encounter was hard.  You would think that the end of summer would be a good time to have some 30+ women travel north, but the enemy  - as usual- did not want August 4-6 to happen.  The lists of 'frustrations' were long, but we prevailed and  God overcame.  Intercessory prayer began 10 weeks prior and the service and obedience of the leaders and the prayer warriors certainly made the difference in this weekend.  We were in HIS Presence the entire 3 days!  

He, God,  brought forth revelation to me using His Word and the book of Habakkuk.   In Titusville, he had me reading the entire book but specifically he had me Chapter 2, verses 2-3.   I marveled at what  I learned and relearned as I read and tried to jot down some notes, but in  reality  -- Holy Spirit asked us to NOT write notes and to trust Him.

That has happened to me before, but NOT like this Encounter.  In fact, several of the speakers each had the same experience in prepping for their speaking part, where God asked them to speak from their heart, allowing Him to speak through them.

  Habakkuk 2. 2-3 And the Lord answered me:
“Write the vision;
    make it plain on tablets,
    so he may run who reads it.
For still the vision awaits its appointed time;
    it hastens to the end—it will not lie.
If it seems slow, wait for it;
    it will surely come; it will not delay.

 As with the women that attended, there are  also women around me, that are in an extreme difficult season and place.  I have been in a season where I wanted the answers.  I wanted a husband's behavior and choices to change.  I wanted to shake off the horrible feeling of rejection.  I wanted to be fought for.   I even wanted the Lord to call me home --- 

And in the midst of that, a godly therapist gave me Habakkuk 3. 17-19 

Though the fig tree should not blossom,
    nor fruit be on the vines,
the produce of the olive fail
    and the fields yield no food,
the flock be cut off from the fold
    and there be no herd in the stalls,
18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord;
    I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
19 God, the Lord, is my strength;
    he makes my feet like the deer's;
    he makes me tread on my high places.

There is Rhema word from God  for me through those verses.  Maybe this blog will minister to you as well today.  A rhema word is where you believe God is directly speaking to YOU!  

 God's Word is alive and active  -- 

So HE spoke:   write out your prayers, use your words - they have the power of life and death.   You may not see the victory you want at the moment...but wait for the appointed time.   God will not prove false  

And in the 2nd part, in Chapter 3:    even though there DOES not seem to be any good being produced at the moment - by you, your spouse, or your children -- and there is a lack of provisions now in finances or even in spiritual nourishment  -- and even though a job may fail, a marriage may fail, or something else may fail.......  and even if ALL of your children are not living for the lord ---

yet -- I will be joyful in God my Savior.  HE HAS to BE ALL!   And verse 19 speaks for itself - God will enable you to endure and go on into the great heights....... 

Forgive my misuse of ellipses and lack of comma rules -- I was or am trying to just get this expressed and I type like I talk --  

As I prepared for the Encounter and organized a beautiful support team, I prayed and I questioned my worth, my value, and I even questioned if I was to move from this  season into some thing else.  All those questions were worked through with God.  He spoke mightily over and over and confirmed much, but He also blessed my obedience.  

On the 7th day of August -- after leading my 7th Encounter -- and 7 years since the Lord opened my eyes, God brought forth a final circumstance where I knew that I knew -- I know that I know...IT is finished.  And the year is 2017....  17 is the number of VICTORY.  

 The Monday after we returned from Titusville, God orchestrated and  timed out something that occurred in the Publix parking lot that has released in me -- pure victory.  I was able  to seek forgiveness from the one "whom I thought" caused all the pain.  I was able to apologize.  

 Years ago, I knew and had victory that it wasn't one persons fault -- it was something that happened, that God allowed - to bring me to a place where I NEEDED HIM.  And, I am grateful.  My husband and I often laugh and state - what it took to get us BOTH in a place where we can be ONE in HIM.  This second  part, this new season  of  marriage is better and stronger and full of love  -- full of respect ---something we both had NO idea was possible seven years ago!  

 Now I have had several years of healing but I had NO idea of what God could now reveal as He "removed another layer of the onion".    I had to apologize for my self-righteous judgement and arrogant self.  I had to seek forgiveness for being a woman with such a self-righteous attitude that I literally judged another life.  At the time, I was angry - but God's word states we are not to sin in our anger.  But I have seen the 'other side'  of something.  God has given me grace  to see what  "THAT"  side may have been like.  God has given me the opportunity to watch women time after time come to the cross and lay down their burdens and seek Him for healing.   Adultery is symptom of other stuff.  Alcoholism is a symptom of a deeper hurt.  Idolatry is a symptom of something else.  Pride will kill you -- you can't go to heaven with a prideful heart -- the bible is FULL of warnings -- looking at everything with an eternal perspective is what we must do.  And we must humble ourselves.  

Everyone sins.   Many of us have committed adultery against our God.  We have loved and searched and sought after so many things -- and disregard that first commandment -- "you shall love no other gods but me".     As Beth Moore often says,  "there is NO one that was deeper in a pit than I!".  

 I understand that.  My sin -- put Jesus on the cross.  My sin.  Each of us will stand one day before HIM and be judged. That is the only judge.  Forgive me. 

And with that, Tuesday God gave me some insight into something -- Wednesday as well.  The Holy Spirit has an open notebook in my brain right now ...writing and speaking...  and refining me.  I will have to blog about this another time, but God showed me how I was in rebellion against someone  -- 
-- that blog --- the Holy Spirit will have to write another morning as HE is still revealing MUCH to me.  And, I know that I know....obedience brings rewards.  Last night -- our daughter let us blow up these balloons to know the 'gender' of our grand baby inside of her -- she is having a girl.  

THAT...... has me so full of joy this morning as well.  God fulfilled the desire of her heart.  She admits, they really thought it would be a boy.  My son in love wanted a boy -- but it was the desire of her heart to have a girl.  Her blessing -- is my confirmation.....   obedience brings rewards.  

Not that I follow and love God for the blessings.  
I love and serve God for WHAT he did on that Cross and for WHO He is....not for WHAT he can do for me!         

THAT is another blog -- 

Lord, for the women who traveled to Titusville in obedience to you -- the leaders, the recipients and even the prayer intercessors -- bless them today.  May their armor be up and on as they FIGHT the arrows being sent by the enemy.  Lord, many are in a STATE of transition - believing in You and yet weak in the faith walk, and yet they WANT more of you - may that happen today.  May they read their bible and get a rhema word.  Lord, that they will honor the request of getting an accountability partner and may those that take the challenge -- be that godly woman who indeed  --holds them accountable.  Lord, for those changing habits -- help.  For those having to change a life style and stay pure - help.  For those who hurts were left at the Cross but the consequences are still being realized -- help.  Lord for the HOPE you gave each of them, may they be like those deer that are planted FIRMLY on the side of the mountain.  In fact Lord, I know you created those deer with EXTRA muscles in their back legs and the ability to GRIP that side of the mountain and not fall -- 
So I know you CREATED these women with those same 'hind feet"....may they grip and realize they won't fall with YOU -- IN Jesus name.  


Friday, July 21, 2017

Suffering ---- being an "adult".

 I have been writing blogs to the parents of adult children and to the adult children around me.  This AM as I pray and converse with God, He reminds me that I am an 'adult' child of  parents  as well.  And even my choices and my beliefs don't please them  at times. 

Those of us who have been rescued by God -- have nothing to prove.

I don't say that with arrogance, I just have seen a REAL Jesus and realize that I am a sinner saved by Grace.   And there is a peace within me that knows that she knows....eternally  - I am secure.

I remember about 2-3 years ago, I wanted SO desperately to FUSS at one particular person.  He had made some poor choices which brought a counter reaction from another.  Then something transpired and it was implied that I did this "transpiring" I remember BEING so mad.... but, I was the VERY vocal Christian in this group and it would make sense that I  would be the voice of reason but also the voice of condemnation.  But I would never want to use my words to bring condemnation.    Conviction - perhaps...but not condemnation!

 However it was implied,  I didn't get wind or knowledge  that it had hurt another until much later.  And at that point -- there was nothing I could do.  I really couldn't open the can of worms and scream..."it wasn't me!".   I couldn't go back to the one hurt and try and comfort cause it was literally a LONG time ago.   I just had to sit.  And LIVE my verse  that I love... Exodus 14.14...The Lord with fight for me, I need only be still.   

Today -- I am struggling.   As an Adult....

The struggle between the Spirit of God and evil has been warring since Satan realized the unconditional love God had for Adam and Eve and he wanted to usurp that authority and then deceived Eve....

2 Timothy 1. 8 says...do not be ashamed  to testify about our Lord, or ashamed of me his prisoner.  But join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God, who has saved us and called us to a holy life -- not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace.  

I believe it will become harder and harder to stand on God's Word in these end times.  And even when our own flesh and blood disagree with us - will we stand.  We will stand and suffer? 
Will we speak truth to our counterparts?   God reminds us to speak truth in love ....but sometimes that truth being spoken is so rejected.  I am reminded that God is the one who draws us near -- it is Jesus who saves, but our lives...my life...should represent His grace....His mercy....and His love -- period.

However, sometimes the suffering comes SO close to home.  Or it comes from someone SO close to home....namely a dear loved one.  

Suffering is an inescapable part of inhaling oxygen in the atmosphere of this fallen planet.  We are not talking about the suffering that is common to all humans -- Paul suggests in this chapter of Scripture that servants of Jesus suffer some things in direct correlation to the positions God called them to fill.  
A measure of your pain and hardship really is in connection to your calling. 
Some of it is Spiritual Warfare.  Some of it is sociological resistance because the world hates us as it hated Christ and some of it is ordained By God for our growth, our humility, our compassion, our obedience, our completion, our faith, and  read this carefully, our future commendation, joy, and fellowship in His glory.  If we have a throw-down fit and refuse to partake in the sufferings of Christ, we will miss partaking in the explosive joy of that measure of His glory!  
   - Beth Moore ( Entrusted, 2016)

Isaiah 53.6

All, we like sheep,  have gone astray: we have turned -- every one -- to his own way: and the LORD has laid on ( Christ ) the iniquity of us all.  


Where are you today?
Where am I?

As I continue to seek God and seek to understand Him and His plans, I know His plans for me are good.

I know there is NO condemnation for THOSE in Christ Jesus according to His Word in Romans 8 but when we are attacked .....it certainly feels like we are condemned.

As I grow in Christ and walk in Faith with Him -- He changes every relationship and He even removes relationships.   He changes how we spend our time, He changes our motives, even our passions.  He changes how we live and where  we will spend eternity.  He strips us of performing and pretending and lays us bare...

...fully aware of our NEED for HIM.

While it is costly and even threatening -- is is what we were designed for!   

If we trust God and
confess our sins -- we are forgiven.
If we seek God -- He will answer.

It was Christ's blood that was shed for me!  ( and for you!)  

So with that -- I MUST extend GRACE....to the one that really hurt me recently,
I must extend GRACE to the ones that I am extending prayer for....and trust that God is at work.
I must extend GRACE to myself -- that I can mess up too.
I must extend GRACE to the adult children that frustrate me at the moment.  I must extend GRACE to the adults that frustrate me and cause me some late night hours.  But I also but RELEASE those that have burdened my heart a little FAR too long -- they are His children. 

I can't always be perfect, nor know what to say or what to blog, or even how to pray -- but by HIS Grace.....and His mercy..... and with His Word......

Proverbs 3.34 says:   Toward the scorners he is scornful, but to the humble he gives favor.

God was - is --so GOOD to us, despite our sin.  He was merciful to us and gave us Jesus to make us right with HIM. I have to remind myself that those -- even with false teachings and beliefs are dearly loved by our Father.  It hurts His heart more than mine to hear them blaspheme God or make light of eternity.  Hell was not created for us -- it was created for Satan, but unfortunately -- some of our loved ones will be there.   We have free will.  But I trust that God will reach each and  every one of those lost ones in His time and give them the opportunity to repent from their sins --- I just have to. 

However, I totally understand that the heart is weak and many will choose their own way instead of God's way.  Many won't seek His Word and allow the Lord to come in and totally heal them.  Many won't use His Scriptures to question and rebuke the lies of the enemy.  Many have it figured out and just use the expression, "God is bigger and He is love."

Let's move from focusing on our need  - Chell, move on from this
Let's move from focusing on our need ....or prayer request...or on our hurt..... and fix our eyes on the FACE of God.  He changes everything.

Being humble  = being fully occupied with God.

Luke 6: 28-30  
Bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you.  To one who strikes you on the cheek, offer the other also, and from one who takes away your cloak do not withhold your tunic either.  Give to everyone who begs from you, and from one who takes away your goods do not demand them back.  

Anger is our reaction to when we feel our rights are being taken away from us.  We get angry about not getting what we think we deserve.   -- But God is calling us to die to those rights.

This is the crazy part - we are to LOVE those who hate us.  It is radical and insane.  We are to be giving to those who don't appreciate it.

..........and that  grace can  be given  --- even when  our husbands --when out of anger and  out of their own issues they lash out at us--
.........and that grace can be given to a friend that does not see eye to eye with us --
......and that grace can be given to an adult child who has made very poor choices --
.......and that grace can be given to the lost, right next to us --

Lord, may the one that reads this understand that being broken before you is a good thing.....it allows You to become more in their lives.  This includes me today.  I know this -- but needed a reminder!  
 Lord, may the one reading this, including me, seek forgiveness for whatever needs be and that they would also extend forgiveness, including me when out of anger words fly.  

Lord, You carried a cross for me on 'this' day so many years ago and took ALL of my sin.  Lord, You are calling us, calling me to surrender what is not of you and take up our cross .

Lord, I want the freedom found in allowing You to defend me, even IF I don't see it until heaven. 
Lord, I want to accept that life is not right and fair now, but it will be. 
Lord, I want to love instead of defending or fearing or fighting. 
Lord, I pray that I will freely give and not have a sense of entitlement. 
Lord, I pray that as I embrace my faults -- rather than prove my points or defend myself.  
Lord, I pray and release others' perceptions and understandings of me and I pray that I would HOLD onto Your understandings of me -- since You know my heart! 
And Lord, I embrace the death of my 'rights' and desires -- and receive Your will in my life.  Lord, I trust You. 
 I trust the frustration and righteous indignation I feel right now is part of Your plan --   A plan not only for me - but for those around me and for the total stranger READING this right now -- may they Seek Justice, Love Mercy, and humbly walk with You as their God.  And Lord, that they would extend Grace......

But for the others reading this or maybe that one...I pray a RADICAL salvation experience in him or her RIGHT now -- today -- that they may meet you on a road like Saul did -- and it may radically change them, as my hurts for the wife waiting....my heart hurts for the daughter that disappoints her mother....my heart hurts for the mother who constantly has to pray protection over her boys for fear of danger when they are with their dad.....and my heart hurts for the one who won't stand UP for You Jesus -- there, I am proclaiming that indeed....YOU will WIN in these situations -- not for any of my glory but for YOURS.  

In Jesus name, Amen.  

Jesus told his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?"  
Matthew 16: 24-26

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

To the Adult Children - A series of Blogs for parents -- Choices - Blog #4

This series of   blogs-   continues.   

This series is being   written for children -- adult children.  This series is not necessarily written for my children and yet it may be. And it is being written for the parents of adult children.  

So with that -- here is the 4th  one. 

Sometimes it is very hard to make a choice.     Chocolate cake or Cheesecake.   If I am at Longhorn Steakhouse - it is the Chocolate Stampede.    If I am at the Cheesecake Factory it would be the cheesecake but then - which ONE? 


God's Word says:  Matthew 7:13-14
"Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few."

As a parent of two grown children it can  become difficult  to watch them make choices that you feel within your innermost being-- are wrong.  And it is difficult to watch them make choices that you would not of made -- whether with good outcomes or just different outcomes.  It can be difficult to see them struggle with finances because of poor choices. 

It can also be difficult when you just want to celebrate or hang with them and they are leading their own lives.  I praise God that our children WANT to hang with us -- mind you, NOT all the time, but we do enjoy our time together.  It is a blessing! 

 I am the oldest of 9 children my mother and father 'had' beginning back in 1966.  There are nine of us.  At times over my past 50 years....some of my siblings have been EASIER to get along with while others rub me the wrong way.  Moving 1400 miles away certainly can help the matter or bring distance -- but early on, I realized as my siblings grew into adults -- I wasn't going to be their BEST friend nor would they seek my advice.  In a way -- I was a parent to them all those years ago so  I had a little practice as my own children grew up and moved out....I couldn't  control nor always make their choices for them.  And, it brought pure pleasure when some of them did seek advice or want my opinion.

Some parents never stop -- they interfere, share their opinions, make decisions and eventually it causes distance, hurt, and maybe even estrangement. 

Proverbs 14.12 saysThere is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death.

As a parent, this verse speaks volumes -- when we see our children make choices we know are wrong....

Proverbs 19.21 saysMany are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand. 

Even this verse, being a parent as we watch and wait for our adult children to LEARN the hard way....we pray, we believe, and we show love....

Proverbs 16.9 says:  The heart of  man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.

Truly, when I read this verse - I pray, Lord, establish his steps...establish her steps... may their steps line up with Your Word! 

Philippians 4.8 says:  Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. 

And finally:   Proverbs 3. 5-6  states:  Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. 


If your children - young, small, teens, and adults would fully grasp and understand this past verse -- we are parents would be peaceful!   Right?  

I am thinking...sharing some thoughts running in my head today:

It is weird when as a kid, you watched adults around you make choices and then you saw the consequences...and yet, as an adult - you  can fall RIGHT into those same decisions and choices. 

It is hard when you have children and you decide their clothing choices and what they will eat for dinner and then they become adults and you don't have that 'choice' anymore.  They are adults.

It is hard  to watch another within your circle of influence make the wrong choice after you have prayed with them....sat with them...cried with them.....and yet...they still want to make that wrong choice. 
It is hard to sit back and pray for something that seems impossible to fix or it seems impossible to believe that God could bring 'beauty' out of it ....and yet, we are to make that choice, and intercede for that lost one, or for that dear friend, or for even that  'frienemy'.....that seems to constantly sow turmoil within your life.  But yet....  it is a choice. 

In Matthew it does state...'the gate is narrow'.  It is hard, to make the better choice when the ones around you  poke fun of or believe you are being 'too Christian'.  It says the gate is narrow, but why do so many try and squeeze in -- ?? 

God has brought me to this verse:  Galatians 6. 7-8   Do not be deceived:  God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap.  For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. 

In the Message bible it states: 
  ( I added a few words to make it personal - from God )
Don't be mislead my child....no one makes a fool of God.  What you plant, you will harvest.  My beloved - if you plant selfishness, and you ignore the needs of others -- you are ignoring God -- and you will harvest a crop of weeks.  Dear son...then all you will have to show for yourself is weeds.  But sweet girl... if you plant in response to God, letting God's Spirit do the growth work in him...in her...in them...in that....  you will harvest a crop of REAL life... eternal life with Me.    The gate is narrow my children, don't lean  on your own understanding, You acknowledge your ways in Me all the time, so now LEAN on Me and I will make the path straight!  - God  
I am choosing this photo as it popped up on my timeline - it took choices for these boys to become champions -- may our children may the choices to be champions for GOD!! 


Lord,  first of all for my own grown children who make choices now that so please me and there are a few that frustrate me.....but give me the knowledge to love them through it anyway.   To be there as MOM when I am needed but also to give them the space to SEEK You and find you in the middle of it.  Lord,  I include my son in love in this -- as I truly have adopted him as mine, I pray his choices will continue to line up with Your Word and be pleasing not only to you, but as their marriage grows and continues, I pray it will be a beacon of light to the young marrieds around them. 

 Lord, I pray for the parents reading this, that have wayward children and children that have brought much heartache and pain to their hearts....God, intervene as ONLY You can, bring whomever across their paths to speak truth and allow the parents of these lost children to feel your comfort as they continue to claim Your promises over them. 

 Lord, for the parents who are just experiencing the empty next and this wonderful season of adult children -- may it grow them and may they seek You for each new experience, may they be parents of adult children who continue to love and serve you.  I seek especially for the parents  of college aged ones and the ones who are just now entering that college life -- hold their hearts Lord and help them be supportive, speak truth in love, and help them to see and understand how their prayers in scripture will not return void.  That even though the 'adult' may be making some very stupid choices....that you will give those parents peace -- that child will come back around. 

Lord, use these blogs for YOUR purpose -- may we all make choices that please  You.  IN Jesus Name, Amen

Monday, July 17, 2017

To the Adult Children - A series of Blogs for parents -- A Gift - Blog #3

This series of   blogs-   continues.   

This series is being   written for children -- adult children.  This series is not necessarily written for my children and yet it may be. And it is being written for the parents of adult children.  

So with that -- here is the 3rd one. 

 I am thanking God  this early morning  - as I edit   and publish this 3rd blog in this series.  I wrote this blog back in May -- but again, the Holy Spirit has not given me the OK to publish it, until today.  

I am thinking I must be careful to  allow the Holy Spirit ---to not only give me the right words but also that the parent reading this or the adult child reading this -- has the most open heart to what God is telling him or her at this moment.  

This  past week has been a LONG one.  If you follow this blog, it started with  last Monday and a written blog  that was still claiming  a miracle in the life of a dear daughter in Christ and  for her husband  -- and then the  week  ended  with a life celebration --for that loved one.  For her husband,   the 'celebration' ended as  her body was placed  in the ground but as she was dearly remembered all over FB this past weeked -the legacy of her life is indeed alive! 

And as God wastes nothing, I believe God gave me a word  to remind me -- we move forward. So Michelle, get writing as "it's a gift".  

Her life and the entire Prescott /Bischop Family is a gift to many of us - their steadfast faith and walk in this journey was a testimony to us all.  But Pookie's life is not a cancer story -- it is a faith story.  And she would not want to be remembered for her struggle with cancer but for her faith, her love of her husband, and her purpose!     A gift!    That was clearly displayed within the letters written to her and about her read at the service. 

This   story of  Jared and Rebekah has 'undone' me several  times this week.   And I believe he has only started -- there was a purpose God choose Jared for Rebekah   and I believe he will have more to say and do for His Kingdom through his - God wins!   And, if you listened to the letter he wrote to his bride last Friday - you probably became UNDONE as well.  Jared's testimony has set a bar for many men and marriages and I believe his words cemented the understanding .....do we have faith in God for what He does or for Whom God is? 

You see, I knew Pookie as a KID -- Taylor 's pal -- but I didn't really get to know her until she became Taylor's prayer warrior  as they grew in wisdom  while in high school and college.  And then I was privileged to meet   Jared at their wedding  some 4 years ago.   Furthermore,   the Lord orchestrated a deeper friendship  with Rebekah when her cancer returned a several  years ago,   and I truly got to soak in and  learn about Jared's  faith  through Pookie ---  their married life -- impacted my heart.   

As I woke this am, the Lord gave me the words ..."it was a gift".   

I could write and write more RIGHT here about their marriage.  

 The gift it was to him --to be the husband of her; but also how it was a gift to her -- that God selected Jared for His purpose and Rebekah's heart ---but that is not what God wants to communicate  in this series today.  And I believe it will be for Jared to write.  

God multi-tasks and when He gives a word or speaks....it is usually,  not just for that ONE occasion but for so much more.  And it should be scriptural .....it is.  I know that God gave gifts.  

So, let me get back to the intent there was for THIS 3rd blog in THIS series. 

 You see -- I have  been struggling with the laizzes-faire  attitude of this generation.    Those presently 15-25 and their attitude toward sex.   I just am.  

Sex is a gift. Everything God created with intention and purpose - Satan can counterfeit.  Adult Children all around me are being robbed.  Robbed

 With this, you can think I am a prude, or perhaps you don't believe I understand what the world is like in 2017.  

 Because of course...   I have heard these:  

"we don't buy a car without test driving it first!" 

  Or, "I have seen how you have lived being married --  it did not work too well -- I won't do that to myself, this way we will try it out and if it does not work we can break up and we are none - the wiser!"  

"This is different-- I don't plan on marrying her -- this is not serious".  


First off, God's instructions for cars and whether to buy them is not in His Word.  But, whom we give our hearts too -- is.  
God's Instructions clearly show us whom we should seek for a marriage partner -- His Word does not say that we can try something out to see if we like it. 

And Furthermore, if you have had sex with him or her -- it is a BIG deal. There are soul ties and a spiritual connection that the enemy will use to destroy the relationship and it can hinder your future besides the consequences of unprotected sex.   

 This  culture and this present generation is so different than when I was a kid or a young adult.   Oh  wait -- THAT is what I said to my own mother.....but simply.    It's the same.  We were doing what we wanted back in the 70's  ...the 80's and the 90's....    

 I don't believe much has changed over the past 50 years....   Sex outside of marriage is wrong and  was more preached and expected back in the 50's and 60's and God's Word has not changed.   However, maybe there was more shaming back then -- which just led to oppression.   Now days, there seems to be "no shame" as it is widely accepted.  The old saying, "why buy the milk when you get the cow for free" is an awful saying that I heard so often as a teen -- but in reality, I believe our culture -- even the 'church' of this generation has avoided this issue -- do we understand that we are breaking God's heart when we disobey Him?  He has set forth a very simple concept that avoids MUCH heartache and consequences, if we wait and allow God to move. 

  God's Word clearly states that sex outside of marriage is not God's plan.  That also  includes  any type of sexual pleasure, gratification, with or without intercourse ---outside of the marriage bed.   Period.   This concept goes far beyond our younger generation but with each and every one of us -- as many commit adultery now and think nothing of it.  And please, the actual act is not the only sin -- if you think it - in your heart -- you have committed the sin as well. 

And with that -- I am PRETTY sure that several will stop reading this.  Guilt.  Conviction.  Or they are completely ticked off because maybe, perhaps we really don't want to accept that God's Word is what it is.  We either believe it all and allow it to be ....


2 Timothy 3:16-17

16 All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,17 so that the servant of God[a] may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

Now honestly -- as I spoke to God this am,  and I laughed cause I could picture  a  gathering of some of my favorite people -- namely Pookie and Taylor right here in my living area as I type.  And  I would be telling both of them that this blog has been written for over two months and yet I have tried to avoid this subject and then WHAM - BAM - here it is --- today of all days!   

And I would share with them what God told me this morning at 5:03am and how I began to type and then how I had reservations and wanted to quit again when a sweet godly woman who is fighting for her marriage texted and we started a separate conversation.     And I would not share names, but I would tell both girls that the enemy hates marriage -- so much that he takes pleasure in destroying each and every one of them and that, this particular marriage is being destroyed because the husband does not want to face his past -- and deal with some sexual sins

I could see Pook-- sitting here in her jeans, UF shirt,  and hat,  sitting on her legs in the chair opposite of me and Taylor would be sitting with Bella on her lap - talking with her hands.  Here -- right now -- and she and Taylor would be bantering back and forth --  as I was ranting about the topic of this blog and why it has been so hard to write.   And Pookie would be saying, "You go Mrs. Pritchard, I love you" and Tay would be saying, "mom- calm down!".   And I heard God so sweetly remind me -- "it's a gift".  Our sexual pleasure was a gift from God - intended to be fully realized and complete through the covenant of marriage. 

So before I go on -- please -- I lived with guilt and shame because I choose to disobey God so many years ago before I was married  -- the conviction is real and from the Holy Spirit -- the shame and guilt, is the enemy's whispers.  We serve and praise a God who forgives and I would not want this blog to make one think, "oh well -- I must just continue to sin cause I am already lost".... 

This blog is being posted today because I am being obedient.  The Holy Spirit gave me the topics in which I am to share.  And Holy Spirit wakes me, impresses upon me, and speaks as to when and what!   Holy Spirit began writing this  blog several months ago, so I believe the timing is His.   And  I will add -- I have FOUGHT and FOUGHT against publishing this.  I had this ready to 'publish' last Friday and again, I waivered and asked God for ONE final fleece to confirm to me  to actually hit the PUBLISH button today!   I had to go and fix some verb tenses -- as I delayed this a few days again.  But today -- Monday, July 17th...I will be faithful and courageous.  

I would pray that whomever reads this today is  aware --that TODAY -- you can choose to ask God to help you today -- to be more like Christ and obey our Father.  

  There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus -- there is life, but Jesus reminds us all..."then go and sin no more".  He asks us to take up our Cross and walk - with him and when we do that -- He can meet every need and keep us pure until a marriage is conceived.  He can help us stay celibate until He meets us face to face if marriage is something that is not right around the corner.   

But this blog is "just" not for young adults or the parents of  -- it maybe be written for a sweet child of God who has struggled with purity and self worth for ages.  Maybe it is for her - to encourage her that she can remain pure until God moves. 

 Maybe this blog will encourage a young man, who has a girl pregnant at the moment and he is trying to do the right thing by God as he awaits the birth of a baby and wants to be obedient to God. 

Maybe this blog will encourage a young man to look at his girlfriend and speak to her about Jesus and apologize to her for not being obedient and robbing her of her gift.  

Or maybe this blog will encourage a couple who were married for years, got divorced, and now are back together but are having sex outside of the union of marriage!   Indeed...it would seem that God could OK that... I mean, they WERE married.   I believe God asks us to be obedient and I do believe that He can't fully bless the union until there is a covenant.  

 Or maybe this blog will just encourage the parents of YOUNGER children to pray and begin to fight the future influences on their own younger children  through prayer and confession of God's Word over their lives.  Perhaps it is hard to truly teach a child  to want to remain pure -- to this may help a parent seek God for the right way to raise them up! 

   It is with faith that I post and believe there is hope within this -- not condemnation.  

The Lord showed me 1 John -- and God's Word says it best.  It is the Message version, but I believe His Words says  it best --

1 John 2The Message (MSG)

1-2 I write this, dear children, to guide you out of sin. But if anyone does sin, we have a Priest-Friend in the presence of the Father: Jesus Christ, righteous Jesus. When he served as a sacrifice for our sins, he solved the sin problem for good—not only ours, but the whole world’s.

I praise God -- we have a friend...Jesus...

The Only Way to Know We’re in Him

2-3 Here’s how we can be sure that we know God in the right way: Keep his commandments.
4-6 If someone claims, “I know him well!” but doesn’t keep his commandments, he’s obviously a liar. His life doesn’t match his words. But the one who keeps God’s word is the person in whom we see God’s mature love. This is the only way to be sure we’re in God. Anyone who claims to be intimate with God ought to live the same kind of life Jesus lived.
7-8 My dear friends, I’m not writing anything new here. This is the oldest commandment in the book, and you’ve known it from day one. It’s always been implicit in the Message you’ve heard. On the other hand, perhaps it is new, freshly minted as it is in both Christ and you—the darkness on its way out and the True Light already blazing!
9-11 Anyone who claims to live in God’s light and hates a brother or sister is still in the dark. It’s the person who loves brother and sister who dwells in God’s light and doesn’t block the light from others. But whoever hates is still in the dark, stumbles around in the dark, doesn’t know which end is up, blinded by the darkness.

Loving the World

12-13 I remind you, my dear children: Your sins are forgiven in Jesus’ name. You veterans were in on the ground floor, and know the One who started all this; you newcomers have won a big victory over the Evil One.
13-14 And a second reminder, dear children: You know the Father from personal experience. You veterans know the One who started it all; and you newcomers—such vitality and strength! God’s word is so steady in you. Your fellowship with God enables you to gain a victory over the Evil One.
15-17 Don’t love the world’s ways. Don’t love the world’s goods. Love of the world squeezes out love for the Father. Practically everything that goes on in the world—wanting your own way, wanting everything for yourself, wanting to appear important—has nothing to do with the Father. It just isolates you from him. The world and all its wanting, wanting, wanting is on the way out—but whoever does what God wants is set for eternity.

Antichrists Everywhere You Look

18 Children, time is just about up. You heard that Antichrist is coming. Well, they’re all over the place, antichrists everywhere you look. That’s how we know that we’re close to the end.
19 They left us, but they were never really with us. If they had been, they would have stuck it out with us, loyal to the end. In leaving, they showed their true colors, showed they never did belong.
20-21 But you belong. The Holy One anointed you, and you all know it. I haven’t been writing this to tell you something you don’t know, but to confirm the truth you do know, and to remind you that the truth doesn’t breed lies.
22-23 So who is lying here? It’s the person who denies that Jesus is the Divine Christ, that’s who. This is what makes an antichrist: denying the Father, denying the Son. No one who denies the Son has any part with the Father, but affirming the Son is an embrace of the Father as well.
24-25 Stay with what you heard from the beginning, the original message. Let it sink into your life. If what you heard from the beginning lives deeply in you, you will live deeply in both Son and Father. This is exactly what Christ promised: eternal life, real life!
26-27 I’ve written to warn you about those who are trying to deceive you. But they’re no match for what is embedded deeply within you—Christ’s anointing, no less! You don’t need any of their so-called teaching. Christ’s anointing teaches you the truth on everything you need to know about yourself and him, uncontaminated by a single lie. Live deeply in what you were taught.

Live Deeply in Christ

28 And now, children, stay with Christ. Live deeply in Christ. Then we’ll be ready for him when he appears, ready to receive him with open arms, with no cause for red-faced guilt or lame excuses when he arrives.
29 Once you’re convinced that he is right and righteous, you’ll recognize that all who practice righteousness are God’s true children.

Lord, I just pray that whomever reads this blog - that he or she  will just keep Your commandments.   Lord, I pray that if we love You first with all of our heart -- then we will WANT to please You, obey You, and walk with You.  Lord,  You will provide, You will meet needs, and You will help those that are convicted - to seek Your forgiveness and Your blood to wash their sins  clean, and then I pray they seek You to live purely before You until you bring them to a marriage.  

  I pray for the countless young woman  living close  - living in shame because they know that they know -- they are not obedient to Your Word.  Those I know and those that will read this and feel shame -- strangers.  But they are not strangers to You Lord.  I pray those believers around them will wake up and be used to speak life and truth.  

 I pray for the countless woman living close  that really don't know the truth of Your Word - that those believers around them would STEP up and share Your Word and be that example of Your hands and feet -- but I also pray for those believers around them that are weak -- that have allowed the enemy's lies to defeat them. 

I pray for the many young women totally confused as to what God has for them and how they were created in His image -- pure, feminine, and with no gender issues.  I pray the family and women around these beautiful ladies will stand on Your Word, love unconditionally but speak truth - the hard truth when You orchestrate it.  

  Please Lord,  for anyone reading this, remind them that You are the God of 2nd chances -- that they would seek YOUR counsel and YOUR Word instead of their feelings or the world's.  IN Jesus most holy name - AMEN.  

And PS Lord, I will personalize this prayer for my own little grandchild... the one within TP's tummy -- that he or she will grow in wisdom and stature and live a life worth of their calling but I also pray for Ava Lynne -- she is the one pulling the wagon -- I pray for her husband and his family, that wherever they are - they are raising a son to know and understand that his sexuality is a gift and that His calling will be first  -- and I pray for Ava that as she continues to grow and hear Your Word Lord, I pray she falls so intently in love with You -- that it won't be a temptation to do as her pals do or have the attitude that 'sex' is no big deal...I pray she will realize the gift she has been given -- these may be BIG blog prayers God -- but I know THIS is why I am her "Mimi"...as we battle and protect in Prayer -- and Use YOUR Words to fight!   So I pray and close with my favorite scripture which happened to be Pookie's as well -- I pray that Ava and anyone reading this will know and understand Exodus 14.14...You fight for US Lord...we need only be still!   IN Jesus name ...amen.  

If you are first finding this blog, here is a link to the previous two  - 

Unmet Expectations #2         First blog in the series #1

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

It Happened! Part 5! 5 is the number of GRACE......

It happened.  Total HEALINGComplete.  Halleluiah!  

On Monday, I posted a blog.  Part 4.  If you read it , there was a graphic that stated, "Let's Celebrate".  My graphic referred to the fact that it was my first "OFFICIAL" day of summer vacation.  A day that I could sleep in, get my time on the elliptical,  then enjoy the banter between Kathie Lee and Hoda with my glass of hot lemon water,  and just BE in the moment.

  So for me - the Celebrate graphic  was perfect. Yes, I was not aware that while I was celebrating and staying in my pj's for the majority of the morning as I blogged -- there was a family saying goodbye.    I believe the Enemy would want someone to  look that last blog  and question me as to why I would put that out there -- especially with the title, "it is happening".... healing.   However, God won and we defeat the enemy by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. 

Rebekah's healing was happening. 
Rebekah's healing did happen.
Rebekah's healing was perfected!
 It was.  My daughter told me last night, "Mom, I have not read the blog yet, but I thought  - how perfect - it is time to celebrate, she is with Jesus".  Tears.  Sweet Tears.

 The little girl in me-- that wants approval has to say,  with complete certainty,   Holy Spirit had given me the OK to edit and post the blog I had written for Jarod almost 2 weeks before.

The warrior woman for Jesus, blessed, chosen, forgiven, and redeemed, has  to say, with  complete certainty-- it was in God's perfect time.   His perfect timing.   As if you read that blog on Monday, July 10th - then you were praying for man who was gently holding his bride as she walked into the hands and arms of Jesus!     Tears. Sweet Tears.

The enemy immediately wanted to throw darts -- "Ha ha  - you were wrong - she was not completely healed here on earth"...and I admit, for about 30-35 seconds  I was really mad at God and asked again, WHY would you have me do that?  And with a most sweet spirit, I could hear within my heart, "she is healed- Trust me".  And with that, more tears. 

My husband and I  were out of town  we chatted at length on our drive home  Monday night  -- and we wondered and questioned God as to why we both felt so boldly that God was going to do a miraculous healing RIGHT here before our eyes and we both asked God to help us understand. 

I praise God that we serve a loving Father that we can question and turn to - and I praise God that we can do this as husband and wife.  God won!  

And we prayed... for the many who would read these blogs and scoff because their faith is weak.
 .... we prayed that we,  ourselves,  would not shrink back and not speak life --- believe in miracles for this present time -- and  to be the hands and feet of Jesus when HE asks us to do it again!

  And we prayed for our daughter, as Pookie is still one of  her best best friends.
 .... we prayed for Jared and marveled at what a testimony he has been through this. 

 He has shown many men ...including my husband and my son - n- love what a husband looks like when the vows..."in sickness and in health" are really experienced
He has shown  those ALL around him that his faith and his prayers over his wife....indeed have  helped God heal her.  I was not there, but when I heard  that she  had asked that he - Jared -  would not leave her and that he would just hold her -- as she walked into Jesus's arms ......I lost it.   Tears.  Ugly but sweet tears.  Tears.

 Tremendous.  Happy Dance!!    God won!

   I prayed this morning that my Grand-daugher's husband would be  THAT kind of a man. In fact, I claimed it.  And if the little one within my Taylor's belly is a boy-- I will be claiming that over him - as well.  I will treasure my last visit with Rebekah as she prayed over the little bambino within Taylor's womb and agreed in prayer with as  that he will be a man of God and be the warrior God has called him to be.  ( or her..) 

   And I prayed with a new awareness and boldness  that my own son would grow into being THAT kind of a godly man for his bride.   I prayed that his bride.... whom I have been praying  for the past 22 years ... is growing and living for Christ  with her family as they continue to  seek God and that in God's timing  she will the chosen  help meet for my son. 

And  I thanked God for my husband and Taylor's husband...and prayed that if we were in another circumstance -- well,  I am not going to speak any illness or despair out--- but  I just prayed that we would not have to experience something like Jared has....but that if we did, I thanked God that we know Jared is family  and  that we would rely on his faith and covet his prayers big time! 

I also prayed some other big prayers,  (with help from some  dear warrior sister's that God used to remind me on Tuesday that God wins - you know who you are cause those prayers are being stated here and now  ) that all hearts will be protected. That all hearts  would  not disappointed but that we all see and know this was a WIN WIN....that no matter what God heals  - period and He decides what is best for each of us - He, never returns void.  I prayed that no one would forget that we are called to believe and proclaim healing until we see His face and that we are right to proclaim that as it says so in His Word.   I prayed that He would show Rebekah's entire family and that includes her church family that His plan is bigger than ours and that the elders would have Holy Spirit wisdom when questions are asked.  I prayed and come against any one that might feel or say "I didn't pray enough" or "I didn't pray right"...as those are lies from the Enemy.  I prayed for comfort for each and everyone that she touched but especially for that husband of hers and her family. 


3 weeks ago when I saw Rebekah, she was showing signs of healing --3 Weeks ago tomorrow.  Tears. Sweet Tears.   She fussed at me for wearing an FSU shirt.  She cracked  a joke and stated there were plenty of other clothes in her closet that could be worn instead.

 She prayed over my back.  I went to pray around the house and left TP and Pookie by themselves and I returned to find them laughing and cutting up.     And Jared was in the middle of it all. A 3rd BFF!   I asked Pook if she was having any dreams and Jared stated the only dream she had of late was that his dad got a new truck!   So, TP stated she needed to dream that she got a new SUV as well!   Pookie's left arm was working again and as I held it and we went to  pray again,  we were going to pray  over her toes and legs so they would begin to move.  I went  to touch her feet and pray over them and as I did, she quickly said, "stop - owe"....So I did.  I stopped.  I was "oh no! I am so sorry, if I hurt you! "  And then she  laughed -- "oh I am fine - pray".  She just had to make me laugh.  And so then we prayed. Well actually, TP prayed, I told her I was 'done'.  And you know what...God graced me that.  The last time the 3 of us held hands... my daughter prayed and God spoke through her.  And by then, her sweet Pastor and wife were there too -- even more grace, sweet grace from God.    And so, that will happen again one day - in HEAVEN!    Tears. Sweet Tears. 

 I hugged Jared that day and reminded him the next blog was for him...as the Holy Spirit had already told me to write and I did.  I just did not realize at the time, Holy Spirit would have me publish it on Monday, July 10th.  So, if you were like me and you read the blog and prayed for Jared that day -- I am going to tell you - Thanks...cause I know that I know, prayers were felt and really heard.  And I have not had the chance to speak to Jared yet, but I know HOW sweet our God is and  he had to of had THOUSANDS of angels right there with him, holding him up and He hah  to have  been so full  of  the Holy Spirit to be the hands and feet of Jesus until-- Jesus physically took over and walked her to heaven!    Tears , Sweet Tears. 

Rebekah -- thank you - for being exactly WHO God intended you to be.  What a warrior for His Kingdom.  I can still hear you interrupting Tay when she prayed that day, "ooh...I prayed for an unbeliever -- my prayers are BOLDER"  and TP reminding you - "of course, cause that is what you do".  Thank you for making my faith grow.  Thank you for your love and care of my baby.  I think your Auntie said it best on FB with the 'dash' post... YOU my friend have done more within that DASH.....in your 26 years than most do in  a lifetime.  I am so thankful God called you to be my daughter as well.... I miss you terribly already --and I do believe You BIRTHED many Matthews.....in many of us whose faith was weak, you caused us to GROW.   I  will  keep your family in my prayers as they walk this new season out - but I will see you again.   God Wins! 

Much love  - "Mrs. Pritchard"..... how I wished you would call me Michelle ...maybe in heaven!