The 40 days, ended last week. Several times I have come to this computer but the words didn't want to come and the fingers were not typing. This series of prayers were set with a purpose and I know that God did healing, but He also revealed.
There were new relationships fostered and a few that seemed to fade away. There was tension, glory, and new revelations. Last Sunday, I was so convicted about something God was discipling me about that I blogged but didn't post it. So I blogged and shared other stuff that God had placed on my heart, but fell into the trap of 'checking the readership' and noticed that normally 135-200 people have 'hit' or read my blogs usually, but in this week there were only 20 - 24. Again, those numbers only mean that someone clicked onto the blog site - not that they actually read it. And why am I checking those numbers? Am I writing to recognition and attention, or writing what GODS wants me to. ( Therefore, I would not be checking the numbers of readership.)
After hearing Matt Walsh speak, I found a new fired up awareness of my voice and began to get a bit political on my FB feed. I got flack. I have even stepped up my game and share more anti- abortion but I am afraid or I believe that many just scrolled. It is social media. I scroll. However, I do unfollow a few when all I see from them is the constant and consistent posts of negativity or rants about politics where they are sharing something that is not true or something that doesn't seem to add up.
Then again, as I have said it many times, my husband reminds me .."if you don't have a FB, you would never know". I wouldn't know that a certain blog was being ignored or a certain post was causing strife.
So, I am in a bit of a flummoxed state today. Just am. And I went back to Day #1 and the prayer I wrote for others and said it over myself. Tomorrow is a new day - and I am pretty sure this 'funk' today is just because - I admit ...His Word had escaped me ALL week.
Seeking HIM on Sunday and letting the rest of the week be without our daily feed of His Word ...makes for a very WEAK believer. One that will allow the enemy to tell her lies and she may know they are UNTRUE, but for the am...she allows them to soak in, just cause. It is that kind of a day.
Jesus is on the throne. I have spent time in prayer this am, so much so - it is almost NOON already!! But I do know that God is on the throne and that today's temporary fleshly pity party and my ignorance of being in God's Word last week -- are both distractions.
Earlier this week, I do believe there was a good win for many believers that are Pro-life. Earlier this week, I believe we did see how divided our country is -- but this passage stuck out: 2 Thessalonians 2, Paul says that before the return of Christ - there would be a world-wide apostasy - a falling away from truth.
This is especially so true -- but today, I am going to believe that God will win.
And so therefore, I am sharing Blog Post #1 again - as this pulled me from my slumber and got me back on track! In Jesus name. Amen.
Dear Beloved, this series of prayers has been commissioned by God.
I am in a season of transition and God is holding me, loving me, and teaching me new concepts and revelations. I believe I am on a QUEST. In fact, I have almost finished my late summer bible study, with Beth Moore, ironically called = The Quest. I just have one more week of questions and using scripture to seek God, ask Questions, and really get to know the God-- I call Father ....better! Yet, in this Quest with God, the enemy has not slowed down in his lies nor has he let up. EAch day, it seems I need to readdress what God says about me -- instead of listening to what the world says. In fact, even today when I KNEW I was starting this series -- a call comes, a text comes....and I doubt my value and my knowledge. So what do I do -- I seek HIM and rebuke the offense and seek God to show me HOW or WHAT to do or say next. And I also...forgive myself, as I am not perfect. In the name of Jesus!
I have one friend that calls Him - God - "Abba Father". I have another that calls him "Daddy". And I have a sweet friend that refers to him as "Papa". In the past month, I have been thinking about that and asking myself, WHY I don't do the same or do I have a personal name for My Lord? Sometimes I just call him "Father God" and other times, He certainly DOES seem like He is more of a Papa! The photo at right is of AVA...she has a Papa and to hear her call him - "PAPA!" ..is truly heaven. She also has a G- man. She loves both of them so much. She is beloved and adored. She is loved by her parents, all of them, loved by her Grandparents, all of them and especially loved by her sister....SJ. When Ava enters the room, SJ just LIGHTS up. Below is a photo of SJ and her cousin from Wisconsin. THOSE blue eyes can captivate you... and as SJ looks at her mother or gets a glimpse of her G-man...boy or boy does her FACE light up and she is full of JOY.
THAT brings me to this blog and the beginning of this series.
In my quiet time with God, I am always asking Him -- what is next? AND He brought me to this next writing adventure and reminded me that blogging prayers and writing is something He commissions in me.
My 40 blogged prayers for marriage were inspired by a dear couple that I still believe will allow God to heal their marriage.....but now, I believe God is asking me to encourage a special friend that I love dearly. I know that in doing this....this blog will reach others and God won't waste HIS word.
HE wanted me to write and title this - Beloved, because my dear...YOU are loved. The Joy that Ava gets when she sees her Papa...the JOY that SJ expresses without words when she sees her loved one...THAT JOY is WHAT our Heavenly Father has for US. That JOY is for me as well. And I believe that with this series, there are people that will read this and want to SHARE it with another and I ask that YOU do. Be courageous - share or tag someone that just needs a simple reminder. Be brave today and do something that will FURTHER the Kingdom and Encourage a believer! Or - bring light to the lost.
|Even I feel 'unloved' at times....but I declare I am still beloved.|
Back in 2011, I can remember when God woke me up and gave me the idea to write 40 days of prayers for this one sweet friend. And God used that time of writing and praying for her to reach several other women. He also used it as a witnessing tool for my then 'godless' hubby! Some of those women -- they contacted me, thanked me, and encouraged me. Then a few years after that ...God commissioned me again for a Secret Sister ... who needed to be encouraged and I know God used those prayers and those blogs. And this time...I am believing in that one special friend...that by the end of these blogged prayers -- she will FEEL that she is beloved and she will also have a healing...a physical and emotional healing...and she won't have to get all TOUCHY FEELIE or even give testimony, but that God will MEET her and heal her and remind her that SHE is worth it!
So, pure and simple.....
Dear Beloved -- YOU are adored, and loved, and I know that I know -- YOUR name is written in the Lamb's Book of Life. I am deeply sorry that you are in a season right now where you are questioning and you are trying to figure it out......but I know that I know...God will meet you RIGHT there and HE is patient to allow you to just BE for a bit. Just be in that 'flummox' for awhile and allow God to speak and move you through it. It is OK.
You are loved deeply, not only by your family but by many others. IN fact, I am going to ask God right now that in some unique or special way ...someone GIVES you that affirmation this week. You know that I deeply care and am committed to spend 40 days -- daily --- going to Father God on your behalf, and I believe that when this series is over...you will be experiencing a new relationship with Jesus, as well as some emotional and physical healing... IN the Name of Jesus. AMEN
I sought the LORD, and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears