So when I knew I had a 'catch' in my back on Sunday when I awoke...I should of been more careful.
Instead, I stretched and went to the gym on Monday and PUSHED myself cause I was working out with a younger person and my competitive spirit was NOT going to be weak....I may be the oldest, but I CAN....
Well, I can't...
I have to learn WHEN my body is saying REST and I guess I learn the HARD way.
That is what it is like with my relationship with God most times. I have to learn the HARD way.
I have to be KNOCKED in the FACE before I finally do something to change it.
Or maybe that is where Taylor gets her procrastination from? MAybe....
So, praise God for the chiropractor and his help, but today is Friday and I am sitting and feeling 150% better after being diagnosed with a bulging disk under the L5 vertebrate.
I had to be still....and my man prayed for me- he prayed I would be healed and quickly....
On Tuesday evening the doctor said I would be out of work until Monday...that just could not be. I did not have sick leave left....how can I afford to come to the doctor if I don't work.
I had ONE day left of sick leave so Wednesday was spent in bed.
And continued prayer...and I went to work on Thursday, I was walking slow, but today...what a recovery. Now I know there is still a 'catch' in my back, but I will be careful and allow it to heal.
Change takes time too.... I have to let God change me in my beliefs or I have to give myself time to create a better habit....either way...it takes time.
Time to heal.
But praise GOD HE heals.
On this day I was praying for healing.....my prayer sounded a lot like this:
GOD, YOU HAVE to heal me... I can't afford to be off of work. What am I going to do?
Then I would praise HIM, thank you Lord, I know you will heal me.
Then I would get desperate again...God you MUST do this.
But whether I am desperate or calm....one of the promises I have learned to believe is that HE esteems me and HEARS my plea and He wants to heal me....no matter what. But HE also wants what is best for me.
I believe HE could of healed me the instant Brendan prayed for me - but HE knew I needed a day of rest as Wednesday, HE would be speaking to me again -- loudly. THAT is for the next blog.
Day # 23.. Our FAther which art in heaven, hallowed be thy name....Thy kingdom come and thy will be done..on Earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against you...and lead us not into temptation but deliver us Lord, for thine is the Kingdom and the power and the glory - now and forever amen!
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