Saturday, July 26, 2014

I was struck with Leprosy...... Warning post may be PG - 13!

Yikes.   The HOly Spirit and I have been chatting a bit for the past two days.  If you were following me around, you would see me talking to myself, closing my eyes, thinking, and then praying, and heading back to something to read - either my bible or the book I am reading.  And then God and I would chat again, and I would seek HIS Word again.  And I would wrestle with this I believe some toes are going to be stepped on and I believe I will offend a few -- and I believe that some won't agree, but Lord,  I know that this 'word'...this blog is burning to be released.   Oh and....I am packing too....being obedient to what God has called both my husband and I to do -- being 'uncomfortable' for a bit -- but knowing, HE is purging a few items of 'stuff'...but HE is also asking us to rise up.  read on....

First read...from 2 Chronicles 26...

Uzziah’s Sin and Punishment

16 But when he had become powerful, he also became proud, which led to his downfall. He sinned against the Lord his God by entering the sanctuary of the Lord’s Temple and personally burning incense on the incense altar. 17 Azariah the high priest went in after him with eighty other priests of the Lord, all brave men. 18 They confronted King Uzziah and said, “It is not for you, Uzziah, to burn incense to the Lord. That is the work of the priests alone, the descendants of Aaron who are set apart for this work. Get out of the sanctuary, for you have sinned. The Lord God will not honor you for this!”
19 Uzziah, who was holding an incense burner, became furious. But as he was standing there raging at the priests before the incense altar in the Lord’s Temple, leprosy[g] suddenly broke out on his forehead. 2When Azariah the high priest and all the other priests saw the leprosy, they rushed him out. And the king himself was eager to get out because the Lord had struck him. 21 So King Uzziah had leprosy until the day he died. He lived in isolation in a separate house, for he was excluded from the Temple of the Lord. His son Jotham was put in charge of the royal palace, and he governed the people of the land.

OK -- so -- where am I going with this?  
Praise God that I have not been STRUCK with leprosy -- period.  I have been reading the Old Testament through and is a 'hard' read at times, but it is  important to read the Old with the New Testament.  And, praise God that I don't have leprosy....As if you read this portion of scripture, King Uzziah followed God's laws and did 'well' in HIS sight but then got proud.  It says his power went to his head and he wanted to do something that was not allowed - according to the law.  His friends,  the other elders,  even warned him...'don't do it'...and he continued to do what he was NOT suppose to do and INSTANTLY...did you read that - verse, 19 -  INSTANTLY LEPROSY broke out on his forehead.  

I went to the internet and googled leprosy and saw the images - many TOO graphic and awful to post.  
And as I read this  again, and as the Holy Spirit and I spoke back and forth today -- I thanked God that I live now...that HE does not strike leprosy on one's forehead because they have disobeyed...and become too proud.  God, thank you for Jesus.  
But think.....
What if  --  
                      I am going to say this first and then explain a bit...

YOU CAN'T continue to habitually SIN....and believe that it is OK...or that YOU are still covered in GRACE.  I mean...seriously....Habitual sin...habitual sin...continuing to know you are sinning and some point...  there is a decision to be made .....
I say this statement from experience.  I have lived it.  And I have witnessed it.  
Heaven or Hell?  .....   

I don't want to have a major theological debate about 'working out your salvation' or 'saving grace'...or 'eternal security'. 
   Right now...I am speaking to a person and  several around me  that I have been praying for... anonymously.  
You can't continually sin - and disobey what God has asked you to do.
What God has showed you - is wrong...
What God clearly has stated in His word is sin...  You can't continue to do that...and EXPECT everything to be fine and perfect.  

You just can't.  

I have seen it in my own life.  I believe in God's mercy and grace and when you are immature or perhaps not listening to the Holy Spirit because you are just that YOUNG in HIM.... God extends such mercy.  But...when you have been taught...been told...and you  - yourself have 'preached' YOU decide to GO Back and habitually sin....
Just spend some time with my husband - he will share what God has shown him.  
Spend some time with me -- I am screaming right now - PRAISE God I do not have leprosy - as I should of gotten it...NUMEROUS times.   
 Prayer time:  
Lord,  they are yours.    She is yours.  I am 'giving' them to YOU...I am NOT giving up, but I am DONE trying to enable...or pacify...or be sweet -- UNLESS...LORD, you intervene with this one, that continues to walk this path...God - I pray that she picks the RIGHT road and I pray that SHE get a FIX with you.....  I can't do it for her...for them.   But Lord, I am here...and I will love, show love, and continue to pray when they return.  I will.
Lord, I know how my heart ached when I realized that a dear loved one was in habitual sin and how I had NO control to stop I just prayed that this person would be SO sick of the sin......and SO miserable  that this person would stop..and SEEK YOU!
Lord, it was a painful time.  Lord, there are others right now that I pray the same prayer...and I know that YOU have them...YOU love them as much as me...and I will believe that one day - they will see YOU and reach out to you and it will not be too late.  Amen. 

Now Lord, for the remainder of this blog - protect it -- I am sharing some personal REAL stuff...but there are women out there that need to read this and understand that - they too - could be struck with leprosy...but praise God, YOU are there to have the 'cure'.

So, back to being struck with Leprosy -- I will confess my sin.  I thank God that I did not get that disease when I know that for a period of almost two years...I would purposely flirt with married men and total strangers to get 'love' and feel better because I knew I was not loved by the one I married.

I thank God that when I led bible studies and led prayer groups that I did not appear with leprosy each there was unconfessed sin within my life...and idolatry...and pride.  So much pride and a religious spirit that 'felt' I was better than most.

I thank God that I did not get leprosy each pay check -- as I robbed God of what He asked of tithe.  For years...and years....

I thank God that I did not get leprosy when I gossiped, slandered, and put others down to make myself 'better'....and I knew that I knew -- I did that and yet -- it continued.

I thank God that I did not get leprosy when I lied and lied and lied and lied...all the time.  Whether it was because I was scared, or I was trying to impress, or I had told myself a lie ...that it became real to me.  Point is..I lied.

I thank God that I did not wake up with leprosy on several  Monday mornings in college after I had spent the night with my boyfriend.

And I thank God that I don't have leprosy....
Get the picture?

What about adultery?  Hatred?  Wrath?  selfish Strife?  Heresies or divisons?  Murder?  Merder with your heart?  Lust?  Sexual Immorality?  Deceit?  Pride?

I guess, as I read and reread this portion of scripture today, and as I thanked God that I DID not have leprosy....I knew that I knew ... I 'deserved it'.

But -- Christ went to the Cross for me - and for you .  HE paid the price and I have mercy -- a CLEAN bill ...a GET out of jail free HIM.  AND HE covered me with HIS blood so I won't be 'struck' with leprosy.

But...what about that habitual sin?
What will this dear one decide?   If she continues to sin -- and disobey ...she is YOURS God and I will trust that she won't be lost...that YOUR hand of grace won't be pulled away.

I don't believe anyone can 'snatch me' out of God's hands and my eternal home.  But I know that my OWN sinfulness and my own choices and actions could make it pretty hard to believe that heaven could still be awaiting for me.  

Maybe if we 'did' get struck with leprosy here and there...some of us would be more careful and SEEK to be HOLY before HIM...and SEEK to really change some habits.

And Maybe if we 'did' get struck with leprosy ...others would TAKE notice and realize....that we are NOT playing games here on this earth...this is NOT our eternal home, this is ONLY temporary.

Ok - enough said...  My  heart is heavy this eve and yet full of peace.
I pray that my intent is heard...

God wants you to stop sinning...  God wants you to be holy in HIS sight.

God wants to have communion and fellowship with you -- and HE wants to bless you and make "all stuff" right...but if you continue to mock Him...lie to HIM...and put HIm 2nd...  how can you really expect "stuff" to get better?


Enough said.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

God's promises.

I had a wonderful time with my husband in Wisconsin visiting family, enjoying God's creation while riding a Harley, and enjoying many childhood memories of Ice Cream treats and favorite hang outs to grab a burger.

On the entire trip, I would ask God -- 'what are you going to remind me of?'....  Or, 'what shall I blog about next?'...And I would pray and ask and quite frankly - NOTHING....came to mind.

The greatest highlight of the trip? BP and I riding around the western part of the state, praying together over the hum of the Harley, and then listening to oldies and singing on the bike as we drove through Mountain Lion State Park and its hair pin turns.

The 'low' point?  ....Having to hug good bye again to several nieces and nephews and siblings -- until the next visit.

The most surprising fun?  The chatter and fellowship at a 30th year - high school -  class reunion, where I got a laugh out of several women telling me, "oh, you got a good one - he still has his hair!".  And then, listening to my husband and a few grade school buddies talk about a future reunion with another childhood pal and going to a Texas college football game in the fall....  grown men -- laughing about getting together. This cracks me up - as if 'women' are the only ones who get giddy about a weekend away...

God reminded me the entire week of HOW blessed I am, what HE has called me to do, and HE gave me rest -- just to enjoy my week (5 days) of a vacation.

And by the end of my week,  God did give me this....a reminder -- HE keeps HIS promises.

That blessed me so.

God's Word tells me I am redeemed and forgiven. (Col 1.14)  God's Word tells me I am a joint heir to God and a joint-heir with Christ. (Romans 8.16-17)  God's Word reminds me I am the salt and light of the earth. (Matt 5. 13-14)  God's Word tells me and teaches me so much I am a new Creation in Him.

God promised me, to bring beauty out of the ashes....God promised me that I would be 'OK' -- no matter what.  God has given me a peace about such events, circumstances, and people....that I know that I know ...for this moment - I am in right standing with HIM and I am eternally secure, in HIM.

God promised to WOW me...and HE did --- especially on the Harley - as we drove along the Mississippi and I got to see HIS majesty and wonder in His creation.  God reminded me of how 'easy' my life is...compared to the Amish families I saw farming ....but in their lives....HE has promised them JUST as much 'ease'......

God promised me that the 'ache' I feel within my stomach...within my being.... about some people I am praying NOT going unnoticed - - HE hears...and HE is working.  And HE reminded me - NOT to give up!    Be relentless!

God promised me that my next adventure - MOVING again - won't be the death of my spirit -- but it will bring NEW found glory and fun with my husband and it will bring the needed savings so that we can finally secure and build our home!

God promised me that  dear family members, those  I want....well, I want them to EXPERIENCE Christ like I have....and to have that spite of their circumstances......well, God promised me that all will be well -- to continue to speak life, pray, and have faith.  God is faithful and HE sees me being relentless and faithful.

God promised me that....HE wins all the time.
God also promised me that -- HE is  delighted in me.  

God is so sweet.
God is so faithful.
God is so kind.
God is my best comforter and my confident.
God is also peeling away some layers again of 'stuff' that need to go.
HE has also reminded me to be pure before Him and stand firm.

God reminded me that HE is the one that will judge.
God reminded me that HE is the one that will bring the beauty out of ashes -- and that HE will make all things new.

God reminded me that -- HE has this 'blog' for another...that THIS beauty...THESE promises are for EACH of His children.

In we flew home, we took an 'upgrade' and sat in the Exit aisle so a family could sit together.  It was a blessing for us, especially for my husband and his LONG legs!  I sat 5 feet from the First Class Cabin.  On this flight - for 2 hours - I got to SEE how the first class passengers were treated, compared to us.  Now I understand, my ticket was about $150 compared to their $400...but, as each 'special' perk was given and received  -- I could not help but think of God.

We are ALL First Class in HIS book -- in HIS eyes.  Everyone  gets special treatment no one is 'better' than another as no one paid a higher price to get there....the price was paid - by Jesus!

  Heaven is not for certain is open to all.  And when we are there -- there will be NO sadness or sorrow...none.  I won't know or understand the sorrow of 'not knowing' a loved one is there....that is hard to comprehend and in my human-ness ...I want to understand it.  But for now - I don't want any one to perish...I want to continue to make sure that each has the opportunity to be  in FIRST CLASS with I press on...

I promised that to God...I will continue to be used by long as HE wants me - I am HIS.

Lord, if a reader reads this and does not have that security of YOU within them and if there is no peace...then I pray they would call out to You right now, pray, and accept your free gift of eternal life and then I pray they will find a church home -- a local spot to plug into and experience that freedom that ONLY You can give.  amen.    ( Empty me of me...fill me with You!)

Thursday, July 10, 2014

#TBT a post from June of 2013 that is PERFECT for Today!

Please note, I wrote this a year ago...actually 13 months ago!  It is perfect for today because I would write the same content.  I have matured a bit...I don't want to SMACK, just LIGHTLY give the EVIL eye now...that urgency to share God is still there - in fact it is stronger!  But...when I wrote a year ago, I wrote the words "judging"... Judging gets a bad wrap.  I really don't JUDGE anyone anymore....I know clearly that is GOD's job and HE needs no help....I 'assess'...I mean, I look for fruit, I see how a person acts and you can read so much from their 'tongue'.  You can see what is coming -- from the heart.
  So with that...Lord, please - I ask YOU to CHECK me out...if there is any pride...or any trying to get in as I DO NOT claim to be perfect and I strive daily to be transformed, but I am real...and I know I am fleshy at times....but God, YOU  know my heart - may this REPOST touch a time...may it one think and question....or may it may one share it with one that needs to be smacked.  YOU get the glory Lord, amen.  - Michelle   

I failed Lord....                                                   June 13, 2013 

There is something that I must confess - something that has been bothering me for a bit.   God has been showing me my error....

Do they really think 'they' can be THAT relaxed about their relationship with our Lord...our God....OUR Creator and think that it does NOT hurt HIS feelings?

Do they really think that NOT going to church is OK?
Do they really think that we are NOT in the end times?
Do they really put everything else before HIM?
Do they really understand that hell is real?
Do they see what they are teaching their kids?
Do they really pray?
Do they really SEEK to know you ?
Do they really think 'all is OK'?

Let me explain.

I was judgmental.
I was a know it all.
I thought I had it 'all'.
I was so wrong.
So wrong.
I was such a Pharisee.

Recently I received a copy of a letter that was sent to both me and my hubby some 20 years ago.  It was sent by a loving dad who wanted the perfect Father's Day gift.   It addressed a few issues within our Christian Walk and it was mailed to us in love.  I know that  I know - I read it 20 years ago and NEVER thought twice about its meaning or did I 'receive' it as in my head - I was FINE.   FINE.   He had to be addressing the others he mentioned in the letter.   I went to church.  I did not swear.  I read the bible occasionally.  I did good.  I was a GREAT mom and a good co-worker.  I scrap-booked, made memories and kept a clean house and when I was asked to be a part of a bible study or a committee, I smiled and did what I was suppose to do!   And...I felt  I did my best to be a good wife and support to my husband.  We had started another business...I was working my tail off...etc.   etc...  etc....

The letter addressed issues like - talking Sunday casually...not attending church faithfully....what we put in our heads....what we watched on TV....what we had our hearts set also reminded us that the enemy can so quickly get in to a family and destroy it.

20 years ago, I know I did not read that letter and UNDERSTAND  that I should of heeded the words.
20 years ago - I thought I knew it all.
20 years ago  - I thought my relationship with Jesus and God was a good as it could be - I was so wrong.

However, I never would of 'seen' it back then.  I just wouldn't of believed I was in error - it had to be the others dad was addressing in the letter.

Only now - 20 years later can I 'see' it.

So back to what has been bothering me.  I confess - I give more grace and mercy to total strangers than I do to the 'ones' I believe have confessed they love God.

Really ?   Yep!  I know I do.
I am still judging them - others.  Yikes.  I confess that.
I need to show more love.

But I just want to scream....John 6.35 says that Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life.  He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.".

I could quote that 20 years ago.  I can quote it now.  I was never THIRSTY.....
Now, I am thirsty.

I see so many that hunger after....their Facebook status...
I see many hunger after their family or friends....
I see many hunger after the social climbing...
I see several hunger after that dinner date, the cell phone app, or even the gym....
I see others hunger over their anger and want revenge...
I see  a few put their needs first...
I see several believing that promiscuity is ok..
I see several thinking that the misuse of drugs and alcohol is ok...
I see several that claim they pray - but I have watched their lives......are they really praying?
I see a few say they have repented -- but I don't see changed lives...

and then I just see many that are --- just apathetic....

I am judging....I am judging their behaviors.......

David Evans spoke to us at church last week, he stated there are two reasons why people don't live as Christ planned for them or they are not making the impact on HIS is because they are either fearful or lazy...

I have been fearful and lazy.
20 years ago I thought things were pretty good.
About 10 years ago - the hole created because it was being filled with other stuff - began to show through....six years ago - things began to get really tense within my  life and the people around it and so I THEN turned to Christ and HIS word.

I sort of stopped judging others - I was too busy worrying about my own affairs.  The hunger came....

It was a hunger like no other .....but I began to fall in love with my God.
I wanted more of HIM.
It was a supernatural transformation that resulted....the past four years have been intense pain and then restoration and recovery  and then....faithfulness!

Faith creates miracles.   Little did I know of what would come next and how that hunger, that supernatural power sustained me.

It took a MAJOR crisis within  my family to get me to where I am today.
I see many families and hurting husbands and wives and I just want to SMACK them ----wake up O sleeper ....wake up.  Do they even see what God sees?  

There -- that is my judging again.
I am so sorry Lord.

I don't wish ANYONE a crisis of faith....I don't wish anyone pain....but some so close - do they realize the enemy speaks louder to them ....consistently?

I need to show mercy and grace to those as well.
However, do they see HOW you have protected them THUS far...they treat you like...YOU will always be there -- when they need you ....and yet, they don't honor and SEEK you now when things are 'better'....why does it take 'yuck' to get us to hunger for you???

There....I have  confessed it.  I know I must continue to show love.  I know I will continue to pray for those families and loved ones right around me that God is protecting.  I know that God wins  and I know that as I have now confessed and asked God to give me a greater LOVE for the lost....

That HE will bring forth MANY opportunities for me to....minister and love on those that have to learn it the HARD way.

As I know that HIS word says..."if we do not abide in prayer, we will abide in temptation".    Lord, God, preserve my soul...keep my heart and all its ways so that I will not be entangled in the past, or stuff, or my judging.  Lord, help me to show love to those I want to SMACK!  Lord, you have shown me again today -- patience and HOW LONG you waited for me......Grow me Lord, enrich my territory and expand those I reach via this blog ...or my work...or just my Fbook status...I don't want to be judgmental.  I want 'them' to long and HUNGER after you ...cause YOU deserve that honor and respect and that love.  Lord, may they understand the true meaning of worshiping you...may they see and ask I putting you first Lord?  Lord, I know I put you 2nd for far too long - and I know I am forgiven for that -- God, may this prayer touch just one -- may this prayer make just one, seek you in a deeper way.  May just one person - 'get it'.  God, I don't want to be fearful or lazy  and as Pastor David Evan all boils down to a form of pride.  God...may there be NO pride.  Even if I feel like I got this now.......I don't!   Lord, continue to teach me...Lord, I don't ever want to be prideful ...only to have pride in WHAT you continue to bless me with!  I am so proud to be called YOURS.

Monday, July 7, 2014

Everyone will experience a storm...

The wave

  It has been almost 2 weeks since I have blogged.  I was fasting it a bit - you could say -- waiting for God to speak.  For this blog to have its full potential ...and I believe you will need some tissues as you read and watch this - but you will need to click on the link given in THE WAVE and watch, then come back to this blog.   

Sunday morning I was awaken with a MAJOR dream. I could feel my legs being pulled apart - almost like they were being torn off.  And then...of course -- a  fall.  I kept hearing, "I can pull the legs out from under you".  

It was a pretty powerful dream.  I woke - prayed...and asked God - WHAT does this mean?  I mean, I did not hear the 'I can pull the legs out from under you'...I felt it.  I felt it - several minutes after the dream and after I asked God. 

So I prayed again and asked God -- are YOU going to pull the legs out from me?  Is there something I need to stop?  Is there more to this....?  Is this meant for someone else?  Will there be a new storm coming into our home?   Then I asked God - is this for my kids?  My husband?    Or whom?  And so I prayed again and that is when....much came to mind and I just know that God was reminding me that at any moment -- the 'legs' can be pulled from under another....  a storm can HIT!  

I conversed with God, rethought and thought and then shared the dream with my husband. 
Now, I have dreams here and there and I know this one - meant something more.  How do I know that -- I just do.  It was not something I ate the night before.   

 So then the day started - as I had to get a few new things for the His Kids Nursery and get to church.  Church was awesome, but I admit - my heart was heavy with several prayer requests and concerns for the body of Christ.  But I prayed, claimed, believed and enjoyed hearing from God through His Word and His Servant.   And God is so sweet, at meet and greet time,   He sent one of His messengers with a word of Encouragement for me.  The exact words I needed to hear - as this beautiful woman did not hear my prayer requests at 6am in the morning when my legs still felt like they were pulled off!   ( THAT is how God is..sweet! )  

Then lunch with my kids, Wimbledon, and a impromptu drive to Wellington with my man.  

We had  visited a church in  Oklahoma last summer and there is a  a campus in Wellington that we always have said - "we would visit. "  Last night was the night.   It is called, LifeChurchTv.  The Minister - Craig Groeschel --does a series on MOVIES during the month of July - on purpose - to share God's gospel in another manner that would give believers a chance to invite   non-believers to  come and check  it out.  

The movie was "The Impossible".  I had heard of this movie, I knew it was a true story - but never sought it out.  Of course, the movie clips shown and the narration at the Church meeting was a bit more intense and narrated -- but the message was LOUD and clear -- a storm can hit.  Anytime.  Anywhere and we can have  our legs - pulled out from under us.  

Whoa.  It was at that moment, I knew that I knew -- GOD had a blog in the works.  I had something of VALUE to type and share!  

 Through MANY tears and sobs....Ps. Groeshel reminded me -- that we have a GREAT commission.   I have a commission.  We have a commission.  It is not about how much money we much stuff we have...nor is it about our vacations or what our neighbors are is about SHARING the love of Jesus and helping GOD bring the lost to HIM.    

There are too many people that are complacent.  
There are too many still walking this earth -- that  have NO HOPE.  
There are still too many good people that will be in hell.  

God asks us -- to be used.  HE wants to use us.  
Ps. Groeschel reminded us -- 'there is NO high like a Jesus high -- when GOD has used you -- or share the truth about Jesus and the plan of salvation".....THAT is our true mission.  

Matthew 28:16-20The Message (MSG)

16-17 Meanwhile, the eleven disciples were on their way to Galilee, headed for the mountain Jesus had set for their reunion. The moment they saw him they worshiped him. Some, though, held back, not sure about worship, about risking themselves totally.
18-20 Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead and gave his charge: “God authorized and commanded me to commission you: Go out and train everyone you meet, far and near, in this way of life, marking them by baptism in the threefold name: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Then instruct them in the practice of all I have commanded you. I’ll be with you as you do this, day after day after day, right up to the end of the age.”

 And Ps. Groeschel also reminded us  about  this scripture from Luke 15: 4-7  ( MSG ) 

4 "Suppose one of you had a hundred sheep and lost one. Wouldn't you leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness and go after the lost one until you found it? 5 When found, you can be sure you would put it across your shoulders, rejoicing, 6 and when you got home call in your friends and neighbors, saying, 'Celebrate with me! I've found my lost sheep!' 7 Count on it - there's more joy in heaven over one sinner's rescued life than over ninety-nine good people in no need of rescue.

Ps. Groeschel   reminded us that there is MORE joy and happiness in heaven when that one sinner is returned to you watch this next clip...and you experience the temporary JOY these boys felt...and as the tears roll down your face, think about HOW GOD SO happy with a prodigal comes home...or when a lost is is HARD to imagine!  

Now watch this:  

The Reunion

  Was I right?  Did this video clip knock your socks off?    This is worth the ENTIRE 4 minutes...imagine the angels in heaven -- as a lost one is another 's name is written in the Lamb's book of life.  

It was at this moment that I realized.... God gave me that dream....and the ENTIRE day -- to blog -- because someone OUT there - reading this...will share it with a loved one...that is LOST  and needs Jesus.  It will happen.  I believe I sat with tears and watched this clip...and thought of how Jesus went to that cross for me...for all that we can live... this message must be shared.

And someone will google lifechurchtv and notice that a LIVEstream of the service is playing practically every hour this week on the website.   And maybe even one will visit next Sunday -- you can still attend YOUR church in the am and visit their 5:30 pm service in the Wellington.  And invite a lost friend - this could be God reminding you that HE wants to USE YOU.  

Oh and one more thing.  In the beginning of the movie, Lucas' mother establishes that.."no matter what, even if it is the LAST thing I do - we must help others".....
What a concept.  

Even if it is the LAST thing.....would do help another?  So as the movie progressed and as his mother was laying on a gurney awaiting surgery, he helped another....and as you watch, you can see the satisfaction within his heart -- because he help one boy find his father.    The father DID not give up.  

We must NOT give up.  
Watch this clip:  


Even if it is the LAST thing.....would do help another?  I wrote in my journal last night - "yes Lord, even if it is the last thing I do - I will help YOU Lord".  

And I wrote in my journal - USE me Lord, I have had the pleasure of leading a few to Christ and see freedom come upon their face...but I want more, I want to be used by YOU LORd, MORE....use me.  

And today progressed along, God and I edited this blog over and over and as I sit and type this it is.  

Lord, USE this blog tonight - to save a soul.  
And let me meet them in heaven.  Amen.