Sunday, December 17, 2017

Merry Christmas from the Pritchards 2017

2017 - What a year!

Sunday at Sonny's! 
In some ways I am SO ready for this year to end and in other ways, the memories and the beauty realized within this year are memories and things I want to relish, remember,  and relive!

The year literally started in prayer.  Bren and I had been seeking house plans, praying over house plans, visiting home models and we had contacted the owner of a little red cottage that we fell in love with as well.  Superbowl Sunday found us enjoying some football with Taylor's in -laws, at their home.  They had purchased a Cottage on the Lake and when we set our eyes on it back in September of 2016, I questioned Brendan as to why he had not considered one of the other cottages near by.  Last October began a letter campaign to contact the owner of the "red one" right next to Kerry and Will and see if she would be interested in selling it to us!  Fast forward to February and Superbowl Sunday, as  we left, we walked about that little red cottage I had nicknamed the "the barn red house" and asked God to either open the door or specifically close it, as we were headed to the bank with a 2nd set of house plans and we wanted to get the ball rolling with building a home.    And some of you reading this will say ..."she has been saying that for years!" ....I know ... I have.......
Just one of my many beautiful nieces!

It had been seven years since we sold our home out on the golf course and we were tired of being homeless.  Both kids were/are  somewhat financially stable and we were able to  finally build up some savings!!    Yeah!   Within the week after that prayer, our NOW neighbors called us and said, "she is here this weekend and she is interested in selling."   !!!    I could  give you ALL of the God orchestrated details and boast on how our Lord provides, but  the short version is that we met with Martha  the owner of the red one on Valentines Day and we signed an offer 24 hours later!   We closed on March 28 and moved in officially in on April Fools Day!   Success - we have a home!  yeah!

In the seven years we were homeless and rented -- we have downsized and downsized.  I really do recommend that system.  Not that you must sell your home - but look around -- what is really needed and used and what is stuff that can be lived without!!???   We felt like kids again, furniture shopping and planning.  In the past seven years, we have watched every Fixer Upper and DIY show about homes that we knew what we wanted to do and with the help of my brother, we personalized our little red cottage to our liking and totally enjoy living on the water --- or the canal!   No longer do we hear semi-trucks or motorcycles speeding by, but boats!   We do miss just walking outside and being on Main Street or close by to Joey's or the Taco Place within 5 minutes, but now cooking at home is a real pleasure.   LOL.  Anyway, we have a guest room -- and if you want to get away - don't hesitate to call and see if the room is open!  The kids get first dibs --

Ava - just beating the heat!
Speaking of kids....Taylor took a new position this summer.  After 4 years  of teaching, she joined the insurance office and is a part of the team.  She is a tremendous asset to the family.   She calls often on Sunday nights and says, "the best part of today is that I don't have to run to school to do lesson plans for tomorrow!"  She was  a natural teacher and well loved and missed in Okeechobee County, but now she is a well loved teacher working with our staff and family there.    Teaching  us all!  She is young -- but a leader --and has given much insight to her Grandpa and her dad.  Brendan so enjoys working with her!  She did not give up her Volleyball coaching and so we are still connected to OHS and enjoyed many Volleyball games!  

 Speaking of Brendan....I know I have been TEASING everyone with the notion of his retiring for the past 4-7 years.....but this is it ---it is official.  Come June - he will dismantle his classroom and take a more permanent spot at the Insurance Office.  I mean - he has been there daily for some 20 years....but now, he may just get his name on a door!  LOL....maybe!!  He knows he will miss the kids and the connections with them, but he is a natural sales person and manager and it is time.  30 years is a remarkable career!  

Bren and his Great Aunt Colleen!
Back to Taylor -- she and Jake are in the FINAL weeks of preparing for their second child!   Yep...Ava will be a big sister to Sawyer Jane who is officially  due on 1-1-18, but we are praying for a Christmas delivery to ensure a tax break and the fact that a 2nd deductible  ( health insurance ) does not have to be made.  Hey ---being practical!   But I know -- she will come when she is ready!   It has been a treat to watch the process of  sharing the special news, to prego selfies , to "Mom ...I am ready, I want her OUT!".  Many people ask what it feels like to be awaiting the 'grandmom' status and I tell them right away --

---I am already a Mimi to Ava and I know Sawyer will indeed hold a special spot in my heart as she is my first born's first born....but, I know that I know -- both girls have my heart and I would die for either one of them!  ---  

It is something unbelievable -- almost how Christ's birth allows us all to be adopted into heaven -- all equal ....all joint heirs as children of God.  There is not  an 'automatic' pass or by some special race or color or ethnic origin.... Christ Came for us all.... and some how, living 2017 out and walking in  prayer with Jake and Taylor as they pushed to have more time with Ava and  watching them bond as a family -- well, it all just changes things.  Circumstances bring forth consequences and changes and yet, God does bring beauty out of what the enemy hopes will destroy a person or family.

It was COLD in Clemson!
So, Taylor and Jake and the dogs are awaiting Sawyer Jane.  Her namesake will remind us daily of our dear pal, Rebekah or Pookie Jane who walked into heaven's gates earlier this year.  This is one of those memories that I want to relive with a different ending -- but we all know heaven is a better place.  2017 did bring forth much time to reflect and recheck our hearts on many different levels.

Hunter graduated with his BS in Accounting just a year ago and is one semester away from finishing his Masters Degree in Accounting and beginning his life as an accountant later in the fall of 2018.  He has been studying and taking the CPA Exams and has 2 of them completed.  He has passed the first one and took his second one earlier this month -- we now await the results!  Prayerfully, he will be 1/2 way done with two more to go!   We have had to get used to NOT seeing him as much - he lives in Delray and works in Boca and has classes at FAU, but weekend visits are treasured and I don't mind doing his laundry when he comes!  He has many ideas and plans for his future - even speaks about traveling -- time will tell.   There is a girl who has a piece of his heart and ours.  She is brilliant and beautiful and we enjoy her company when we get to see her!
A visit from my mom and baby sister and her girls!

Me......  well -- I still teach.  It is my 30th year as well and prayerfully I will keep at it a few more years.  I am too young to retire! I enjoy my work family at the Indian Reservation School and am challenged each day by young people that seem to know it all.  In my spare time, I am enjoying entertaining here and there for family and friends now that I have a kitchen again and I write....not a book-- but a blog.  Hence -- this letter.    I try my best to continue to do what God asks of me -- and I  just want to hear, "well done my beloved daughter" when it is my turn to walk those steps to heaven.  But in the meantime ....I manage to find FUN stuff to intrigue Ava,  have fun  playing with her , and I most certainly will enjoy having a NEWBORN around very shortly!

My Red Barn Cottage!
Brendan and and I enjoyed Dowton Abbey so much  that when we got a new smart TV for Thanksgiving  (with Netflix),  the CROWN series  became a night time habit.  We  might feel withdrawal when we get to the end of the 2nd season! We still love to hop in the car and drive -- just not as often anymore as we can cook steaks here at home and then enjoy the quiet of our home!  Soccer matches are now watched on TV when HP is home or when he calls and says there is a really good game on.  Volleyball is still a staple from August through October.  This year was extra fun as I had "AVA" duty while Taylor coaches  and Jake was coaching his own team.  He is a special teams coach for Centennial High School.   And family dinners or weekends when they have Ava have become a routine as with both sets of Grandparents right next door -- it makes for a perfect weekend.
It has been where we have had dinner on Friday at our house....and Saturday spent at the neighbor's which is Jake's parents and Ava just goes from house to house...yes, she is a bit spoiled by her Mimi and her Miss Kerry! 

 We traveled to Wisconsin to watch a football game - in the middle of IRMA and ended up staying a week!  We had planned that weekend and Irma decided to move west and threaten our plans.  But when we realized she was coming towards us no matter what, we stuck with the tickets and left town.   The FAU Football team was playing UW Madison!  It was my first BADGER game!   It was an emotional weekend - trying to enjoy family and the cooler Wisconsin weather and watch the Weather Channel speak about where the "CONE" was headed.   Thank Goodness we did not have any major damage!   Then later in November, a wonderful weekend  was spent in South Carolina with friends and the Clemson Football team was a treat as well.  We even managed to get to Colorado and see my Aunts  earlier last July and we hope that we can take all the family there  again, soon -- but we may need to rent a van or a motor home if we take Ava and Sawyer with!!

Happy Anniversary from Camp Randall!
But most nights - like tonight, you can find Brendan reading in one of his books and me typing at this computer.  Just enjoying this "second act" or this new era within our lives.  We celebrated 30 years of marriage all year long.  And, I plan to celebrate it a bit more - what a feat -- 30 years!   And, we both will attest, we are not the same 21 year- olds from 1987....but we are indeed more in love today than we ever have been.  It is what it is.  God won.

Ok, I had better wrap this up  -- I am long winded!   My family -- ??   I am still the oldest of 9.  Each of them are married and there are MANY nieces and nephews.  Another one will get married, my niece -  - soon -- prayerfully.  A summer wedding was planned but he was deployed so much is on hold at the moment!    However, God knows -- .  Another nephew saw a tour oversees and is safely back on US soil, he and his wife live in California!  My parents are good - so I am told.  LOL.  Brendan's parents are good - so I am told.  No, seriously, we are thankful for their good health.  All of them.

We got to enjoy my Nephew's WHS game!
We are thankful for each day the Lord blesses us with, we look forward to holding another new member that will join into this family.   And I will totally enjoy every meal  as I prepare it,  in the next week,  as Hunter comes home for a bit and stays as well as Taylor and Jake and the girls.  I am praying for a baby this week last day of school is Wednesday so after that -- Sawyer, you can come!!  

Seriously - Merry Christmas to each and every one of you taking the time to read this, but also to my Aunts and Uncles that I don't get to see as often anymore as well as the familiar faces we see each day -- may the Spirit of Christmas and the love of a baby born in a manager -- truly bring the hope of peace and joy to you and your family

My 'box' tree! 

Some strong women praying over Taylor and Sawyer!

Look who all showed up?   I said 'free' tickets and they came! 
-- much love -- Michelle    aka  Chelly 

Saturday, December 16, 2017

Would you say you listen to God? -When the Lord discipines me.

from LUKE chapter 2:  
Recently, the Lord spoke directly to me through another -- and I had to repent.  The details are for that godly woman and me and Jesus but this scripture has helped me express my sin -- 
I am adding in a bit... read my thoughts - they  are in  BLUE, please read until the end. 

Birth of John the Baptist Foretold

In the days of Herod, king of Judea, there was a priest named Zechariah,[a] of the division of Abijah. And he had a wife from the daughters of Aaron, and her name was Elizabeth. And they were both righteous before God, walking blamelessly in all the commandments and statutes of the Lord.    Walking blamelessly before the Lord -- can that be written about me?  What is being recorded within my 'book' with God at the moment?   In the past week or so, the Lord has shown me where I have been very wrong about a situation and that I needed to repent!  

 But they had no child, because Elizabeth was barren, and both were advanced in years.
Now while he was serving as priest before God when his division was on duty, according to the custom of the priesthood, he was chosen by lot   I am not positive, but he was chosen just by chance or "lot"....  What would of happened if another was chosen?  I guess, the words say he was chosen by "lot".....but, God orchestrated it.    I don't believe much is to chance anymore.  I have to believe that even though the enemy certainly seems to run free within our earth...that God is still on the throne and watches and uses his angels from heaven and here on continue to speak to us and intercede for us.  I believe God's word when it says, "he wants not ONE to perish but have everlasting life."     to enter the temple of the Lord and burn incense. 10 And the whole multitude of the people were praying outside at the hour of incense. 11 And there appeared to him an angel of the Lord standing on the right side of the altar of incense. 12 And Zechariah was troubled when he saw him, and fear fell upon him. 13 But the angel said to him, “Do not be afraid, Zechariah, for your prayer has been heard, and your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you shall call his name John....So, what about having a visit from an angel? The Lord didn't use an angel to discipline me this past week, well -- she is like an angel.  She is sweet and a woman of God.  I sought her for advice and God spoke through her ---..14
 And you will have joy and gladness, and many will rejoice at his birth, 15 for he will be great before the Lord. And he must not drink wine or strong drink, and he will be filled with the Holy Spirit, even from his mother's womb. This is really significant -- as no one had the Holy Spirit yet... Jesus had not gone back to heaven ....  I read this today and read it over again.  And I thought about HOW many times I have read this scripture and not noticed that ....this baby had  HOLY Spirit within him in the womb wonder he LEPT for joy when Mary visited.  The Holy Spirit is indeed with us now -- and He is our comforter and teacher and He convicts -- when you know that you know - God wants to change something within you --   16 And he will turn many of the children of Israel to the Lord their God, 17 and he will go before him in the spirit and power of Elijah, to turn the hearts of the fathers to the children, and the disobedient to the wisdom of the just, to make ready for the Lord a people prepared.”  John certainly had a purpose and a destiny --I do as well.  And each and every one of us has a destiny!
18 And Zechariah said to the angel, “How shall I know this? For I am an old man, and my wife is advanced in years.” 19  Now.... Here, Zechariah doubted and then questioned...and what happens?  God SHUT the mouth of Zechariah.  I thought about HOW many times I know that the LORD has asked me to SHUT my mouth but I didn't.  Or even how many times I know I was to speak but I did not.   And recently He had me change my words for another -- change my words in how I pray, change my words in how I speak about it and just change my expectations -- And the angel answered him, “I am Gabriel. I stand in the presence of God, and I was sent to speak to you and to bring you this good news. 20 And behold, you will be silent and unable to speak until the day that these things take place, because you did not believe my words, which will be fulfilled in their time.” 21 And maybe...if God 'shushed' us a bit here and there -- some of us would be quicker to really LISTEN!   ....Just saying... 

Because we did not believe the words 
--what part of 'the words' did we not believe?  
That God will come again? 
That sin is sin?  
That God would answer?  
That lusting within our hearts and head is just the same as breaking a marriage vow?  
That manipulating God's word to fill an agenda or 'prove' a point and not show love... is what we should be doing ?
What other words don't we believe?   
That cheating is OK, if you don't get caught?  
That cheating God of His tithe won't be that big of a deal?  

Bren and I  had made a HUGE list awhile ago,   so often, as we are JUST as guilty --- we have justified our actions based on what we felt GOD owed us -- not according to WHAT God did for us...

And sometimes we forget and allow the wrong thinking to creep back up -- 

I am humbled   and reminded - and praise  God that my many years of being a 'shallow believer' --- was allowed by God.  I am not  proud of this fact, but because HE extended His grace and mercy and waiting on me -- why on earth can't I wait and extend that mercy on others??? 

So, with this waiting and mercy we receive for ourselves -- why don't we give that mercy to those right in front of us -- those that need to see Christ's love the MOST?  

    And the people were waiting for Zechariah, and they were wondering at his delay in the temple. 22 And when he came out, he was unable to speak to them, and they realized that he had seen a vision in the temple. And he kept making signs to them and remained mute. Visions....I believe these visions are JUST as frequent now -- but many don't see them, cause we don't want too. 


 60 but his mother answered, “No; he shall be called John.” 61 And they said to her, “None of your relatives is called by this name.” 62 And they made signs to his father, inquiring what he wanted him to be called. 63 And he asked for a writing tablet and wrote, “His name is John.” And they all wondered. 64 And immediately his mouth was opened and his tongue loosed, and he spoke, blessing God. 65 ...... and his name was discussed -- THEN, Zachariah tried to write  to confirm his son's name, and when he did -- his voice returned...and the 9 months of silence SPOKE volumes......  

I believe our silence CAN speak volumes.  
When was the last time my silence spoke  GREAT truths about God?  
God does not need to be defended and when we are walking in and living within God's will ....HE will be there before us and behind us....and we won't have to explain anything...

..... We won't have to send text messages in ALL Capitals.....
.....or even pester our fellow God will do the rest.  

  We won't have to be the Holy Spirit of another;  and, we might have to delete our snap  chat account or even our Face Book account.  

 BUT...we might  have to change something.  We might have to extend grace and mercy.  We also have to seek forgiveness for trying to be the Holy Spirit of another and then forgive ourselves when we totally realize how wrong we were -- I should rewrite this now in first person.  

I need to seek forgiveness - I need to repent.  I need to forgive myself.   

We may need to LET God be God... and realize and know we are not the 'saviors'.   

I am not the Savior! 

 And fear came on all their neighbors. And all these things were talked about through all the hill country of Judea, 66 and all who heard them laid them up in their hearts, saying, “What then will this child be?” For the hand of the Lord was with him.

Zechariah's Prophecy

67 And his father Zechariah was filled with the Holy Spirit and prophesied, saying,
68 “Blessed be the Lord God of Israel,
    for he has visited and redeemed his people
69 and has raised up a horn of salvation for us
    in the house of his servant David,
70 as he spoke by the mouth of his holy prophets from of old,
71 that we should be saved from our enemies
    and from the hand of all who hate us;
72 to show the mercy promised to our fathers
    and to remember his holy covenant,
73 the oath that he swore to our father Abraham, to grant us
74     that we, being delivered from the hand of our enemies,
might serve him without fear,

75     in holiness and righteousness before him all our days.
76 And you, child, will be called the prophet of the Most High;
    for you will go before the Lord to prepare his ways,
77 to give knowledge of salvation to his people
    in the forgiveness of their sins,
78 because of the tender mercy of our God,
    whereby the sunrise shall visit us[h] from on high
79 to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death,
    to guide our feet into the way of peace.”

It is certainly because of the GRACE of God and HIS mercy that --- John the Baptist came first and then...Jesus... 

I have been thinking about this all day and asking God as to WHAT I was to say and share.  

I will stand accountable before God one day -- and have to answer for EACH and every word...every idle word, even  every word said in anger...and every word period.  

 Now, I believe that my relationship is strong with Jesus and when I face God, the 'list' will be accessible...but Jesus will stand up right then and there and say -- "she is covered".    

But this DOES NOT give me an excuse to do or say whatever I want, nor does it take me off the hook  to suffer the consequences of my words-- 

- but when the words come into fruition and God is certainly reminds me -- I can listen to God and obey.  

I have NO idea of HOW  God is going to 'do it' - but I trust that we, God and I,  will have a conversation and talk... 

Today, I got to thinking -- 

Zachariah's voice box was silenced.  I am positive he spent the next 9 months in deeper prayer and conversation with the Lord.  I am positive that his wife probably  looked at him and questioned  and yet....maybe  she just enjoyed everything even more as she had a baby in her womb.  Then Mary visited and stayed for three months and she too was pregnant and it says in God's Word that the Holy Spirit was within Elizabeth the HS was within the baby within.... and she spoke a blessing over Mary.   Now she was speaking -- for HIM.  

Our tongue has the power of life and death.  
What we say, brings life or death.  
We will be held accountable.  

Lord, I pray that always, my mouth speaks blessing ---

Lord, for YOU are my Savior and my best Friend.... show me where and if I have not been a faithful servant and have hurt or harmed another -- allow me the time and place to seek their forgiveness.  

Lord, for YOU are my Savior and my best Friend... when You have asked me to share a word of knowledge or a word of encouragement....and I did...  I thank you  for  blessing  it.  

  When there has been a 'hard' word because You orchestrated a divine appointment ....for those times...I thank you,  but I need you to cover them.   I am not asking for you to make everything better - as if someone is upset with me, I won't be ruled by emotions and feelings but....I do wish to do your will.  And I pray the enemy won't use it to hurt and hold them from getting a blessing. 

 The enemy wants to use it to hurt and harm and set another BACK....   so, I will ask  you to protect  their mouths until they are ready to SEE YOU in it...and I will ask You to speak to them.... where YOU are within this.   Remind them ....that sometimes...YOU say "no".  

 And I ask You Father to  protect me, as I have stated and told you -- I would never want to be a stumbling block for anyone's faith and journey.  Lord....I need  You to fight for me -- open the eyes and hearts of those  who don't 'get it' yet... and just show me -- if I need to do anything different or just be silent -- even for some time.  

Lord, You understand and realize my  request...   
Lord, for the Zachariah's close by -- may they see and understand YOUR will be done.  
Lord, for the Mary's --  who You have asked trust You....may they truly trust You in a new way.  
Lord, for the husbands and wives that are barren right now -- and don't understand..... may they SEEK You and be satisfied in YOU for now.  Lord, I pray each finds You  and trusts You.  

Lord, for the one today that used words to hurt or harm another - may they seek YOU and seek Forgiveness.  Lord, may I not allow the hurt of it to stop me ....from being a servant to You.  I don't wish to be used by the enemy for anything....

Lord, you will do the judging and You will reign over all of heaven.  I pray that when I am there -- I will hear, "well done, by good and faithful daughter".  I am praying and believing.  


If I could tell you ...

 Many of us struggle with a prodigal child or prodigal children.  But others of us struggle or pray for parents and family that are so very close and yet, don't want to claim Christ as Lord.  They allow their opinions and the world to dictate what they place their trust in.

It is Christmas season -- a season where everyone is aware that a baby was born to bring us something.  He came - born in a manger, grabbed some other 12 wandering vagabonds  and began  something that people still read about and talk about today.  He turned the world around from B.C. to A.D. ......Literally.

I wrote this letter to a loved one in my journal earlier this year.  I never mailed it.  I penned it one Sunday when my thoughts captured me and took me away from the message that was being preached.

 Today, as I read it again -- I felt it could be written for another.  

I felt it could be written from a daughter to a mother.
I felt it could be written from a young woman who can't understand why her boyfriend continues to hurt her.
I felt it could be written from a mother to a son.
I felt it could be written from one sister to another sister.

And many of us have been hurt by a spouse or significant other  because they have  a hard heart towards God or never truly experienced the saving Grace of God to begin with ----

The bottom line is --hurting people hurt people. 

No one is perfect.

 None of us were given the perfect parents or the perfect children.  Adam and Eve even had one child that obeyed and one that disobeyed...  Many of the great 'men' of the bible were failures at many things first.  I take comfort in that - there is always a 2nd chance. 

And us 47chances if we need them -- cause He knows that on the 48th time you mess up -- YOU will indeed get it and quit that pattern of sin or ugly! 

Anyway, I have been hesitant to publish this blog, as God has been disciplining me lately, and I have been fearful.  However, by faith I will post this one, as I believe there is a daughter out there, who will come across this blog; and  she'll will read this and know, she must seek out her dad and let him know -- he was the 'best dad he could be' and forgive him.  Therefore, she can then move forward herself. 

Humbled -- Michelle


If I could tell you -- I would tell you --- It is  OKAY!  

I struggled trying to understand why you act a certain way or I struggle to excuse it.  I explain it away in my head.  

That is how you were raised.  You were neglected and never allowed to enjoy the love of a father...

I have also spent time making excuses.  I have spent time judging and persecuting you - because there was something that I missed as I grew ---

But today -- 

Today I would say -- 

I have truly forgiven you for what was lacking and I am in a place that does not need understanding -- as the Holy Spirit has filled every gap and filled me.  

Today I'd say -- thank you -- thank you for pushing me, reminding me of what needed to be done or changed in me as a kid.  Thank you for being the best dad you could be -- at that time.  

Thank you for the smiles and the follow up when I am near.  Thank you for always being a good example of hospitality.  Thank you for teaching me about a work ethic.  

You were the right and appointed dad for me -- as you did well.  

I would also tell you -- Or I would ask, have your forgiven yourself?  I don't harbor any unforgiveness towards you and I pray that you would understand that God chose you.  He chose you -- it wasn't because of anything you did or didn't do. 

 I would remind you that you are a holy being.  God created you to be His - a joint Heir to eternity.  And I would tell you that right now, if you could hear the audible voice of God - 
        He would say to you --

--My beloved

--come to me - come rest in the shadow of my wings - you are the apple of my eye.

There isn't anything you can do to change that - you are loved. 

And then, I would pray that you truly received that and live in that knowledge, free from bondage. 

 And  if you really did live in that knowledge -- you wouldn't feel the need to fix and /or correct everyone else.  You would see them as children of God... imperfect but loved.     Yes,  you would guide and give counsel, but you would also realize that you are NOT the Savior -- Jesus is.  

I would share with you - "I get it!"  That need to fix others is a big is a stronghold that I myself am recovering from -- but Jesus is the Savior - not us.  

And I would pray that as you woke up tomorrow -- you would see and know within your heart that you are a new creation in Christ.    Jesus was born of a virgin and came to this earth for you....

And I would believe your eternity is secured.  In Jesus name...Amen.   

And that Dad, would be the BEST Christmas present ever! 


Wednesday, November 29, 2017


Luke 17.1 It is impossible that no offenses should come.  

Satan, you are the enemy of my soul, and I refuse to allow you to ensnare me in your hidden and baited trap of offense against my brothers and sisters in Christ.     ( declaration, pg. 3 of The Bait of Satan by John Bevere)

But what happens when it does happen?

You get offended -- by someone you are trying to help, by someone you are trying to love, by  someone who knows exactly HOW to hit the right buttons within your heart and head.  

David stated in Psalm 55: 12-14 -- "for it  is not an enemy who reproaches me: then I could bear it.  Nor is it one who hates me who has exalted himself against me: then I could hide from him.  But it was you, a man of my equal, my companion and my acquaintance.  We took sweet counsel together, and walked to the house of God in the throng."   

Offended -- by the one we are trying to help.
Offended -- by the one we sing along side of.
Offended -- by the one we spend holidays with.
Offended -- by the one we grew up with.
Offended -- by the one we sleep next too.


One way the enemy keeps a person in an offended state is to keep the offense hidden, cloaked with pride.  Pride will keep you from admitting your true condition.

Pride will keep you from dealing with the truth.

Pride distorts your vision.   The enemy will use your pride to destroy you.

Pride won't let you change what you think - and you will never change because you think everything is fine.

Pride hardens your heart and dims the eyes of your understanding.

Pride causes you to view yourself as a victim.  Your attitude becomes "I was mistreated and  misjudges, therefore, I am justified in my behavior." 

Pride will kill you -- maybe not literally, but a prideful heart won't see the eternal life with Jesus  -- there is  scripture to support that.

There is plenty of scripture that reminds us to forgive and not hold onto bitterness and unforgiveness.

Today was another example of how our world is not 'ours'.  On every news channel, there was commentary and comments about Matt Lauer and what transpired today.  He was fired.  Sexual misconduct.

Sin is always revealed.  I see it so often and I think I see it because I was THERE for almost twenty years -- trying to cover up...trying to justify....trying to explain to God why I was "ok" and others were not.

What God allowed in my life -- to OPEN the prideful eyes I had ..... hurt and it was  a very hard lesson to learn.

When I think of that period -- of  those ugly years -- when,  realizing  pride was my god ---I get very remorseful, because I never want to go back there  and  I become grateful,  that  it is in my past.

Praise God.  He showed me mercy -- so I must extend that to others, especially those lost around me.

However,  when something comes AT you like an attack - my flesh wants to FIGHT it back.
I FIGHT in words and then prayer.  God is teaching me to FIGHT first in prayer and speak WHEN HE says -- 'go  -- share'.  I am not perfect, but......  I do believe I am getting quicker to PRAY first!

Mercy and grace needs to be extended to those that hurt us.  Prayers need to be said to the one that was the victim, but that one must eventually forgive and move forward as well.

People need to place their trust in the one man WHO will not lie or disappoint -- Jesus.  People will fail us.  Period.

Today, along with the news of Matt Laurer, I had a mammogram.  It is never really "fun" to be squished into a machine and be told to hold your breath as it hurts so she can get that perfect image.  But -- I do it once a year -- to prevent other stuff.

That simple procedure -- to help prevent cancer.

Why are husbands not doing the simple procedure of covering their family and their wives with the blood of Jesus in their prayers?   

Why are wives allowing the enemy to control and rule their thoughts instead of the simple procedure of leaning on the Word of God to confirm and support their worth?  

Why are parents allowing the world and social media to raise their children instead of setting a standard and a basis of belief so their child can stand up for what is godly and right?  What ever happened to the simple procedure of having some family time devotions?

Why, when a believer has come through the fire and has seen God's hand in a miracle...why does she allow the enemy to come right back in and take back or steal her peace again ... steal her home... steal her authority?  


Because we are weak people....
We fail.... 
We can't do this on our own -- The Savior came to save and He sent the Holy Spirit to help us 
...but we must do the simple procedure. 

Not just once a year.


We must put ON that full armor of God.
We must dig INTO God's love letter to us and get instruction.
We must TEACH it to our children and hold them accountable.
We must tell the enemy to go to hell and claim victory.

Today, I was told about another couple that is divorcing.  She just decided it was time and she didn't want to be married.  He did not fight it - he felt he couldn't.  I wanted to SCREAM!   In the John and LIsa Bevere Series - "The story of Marriage", they speak about couples and how they don't FIGHT to stay married or fight for the marriage.  Marriage is meant to test us -- it is the one of the ways we learn to be self-less.  It is hard, but some of these husbands and wives are allowing the enemy to win -- way too quickly.  Way too fast....   there is no FIGHT!  And yet, sometimes these very same people will be up at the crack of dawn to FIGHT the crowds and get the BEST deal at Target -- but they won't fight for what is hurting their family.  Sad.  Frustrating.

So -- with that -- I will end with a prayer.  I was deeply offended by some situations recently.   It wasn't just one circumstance but frankly several -- seems like when it rains, it pours.  I had to LAUGH really big as I was watching "This is Us" last night and at one point, Randall said the same thing -- "when it rains, it pours".  After a week of some thinking and praying, I awoke today with a new attitude for those lost ones who offended me and God gave me an insight and a reminder of HOW to act and react.  And then, He confirms it while I watched the first 10 minutes of  Hoda and Kathie Lee on the Today show --

To Quote Kathie Lee, "Only God can heal this - ONLY He can!".

She is right.  The bottom line, the one doing the offending needs Jesus --and the one who is getting the brunt end of the offense -- needs Jesus too!   As only understanding the blood of Jesus and what He did on that Cross -- can make it right and heal the whatever.  God will win.  Period.

Lord -- I refuse to be trapped when the enemy's bait of offense tries to ensnare me in its grip by filling my heart with bitterness, jealousy, or envy -- but especially anger.   Your Word says in Luke 17 that -- the enemy will try - but, we, I can stand against it!    

Holy Spirit, destroy every shred of pride in my life, and do not allow it to keep me from being healed, set free, and filled with Your Power.  I am committed to helping unbelievers who have been blinded by the enemy to behold Jesus through my Christlike love for them.... namely -- her!  

Holy Spirit, be my teacher and my counselor so that Your revealed Word will continue to bring great liberty to my life and this blog ministry -- and the ministry You have placed into my hands with Women's Encounters.  

Father, I want to continue to always grow into a more intimate relationship with You -- expose the areas of my life that hinder me from being Christlike and cause my life to reflect the character of my precious Savior  and Lord.  

And Lord,  You know who did what this past month -- so help me to move from the anger to a place of unconditional love - period.  Lord, help me to avoid division by again, giving me that supernatural Christlike love for another .  

Holy Spirit, anoint my eyes with eye salve that I may see my true heart condition, and be kept from deception through unforgiveness, anger, envy and resentment -- but also -- help me see this in others and USE me to help share Your love.  As I know -- You love them as much as You love me and want them in Your eternal Kingdom as well...IN Jesus's Holy and Strong Name -- AMEN! 

Thursday, November 23, 2017

It is impossible to be 'a little blessed'!!

In walking through this funk, I have gravitated towards my journals and read and reread stuff that has reminded me what God has done.

It is impossible to be a 'little blessed'.

Beth was speaking at a LPL event and she used the acronym of the word Blessed:

B  Bountifully
L  Loved
E  Extravagantly
S  Saved 
S  I am Supplied
E  I am Empowered
D  and Delivered

 When one really understands and realizes that she is indeed bountifully loved, extravagantly saved, supplied, empowered, and delivered -- so much changes.  

I know this - and yet, the enemy won't let up - he hates me.  He hates you.  As  I was speaking to God, and praying yesterday He reminded me of many woman around me needing this knowledge.  He also had me pray in such a way -- well...

I will share.  Maybe this is you.  Maybe this is person in your circle of influence.  Maybe this is a dear child of yours -- but as I pondered over the 'd' words....  that I referenced in my last blog -- I prayed.  

If this touches you -- please let me know.  If you feel led to share it with another - please do.  Sometimes  God can speak so clearly to a lost one - right though the computer!  


Dear Beloved,  you are so discouraged right now.  It has been so long to hear a kind word, to feel his affection, and even to know that hope is coming.  I want you to know -- God is faithful and He has not forgotten nor neglected you.  He has never left.    Lord, I pray because of Your great love she is not consumed by this -- for Your compassion never fails.  Lord, he is failing her right now -- but You won't.  Lord, be her portion, and help her continue to wait on You and him.  Lord, You are good to those whose hope is in You -- to the one who seeks You -- she does.  Lord, help her to move past this discouragement....In Jesus name.  Amen. 

Dear Beloved, your actions have caused division.  You seem so bitter and hopeless as it seems you have lost your first love....Jesus wants to hold you and remind you that He has already paid the price.  The hurts from your past, the hurts from your young life -- can't compare to the joy and wonderment He has for you -- but only YOU can change this..... It's Your choice.  It seems you walk in the midst of trouble and yet - He has preserved your life.  God will stretch His hand out against your foes and His right hand will save  you -- however, YOU have to extend it out and grab it.  Dear Beloved, I wish I could do this for you -- but I can't and I will continue to believe that soon -- one day you will realize HOW loved you are.  I pray you won't have to loose what you are find the unshakable God -- is RIGHT there for you as well...In Jesus name.   

Dear Beloved, you doubt.  You doubt God can hear you - You doubt your prayers are heard and You doubt  You are good enough to experience it.  Lord, I pray you will SEE that YOU are indeed worth the price Jesus paid - He went to the cross for you.  He went there - for you.  He knows your sins and He knows what You have done and what you will do and yet -- He still choose YOU to die for.  Please don't put Him back up on that cross.  Accept by  faith, His grace....the forgiveness -- He freely extended  to  YOU....  walk in that forgiveness and be like the woman caught in adultery -- "go and sin no more".  Go and guard that marriage.  Go and guard that child -- remove the temptations.  Walk away -- walk away from the one who has that listening ear right now -- choose Your marriage and guard it.   You can do this -- You can be free of past sins, but it will take a daily 'turning' away and I am praying His strength will guide and lead you.  Lord, Psalm 119 says, "it was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees"....Lord, I pray this past of hers will now be a reminder of Your grace and mercy and that she will place her hope now in Your Word and allow it to guide her into this season of resisting the devil then he will flee, In Jesus name.  

Dear Beloved, your discontentment reminds me of a spoiled child.  When my children were little and discontentment sprang up, I was quick to find the root cause.  I pray you will FIND the root cause and realize....that indeed --- this is  a tactic of the enemy's to remind you that perhaps....God has forgotten you or that God is denying you of something better and bigger.  My husband reminds me that when we complain -- it is like saying Jesus needs to go back to that Cross and do it again -- Jesus already paid the price for ALL sin.... being discontented is a ploy of the enemy to keep us in bondage.  So, Lord, I come to you and pray from Psalm 51.... Lord, YOU desire the inner most truth to be felt and heard in my most inner parts and You Lord teach me wisdom.... So please expose to the one reading the one going to read this...or to me....  please expose to me the deeply embedded lies I have believed and replace them with permanently engraved truth.  In Jesus name.  

Dear Beloved distractions come to distract.  You seem to be set on getting that right job or finishing the last class and you have forgotten that the enemy is distracting you from Your purpose.  Lord, I pray for those that are being distracted -- distracted to think that living together is ok for marriage may be in the future.  ---distracted to think that compared to others, they are pretty good in Your sight as they are not  committing murder or doing any major sin and yet they have allowed the distraction of the world to take Your place in their hearts.  ---distracted to think they are generous and yet they rob   You Lord of the tithe you commanded.  ----and distracted to think they still have time...time to sin for a season as You will provide the grace and mercy to be saved when the time comes.   Lord God I pray for all those around -- those who have allowed the lies of the enemy to distract them....especially when they DO KNOW Your Word and think "it will be ok".  God, awake them....God, show them... may they OPEN Your Word and repent....In Jesus name.  

Dear Beloved, you are deceived.  If you believe it is your place to bring revenge to another  -- you are deceived.  If you believe a new man or woman is the answer -- you are deceived.  If you believe that playing house is ok because it is accepted now in our society  -- you are deceived.  If you believe that silence or ignoring what is happening in front of your eyes is the best option -- you are deceived.  If you believe you can seek God on a pod cast and don't need to be a part of the body of Christ -- you are deceived.  If  you believe you can live without prayer -- you are deceived.  If you believe you can live with the unforgiveness because it is justified -- you are deceived.  If you believe you can ignore the calling on your life - you are deceived.  If you believe you are without sin -- you are deceived.  If you unsure about your eternal home -- you are deceived.  If you don't have a relationship with Jesus -- you are deceived.  

Lord, you know how each prayer for each "d" word came about and You know my heart and the women and men that I could tag in this -- but, it is because of Your Grace and Your Mercy that I don't.  Goodness Lord -- You know I want them to avoid the pit of sin and the hardships when choices are not in alignment with Your Word -- but give me grace to wait on You being their Holy Spirit.     Lord, please use this blog as a reminder to all prayer warriors that we must not shrink back or let our own guard down -- that we put on the FULL Armor of You and walk in the freedom that we have been delivered in.  Lord, may everyone reading this - love and adore you that they have such an eternal peace as they read and pray with me for those that are discouraged, divided, doubting, discontented, distracted, and deceived.  Lord, that one may come to know you in a more personal way by just reading this -- USE this blog for YOUR glory and I submit it to You.  I believe You are moving me out of this Writer's Block -- into a new season.  A season where I trust You EVEN more....I am not fearful Lord, just wanting to always be in the apple of Your eye and doing Your Will..... Help me discern Lord, Fill me to overflowing -- 

I know I need more of Your love for the unloved and the hurting.  I know I need more of You to extend to others.  I know that can only come supernaturally - so I have asked and will receive.  Use me Lord -- IN JESUS name....Amen.   

And Lord -- thank you -- that I live with  one that indeed knows he is blessed as well -- Lord help us to be that light and show how blessed we are to others -- may they want what You have blessed us with.  God.... that we walk in the delivered freedom you died for.  IJN 

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

God Wins!

Does He?       


Isaiah 25:1 NIV says:  Lord, you are my god: I will exalt You and praise Your name, for in perfect faithfulness you have done wonderful things, things planned long ago.  

I have not blogged in almost 30 days.   If you watch or read my posts -- for almost 2 months now, I have written a new blog -- one that focuses on my grand-daughter.  That was a clever disguise for my "Writer's Block".   And if you look closely, I re-posted several blogs as well -- again, covering my Writer's Block.

  I would like to tell you that I was fasting blogging, or that God had me in a super QUIET time with Him -- but confession is what I must type.

I have been in a funk.

I have been flat..... frustrated and yet, discouraged.   And yet -- needing rest and a fresh move of God.  I have seen God all around me and He reminds me---He has not left -- I have. 

 Or..did I?

  yes.... it 'feels' I did.   

In the past month, I have questioned WHY I am in this funk.  There is a LONG list.  I have analyzed it, confessed it, and sought counsel and yet.....still....a funk. 

Lack of energy.
Too much on my to do list.
Stupid people.
Prayers that seemed to go unanswered.
Time Hop reminders of some stuff.
Too busy. 
Lack of sleep.
Too much sleep.

I was able to see the ROCKS cry out-- lots of times in the past few months -- and sing His praises and yet....I still remained in a funk.    I will admit -- I am still there -- some could label it depression.  Others could say, "pity party".  And yet, others will remind me -- it is Spiritual Warfare.  What I know, is that it is a place that feels uncertain and yet I know that I know -- God is trying to move to something or do something. is a season of such spiritual warfare and my flesh just won't 'feel' better until I SEE something! 

My husband keeps me in reality and reminds me -- it is the enemy.   Praise GOD for that -- THAT is a miracle in itself!  And I know it is.   

 Sunday, I sought out a precious sister in Christ that I submit to and just let her speak over me and pray.     That helped! 

In all of that -- if this makes any sense -- I believe I was just frustrated, as at times, I believe the Lord has me doing something and I expected some different answers and then it did not happen.  And then again -- I am believing the Lord is just calling me DEEPER to trust Him -- even when I can't SEE the mountain moving. 

Deep calls to deep. 

There I said it -- I don't feel pretty deep right now and so therefore, I do think the Lord is a bit distant and yet -- THAT is such a lie from the enemy. 

There, I can say that!  The enemy lies -- but to LIVE in that knowledge....that is where it  gets hard. 

It gets hard when I see this season and yet...I want to be obedient.

 In the past six months, He, God,  has asked me to do some "things".  I have been obedient in about 1/2 of them.  And the enemy uses that info to remind me that I am less than perfect.  I failed.  And thus....a crack in the armor happens and the funk sets in and ......continues. 

But the enemy will do anything and everything to distract -- in fact on Sunday, through a guest preacher, God reminded me...

The enemy -- brings discouragement, division, doubt, discontentment, distractions, and deception! 

So, with that -- I am blogging today.  I am being obedient -- being transparent.  I don't feel like the Lord is writing this -- I feel like it is a confession.  But -- I do believe the Lord will USE this for His Glory. 

I can't be the only warrior for Christ that gets into a funk. 

I have claimed victory over my "list".  I have made a few doctor's appointments to address the hormones.  And....  today, I blogged - in obedience.  Being transparent. 

Lord, this blog is me being honest and as You know I prayed today -- I want this season to be for YOUR glory, but I want to know its purpose.  But...I will trust that I don't HAVE to know its purpose.  Protect me Lord,  you know the secret places that need Your touch and You know how the Holy Spirit lives in me.  God, as your Word says - You have planned wonderful things for me -- long ago.  I will trust that YOU made me for THIS time...for  Your purpose and that You will use me -- IN Jesus name.  Amen!