That is God.
However, my heart was so heavy this am -- I had to seek godly counsel even after my extended time with Jesus. I believe God reminded me today -- through a precious woman of God -- I am human.
We all are. I know God has placed burdens on my heart and I pray .....but I can't take ON the burden -- that belongs to God.
This mighty godly prayer warrior reminded me of my Armor. Oh I had my armor on -- my shoes were not off -- I had peace but perhaps I was holding that sword just a little too tightly. I was jabbing at the enemy when 'he' or 'she' should of been wielding that sword with their own power and might! Just because they had taken off their shoes of peace -- did not mean I had to give them mine.
I hope that makes sense -- it makes sense to me. She confirmed to me something God had spoken to me just hours before -- "your past is the past, don't go there!".
STOP. I told myself to STOP. I quickly put on Kari Jobe music and sang 'FOREVER' at the top of my lungs until those thoughts left. I knew -- I was allowing the enemy to wear me out!
The past is the past and I am a new creation in Christ. My past shaped my future but it no longer can carry me backwards.
And I know this. Praise God that He used a sweet friend to remind me. Sometimes we just need to hear a 'human' voice when God speaks. I so know - HE used her to confirm His words to me!
I believe the Lord was just reminding me -- I am human.
He is God.
He carries the burden.
Prayers have NOT ceased today -- there is still a one fighting infection, a dad working his way back to life after open heart surgery, a special one fighting infectious pus, a wife trying to comfort a child cause 'daddy' has gone away, a wife trying to be prayerful and patient as she knows God is working on her husband and the waiting game is hard with a house full, one daughter that has a parent so into porn that it is hurting the family, another who is so brokenhearted, even one who has been in a loveless marriage for many years and she wonders when God will move the mountain or move her, and one that is grieving a loss, a big loss, and then there is one whose heart is grieving for another-- many are ....those parents and family of the little boy from the Disney accident --
---the friends and loved ones of a young girl that graduated two weeks ago and sits with Jesus now instead of here --
|Ashley and Madison|
--- the families of the Orlando shooting --
--hearts are hurting all around --
I don't make light of these prayers. Some of these scenarios are real and others are just what the Holy Spirit is having me type -- as I write, I try and be somewhat generic -- but also somewhat careful as I would never want to hurt anyone with a prayer request or post!
I pray Madison won't mind, I shared a photo of her and Ashley -- I know how hard it was to watch my children grieve when their cousin went to heaven -- it is not easy. Madison, my deepest sympathy -- I know she was deeply loved by many!
As I said, I don't make light of these -- but I also know God showed up BIG time today for me.
He comforted me and spoke to me - and showed me something as well. He blessed me in Publix with a visit with a sweet sweet girl. A girl that MANY years ago... was in a very rough spot and she was spent. The enemy was using her and causing her to think -- her life was of no value.
She was a relative of a dear friend of mine. It broke my heart. We went to the 'tree' at Central ( our prayer time ) for this young girl - often. But God also used my husband at one point ...to direct her to someone who could speak life into her and she connected with a beautiful prayerful family and even though trouble seemed to stick around or come again -- there was something that changed. She finally made a RADICAL LIFE change...delivered..... and she is presently in her Master's program and she is healthy - beautiful woman - and I know being USED by God in her neck of the woods.
THAT was no coincidence.
THAT was God giving me a tidbit of blessing -- a sign -- that our prayers, even though we may not see the FRUIT or answer right away -- those seed prayers -- take root. OH what a glorious day in heaven when we will see MORE of what we did here on earth for the Kingdom!!
And He does this for me.
HE will do this for you. Trust!
So, I will trust that the BOLD prayers being said for this one and for that one -- God will meet those needs, comfort the hurting, discipline the stinker husbands, and provide as well!
I will trust the hurt and heartache felt right now, will be comforted by God himself!
I will trust that those seeking HIM will find Him, JUST like I did today.
I will trust each tear caught today by the Holy Spirit will not fall wasted -- but collected by HIM and HE will make beauty out of those ashes/tears!
I will trust that those fighting a good fight will place their armor on each day and not leave their shoes of peace at home and off.
I will trust those that are wallowing in a cycle of defeat will want to have that cycle of victory!
I will trust that God rocks and is fighting for me and for all of my loved ones -- the ones who call HIM Lord.
And I will leave you with this:
Brendan and I watched a message this eve by Lisa Bevere. You can find it at Gateway Church Archives. It is called the GRIT factor. She speaks fast, uses lots of scripture but her message this eve hit home. I am going to post the scripture -- but leave the blog and commentary for tomorrow -- as I need to head to bed.
However -- she had both Bren and I asking God -- do people see us as SET apart and HOLY?
to be continued...
Romans 1 18-32
Ignoring God Leads to a Downward Spiral
18-23 But God’s angry displeasure erupts as acts of human mistrust and wrongdoing and lying accumulate, as people try to put a shroud over truth. But the basic reality of God is plain enough. Open your eyes and there it is! By taking a long and thoughtful look at what God has created, people have always been able to see what their eyes as such can’t see: eternal power, for instance, and the mystery of his divine being. So nobody has a good excuse. What happened was this: People knew God perfectly well, but when they didn’t treat him like God, refusing to worship him, they trivialized themselves into silliness and confusion so that there was neither sense nor direction left in their lives. They pretended to know it all, but were illiterate regarding life. They traded the glory of God who holds the whole world in his hands for cheap figurines you can buy at any roadside stand.24-25 So God said, in effect, “If that’s what you want, that’s what you get.” It wasn’t long before they were living in a pigpen, smeared with filth, filthy inside and out. And all this because they traded the true God for a fake god, and worshiped the god they made instead of the God who made them—the God we bless, the God who blesses us. Oh, yes!
26-27 Worse followed. Refusing to know God, they soon didn’t know how to be human either—women didn’t know how to be women, men didn’t know how to be men. Sexually confused, they abused and defiled one another, women with women, men with men—all lust, no love. And then they paid for it, oh, how they paid for it—emptied of God and love, godless and loveless wretches.
THIS next verse...really made me think!!
28-32 Since they didn’t bother to acknowledge God, God quit bothering them and let them run loose. And then all hell broke loose: rampant evil, grabbing and grasping, vicious backstabbing. They made life hell on earth with their envy, wanton killing, bickering, and cheating. Look at them: mean-spirited, venomous, fork-tongued God-bashers. Bullies, swaggerers, insufferable windbags! They keep inventing new ways of wrecking lives. They ditch their parents when they get in the way. Stupid, slimy, cruel, cold-blooded. And it’s not as if they don’t know better. They know perfectly well they’re spitting in God’s face. And they don’t care—worse, they hand out prizes to those who do the worst things best!