When life is going along, someone may ask, "how are you?" and you reply -- "fine, just fine!".
When a trial comes it either stops you in your tracks or it totally breaks you and when asked, "how are you?" you may just reply -- "fine, just fine!". But the tone and texture of your reply may speak more than your words.
I wrote this BLOG back in August of 2011.
Tonight ...I know there is someone that is in the middle of a trial. She has seen some breakthroughs and the HOPE she has in a victory within her family in not in her sight as of yet -- but she has faith!
In that time period of my life, when one asked me "how are you?", I would reply, "one notch above cautious!".
So, this is an OLD blog from 2011 -- but I believe someone needs to be reminded as they continue to pray to believe that this season will pass and they too will be one notch above cautious!
It is funny -- no it is God's timing, that today I just sort of 'went'
one notch about cautious.
What does that mean? Well, for so long there
has been a trial, a problem, an event, or just a big old plain elephant
in the room. So many things, events, people, and just STUFF involved.
One goes through SO many emotions that you almost become RAW at one
point and then HARD and vow NEVER to be hurt like that again!
you really RE-evaluate and think -WHAT DO I want?
What I wanted?? -- more
I wanted to be in the CENTER of HIS will and I wanted to hear
those prophetic words, "well, done my good and faithful servant
So choices had to be made.
James 1.12 says: Blessed
is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the
test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those
who love him.
is the woman, hurt, that perseveres under trial, because when she has
withstood the test, she will receive the crown of life that GOD has
promised to those who LOVE HIM.
is Michelle . . it is hard to sometimes really believe that GOD loves
me as much as HE loves Jesus. It is hard to wrap my mind around it.
so, I have been cautious with my heart. I am cautious, I have good
reason. But, when I really reflect and think -- I broke God's heart too.
I loved HIM but I really did not WANT HIM . .nor did I really
understand HOW to love HIM the way I was suppose to, nor did I
understand HIS true grace and mercy.
But now . . .
I believe I can say
that I have experienced HIS grace and mercy and so therefore, I must
give it. Period.
To give grace and mercy ..
sometimes it takes extreme patience. Patience is to have the ability to
endure, but it does stop there. Patience must also have the capacity to
be wronged and not retaliate. In other words, patience is love
persevering and love waiting. We are not only to be patient in the way
we face difficult situations but in our relatioinships as well. Easy to
say, HARD to LIVE.
Job Stood firm.
remember the day I had a revelation -- God loves me like HE did JOB.
God has allowed this trial in my life .. this journey .. this hurt .
.because HE wants to see if MICHELLE will stand firm. I chose that. I
have. I tired. I failed but I tried again. I choose this each day I wake
And with that, I have become cautious.
People say and act a certain way . . .but sticking around long enough
and listening and watching sometimes shows one's true heart. That is
why, I would say . .I am one notch . above cautious.
restoration power is at work, God's healing is at work, but it is not
complete as of yet. The smile on my face, praises GOD for the glorious
miracles I see and hear and witness, but I realize the ENEMY is still
fighting mad and won't stop! Together, and I am claiming this
..together, my husband and I can defeat the Enemy's schemes for our
family and friends and I am so anxious to watch how God brings this
about. I am believing that we, both, together can make a difference for
HIS Kingdom and I want that. And I believe that God will reveal even
more to my husband and do a mighty miracle with everything we have
encountered and endured.
trial must come through HIS love but every trial has a purpose. Every
pain, every ordeal contains a seed of victory and there is a promise for
every problem you and I will ever face. (I am stealing this from Mary
Scipture says: " The
Lord is my strength, my shield from every danger, I trust in HIM with
all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy." Psm. 28.7
pays off in many ways, but one of the greatest rewards of patience is
joy, a deeply - rooted confidence that God is in control.
I can say, this deeply rooted confidence. . that God is in CONTROL . .won't be shaken from me - ever . . .HE will do what HE says HE will do.
Father, thank you for the revelation of the Encounter . for both me and
for my husband. Thank you for that day, that particular day when the
gifts you bestowed on others spoke directly to him. Lord, thank you for
selling the house ( I know you will do that.) and allowing us to move
forward in a new direction with a new purpose and a new calling for you.
Lord, thank you for the little mini-tidbits of miracles and the hurts
that have been healed with small gestures and comments. Lord, I would
never say it was because of 'me' but it is because of YOU that I have
the ability to give grace and mercy because I sit here humbled that you
waited this long for me. I the love for the manual is here, the mind set
is here, you the master are at the top, and the ministry will come. I
pray for my husband, Lord, do not allow the Enemy to steal what YOU have
revealed to him and Lord, continue to restore, continue to bless, and
continue to show me the wonderous mysteries of YOUR love through him.
Lord, I thank you for the patience you gave me, for the healing you
provided, I want to be way about one notch than cautious . .but you know
my private prayers and you know how fear can still creep in . .. . but I
believe, I know . .YOU are GOD and you want this more than we do. Amen.
I love you Lord. - Your grateful beautiful daughter - Michelle