Dear Sweet one.....God has brought you to me for THIS time ....
You can't see it - but God wants you.
You can't believe that HE truly can be your true 'man'....but HE can.
You are hurting and yet.......the best way to move forward from this -- is to allow Jesus to come into your heart.
know you have 'tried'. I have seen some very valiant efforts. And,
I have seen your tears ..... and yet ..... you are not at the point to
truly trust God. But I can promise you -- you won't be disappointed if
you allow Jesus in to fill that HOLE.
From my point of view -- God has placed you very close and near to several women around you that love and adore you.
my point of view -- God has been 'whooing' you for several months and
your head and heart continue to 'fight' back and forth -- I think you
From my point of view -- you may think that seeking God -- means that all of your fun will disappear.
From my point of view -- you may think that 'church' is weird and you are perhaps a little scared.
my point of view -- I would agree with you -- 'church' can be
weird..... But God is not weird and seeking God is not 'church'.
Church is really the people.
Religion is man made.
Jesus was about showing and telling you HOW much you are loved and that HE died for you.
Jesus came -- that the 'fun'...won't stop.
came -- to fill that HOLE and the gap left by ..... unfaithful
boyfriends.... a dad that left...... friends that no longer speak to
But...there is a 'church' out there where you
can be fed God's Word, make friends and allow a few others to come into
your life....... and it will be good !
right now - if you stop and put some praise and worship music on-- ( I
suggest going to the Internet and finding Mercy Me's -- The Hurt and the Healer
song -- download it and play it several times while looking at or
reading the lyrics. )--you will find that praise helps us grow closer to
So, after your worship time.....Open up your
bible and if you don't have one - download the YOU Version Bible app on
your phone --
Read Jeremiah 33.11 -- over and over again in your mind .....
Then pray -- Lord,
I am at my end. I am scared and need to talk to someone ...I need to
have a mentor that will speak life into me. I need something to remind
me that I am worth dying for and that I am loved. Lord.....this may
seem awkward, as I feel I have prayed this prayer several times ---but I
need the strength now, and the courage to go to find one of those women
or go to church with one of those women You have placed around
me...Lord, I will trust that I will begin to find answers and LOVE as I
seek You. Lord, I need You -- as I am so tired of this life.....I am
unsure of 'which' church You will lead me to, but I will trust the
people ( heaven sent angels) around me as they watch over you. And
Lord, I want what I see in a few others around me. I want peace. I
want to KNOW that I KNOW -- YOU are God - and I want purpose within my
life. Lord, I will try my best to believe that You indeed are
interceding for me. Lord, I need you and am tired of these up and down
moments. Lord, I want to seek you and STAY focused on You. As I am
going to pray that the women around me will mentor me and I pray that as
I fall in love with You God - I am going to trust that my heart will be
healed as well --- and with that Lord, I will read Psalm 139 5x so
that I will see within Your written word that indeed -- I am YOUR
favorite. I am perfect in YOUR eyes. I am going to church this
weekend Lord....show me which one. And Lord, I will open my head and
heart to become involved with other people...as they create the church.
In Jesus name.
Today a prayer request was made known to me------
If this is for you -- and you want to meet up or chat -- please do - I am in the phone book.