Healing a Wounded heart - fresh perspective today!

Today is Sunday.  I had a tremendous blessing at church today. 

I want others to experience the JOY only HE can bring.

I want others to believe in something that CAN happen with HIS help.

I want people to have growing faith - that WHEN they get beyond their own hurt and crisis...they will then PRAY it forward and speak life into another.

I want all to know - HE will make a way when it seems like there is NO other way!  

Today, we had a prophet come an speak a word of knowledge into our church body and he reminded us that -- God wants to speak to us - all the time.  HE wants to USE our words and our language to draw His children back into Him.  

Psalm 34.18 says:  "the LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit".  

In my most darkest and broken hearted days -I did NOT want to get out of bed.

I did not want someone to tell me it was going to be 'ok'...I WANTED it fixed and yesterday!

I was TIRED of praying and waiting.

I WANTED answers and I wanted to know - that all would be well.

And on many of those days - I wanted GOD to come from heaven and SMACK some people around - I did -- I wanted JUSTICE...what the hell did I do to deserve this hurt?

This world is broken.  This is not our home.  I never did anything to 'deserve' this...but I was/am a sinner and  mercy is for the just and the unjust.... God showed me mercy.  I needed HIS mercy.

Unfortunately -- the only one that could really help me  was God Himself and He was at work - I just could not SEE it.  So then comes the TRUST factor.

In the middle of the hurt, I leaned more and more on my comforter - the Holy Spirit.  

On the days in which I just had NO MORE words to pray - I used and prayed in my time with God - in my prayer language.  It was something that the enemy had NO clue to -- he could NOT understand it - if he was listening.  

I say that as a reminder to myself...and to a woman I prayed with today -- she is tired and her words are few ...she needs a healing.    And -- I believe, God will answer.  

No matter what -- GOD can heal and restore.  God can and HE will.  HIS perfect will IS to restore a marriage.  It is.   We must be obedient.

No matter what the 'world' may say -- GOD hates divorce.  HE does.  As I told this woman, if there is physical abuse or a cause of fear for one's safety .....then GET OUT...but, God's will is to restore and to heal and redeem.

I could insert here MANY MANY MANY different %'s and statistics of marriages and what works and what does not -- but I could also copy/cut and paste at least 4 different testimonies right here of other couples that had IMPOSSIBLE situations  ( situations that make mine seem like a 'picnic') and God healed...GOD restored...and GOD redeemed and blessed.

They were obedient.  In some cases the wife waiting on the man.  In other's the man waiting on the women.  And even in one, they divorced and remarried 6 years later....amen.  God is creative.   God wins!

  God's will is to restore.  It just is.  THAT is HIS will.  HIS will is to have a man and a woman as ONE FLESH -- working together to be a union....to show the world HIS love for His church.   People just don't fall out of love.   Love is a verb - it is an action.

When they say 'I never loved you'...they are lying. When they say, 'they love another' - they are lying- that is not love  -- that is EGO and LUST.

 Hurting people hurt others and lie...they have to JUSTIFY what they are doing -- to make it seem 'ok'.  

 The Enemy is a liar and the enemy will make a person 'believe' that one never loved another....

        the enemy will make a person 'believe' that another will NEVER change....

   the enemy will make another believe that 'now they finally deserve someone better'........

     the enemy will continue to steal, kill and destroy -- cause he knows....WHAT God can do!

So with that, and with ALL assurance that GOD is CLOSE to the brokenhearted and HE will bind your wounds...I will say to you -- hang in there.....

But FIRST.....I had to get right with God.  I did know that Christ had died for my sins and I knew of HIS word...but I did not have a one to one relationship with God - where God /Jesus was my husband...my best friend....and the ONE I trusted.

Trusting is the first step.  Believing  in something that is unseen - is faith.

Today as I prayed with this special woman, she is at that point - she realizes and knows, she loved him more than HIM... and she realizes that right now she is the spiritual authroity in her home and there is much to do.  

She realizes that it will take time, but that she can't fix him - he is HIS.  He is in a battle and we pray that he will open his eyes to God's direction and the Holy Spirit's leading -- before it is too late.  In the meantime, she is going to stay focused on God and her children and I am oh so proud of God in her -- as she is taking this ordeal ...humbly and with all the dignity of a true wise woman of God.  She is indeed speaking loudly to that wayward husband -- and I am going to believe that he already sees in her -- what he knows he needs with God.  

Lord, I pray for the beautiful woman that I had the pleasure to pray with today.  Lord, that she gets a GOOD night's rest but that she will awake with a supernatural peace surrounding her.  Lord, I pray for her husband - sin has been revealed - may he come to realize that his choices continue to break the relationship he had with God, and that God will not change His mind -- as  he needs a saving touch - that he needs Jesus. Lord, there are children involved - hearts that are hurt that need comfort - interject Lord - I know you are RIGHT there  -- that they would see something within their mom -- YOUR Light and HOPE...  Lord, help her to get that new routine going of teaching those children how to pray for their dad and declare victory over the family, that will be reunited and that will be used by GOD to help others...  Lord, protect her thoughts - as the enemy is working HARD to discourage her and I pray that she will believe that our time of prayer  today is by NO accident - that she will dig deep into your word, refresh her relationship with You and allow YOU to be the husband for the moment -- and that she would believe YOU are working on him as well.  In Jesus name, amen.

Lord, I am humbled- Hopeful...encouraged..and committed to believe YOU will do it again!  I will continue to pray for those  couples around us and believe that YOU are at work, YOU will open the eyes of the ones who are deceived, and YOU will restore the others...and give courage to the ones that MUST seek some professional and godly help -- I believe.  I believe,  YOU WANT for them -- WHAT I now have with my husband...new soul ties...new love... and revelations that there was LOVE all that time....the the wife of the youth...is HIS will...that the current wife is GOD's will.... that the two married -- should remain.   amen.   GOD....wash them all clean....God that the ones that are NOT in relationship with you - would be miserable...until they SEEK you and if You see fit to use Brendan or myself within this.....then do it and we promise to be faithful to the Holy Spirit as He speaks to us - in Jesus name..amen.

michelle