BEHOLD, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is anything too difficult for me? Jeremiah 32.27
Is anything too difficult - NO!
I have seen a broken heart healed.
I have seen a broken family restored.
I have watched a person that loved God harden his heart.
I have felt like really hurting another physically, yet God granted me mercy and kept me still.
I have been so panic struck that I wanted to literally KILL something - and HE protected me.
I have been in situations where the Holy Spirit took over my voice box and I know that I know God spoke through me.
I have felt like the only hope was going to heaven......and He comforted.
I have been lied too - believed I was not good enough in God's eyes.
I believed lies cause I did not understand who I was in Christ.
I have seen miracles of healing happen right in front of my eyes.
I have seen others release baggage from YEARS of pain and hurt and be set free.
I have prayed with a young woman and watched how God's grace and mercy overcame her - and she was able to forgive a man that abused her.
I have been forgiven and redeemed.
I have been adopted by God and my name is in the Lamb's book of life.
I share all of that -- cause I realize that GOD can do anything....HE saved me.
Nothing is too difficult.
If you read my blog post yesterday, I had an incredible day at church.....blessed and humbled. But God brought to me another that needed to know -- GOD can do anything.
I have said it before -- I think that sometimes, women give up and give in too soon. Even men do this and divorce comes and many believe this is the better outcome.
From personal experience and LOTS of counsel -- the problems one is trying to get away from don't go away -- it will follow you -- satan is lying if he is telling you that 'things will be better with someone new'.
God's will IS to restore.
I won't say it is 'easy'. Restoration can only come when one has godly sorrow which leads to repentance and then....restoration and healing can come.
And I am NOT condemning....I realize that a miracle occurred within our family. But in some families peace only comes when a mom and dad separate. It is hard. God can bring beauty out of those ashes. I have seen it.
Unfortunately, we can not control the free will of another. Even God gave us Free will.
Free will sucks when you are a wife - desperate to 'save' a marriage.
However, free will is beautiful when that marriage is restored and the wife knows....he is back home and not because he was manipulated to do so -- because it was his free will to work at a marriage, to honor a commitment, and to seek God and HIS will.
Life stinks. We were not promised bliss -- we were promised much, but as the verse goes, it rains on the just and unjust - - the bottom line is that
WHEN we are brokenhearted --when there is something missing within our lives -- when we have idols that fill our lives - the only proper thing that can FILL that missing part - ---
the only proper person that can truly heal us ---
the only way we can see and believe that Nothing is TOO difficult for God -- is IF we TRUST HIM.
Our trust has to be in God.
Jeremiah 17. 5-6 says:
Cursed is the one who trusts in man , who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord. He will be like a bush in the wastelands, he will not see prosperity when it comes and he will dwell in the parched places of the desert.
Jeremiah 17. 7-8:
Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him. He will be like a tree planted near water, he does not fear when fire comes and there are no worries of drought!
As my sister and my mom will say, "everyone has their own path and journey". I on the other hand agree but I want to SPEED it up .....
I have 'healed pain'...which in some sense is wisdom. I know it really took me a LONG time to understand that I did not trust God. I had idols. Many. It took me a long time to understand that I COULD not depend on man ....or my flesh for strength as -- that died. That idol had to be 'killed'.
It was only when I took that leap of faith and told my self OVER and OVER and OVER....that God was going to win. God would take PERFECT care of me and God would make sure -- I was going to be fine.
How does this look like to the outside world?
You would of seen me writing down scripture upon scripture verse in my spiral in my purse.
You would of seen me alone in my bedroom, pacing and singing to the TOP of my lungs to some very specific Christian music that spoke life.
You would see me talking to God - often in my mirror -- even shaking my fist at God -- and then seeking HIS forgiveness as I was just trying to make some sense of stuff. God knew I was mad at Him -- so speaking it and allowing the Holy Spirit to speak back at me......was therapy.
I did bible studies -- I totally recommend Kay Arthur's "heal my hurts".
I called a few Christian friends that let me vent and then they'd pray.
I would fall asleep with my bible tucked under my blanket.
I read and reread Psalms and wrote and wrote prayers for me, for my kids..and others.
I posted scripture on Facebook that SPOKE to me that day and soaked up any wisdom that my Christian sister's would post on my wall.
I went to church - anytime the doors were open -- seeking prayer...worshiping...crying...and believing that stuff would eventually be ok.
I would pray and speak out WHAT I wanted from God and remind God of His promises to me.
I read book upon book - that spoke of God's promises and helped me deal with my hurt.
I kept busy.
I also paid attention to others that I could pray for and encourage.
Why am I sharing all of this tonight -- ????
I am encouraging a new friend --
I am encouraging another -- as when I sought help, reading WHAT other women of faith did....reading other 'success' stories....blessed me and gave me HOPE.
So I pray this blog Post this eve...gives that one HOPE.
I also pray it ministers to another -- God is THAT big.
He may of directed a TOTAL stranger to this sight -- I believe He restored me and redeemed us -- cause HE wants us to let others know -- NOTHING is too difficult for HIM!
I love you Lord.