I think I am posting this one today as well. I believe that tomorrow is going to be busy and If I don't get time to post prayer #22 -- this one will do --as I believe I have to share it.
Today the enemy got to me big time.
Yesterday I helped TP clean out some stuff in her classroom and I found a old photo of her dad from 4 years ago. I will be completely honest - why would I lie? I guess I am sharing something personal. ( Lord, protect this.) He was wearing his favorite blue and green plaid Polo shirt. A WHOLE bunch of memories were triggered up.
You see - I destroyed that shirt in a really BAD mood - um 3 years ago. Piece by piece in a fit of anger and rage. It is a memory that is very clear in my head.
It is in the past. But....those triggers.... It took me a good 2-3 hours of prayer and faith - to get past the 'past thoughts' that wanted to creep into my head. Well - they creeped in and sat for only but a moment but I had to REPLACE them and get RID of them.
I think I am to post this today, and share because -- another person out there reading this -- needs to know that LIFE sucks at times and even though we forgive a hurt and move forward--- forgetting does not completely happen. There are probably some memories that you won't forget. They can be a reminder of pain if you let them, or they can be the 'thorn' that keeps you humble. I mean -- I hardly go backwards anymore....but when I do -- Do you know what gets me 'out' of those thoughts quickly?
I think of Jesus on that cross - and what I DID...to HIM...not what was 'done' to me.
I think FAR too many people STAY in that pity party and STAY in that -- I have a problem - LOOK what happened to me --- and they won't get beyond it.
I CHOOSE to move forward - I choose to keep those problems in the past. I don't want God reminding me of my past EVERY day....with every moment!
But - the enemy has a lot at stake....I have been praying and sending out extra invites to a Bible study next month called GIrls with SWordS at my church and, I have been proclaiming a victory in a few other prayer requests and so, I am sure Satan just wanted to ADD in a bit more strife.
I had a cool moment with my #1 first born today - as she was sharing about HOW the enemy had attacked her about her past....when she dug through some UF notebooks and stuff from 4 years ago - it triggered a different memory with her. But - praise God, she shared - I shared - and well, GOD won.
We had both put our triggers to prayer earlier in the day before we got to a chatting in her new classroom, and we both were singing praise and worship music as we worked in her room, and we both then shared our hearts -- and confirmed to each other -- that God wins.
It was JUST the Enemy that attacked again.
She is getting ready to START her career -- and SHE will be bold for HIM - of course the enemy is scared. Satan hates my daughter. Satan hates me.
As I said, I am getting ready for another Encounter Weekend - and this new bible study...so ...of course the enemy is scared.
But that is OK -- that is what we WANT to be ...Girls with Swords -- warriors for HIM - in the battle.
So this prayer is simple --