Day #16 - Prayers for a Sister in Crisis - Quitting.

The Holy Spirit spoke to me on two topics today.  And one of those topics was "quitting".  This past week, many teachers, including me, had to start all over again.  The week and a half off - had kids forgetting routines and procedures and so it felt like starting over on Monday and by today -- only "hump day" - I was already quite TIRED.  But -- routines help make a classroom run smoothly and utilizing the time we have for instruction the best way possible.  In setting up a room, I even place furniture around the room to have the best traffic flow -- every detail is thought of.  

Our lives -- many times we have to control every detail and that causes a crisis.  Sometimes we never had control which causes a crisis.  And other times -- you just don't know what happened and there is a crisis.  Beth Moore speak/talks about being in a PIT.  And whether you placed yourself in there, or if you fell into that PIT, or if another PUT you in that PIT -- you are in a pit.  Period.  However, God wastes nothing and you will get beyond this.  

But what about a day when you just REALLY just want to quit?   The Lord brought me to this post, that I wrote back in November of 2011.  Almost six years ago.  

Read on -
So -   when does one quit.... ???

I was mixing up some cookie batter to roll out some cookies.  The Youth Group at Church is  having a bake sale.  I successfully stirred up 2 batches of my Grandma's roll out cookies and used up all the flour.  So, I put the eggs, sugar, and butter in the mixer and turned it on to 'cream' .....  and I turned around to grab the new bag of flour out of the pantry and in the 45 seconds it took to grab it, I turned around to see this....

...the bowl was practically off the mixing stand and the batter had crawled up the sides of the bowl and was flying out.. it was everywhere...   there was a centrifugal force of that sweet yellow butter,sugar, and egg cream.....   the dog was even covered but I could not grab her fast enough to get a photo.

Clean up time...  quitting time.......

I could not establish how much batter was really left in the bowl so I quit.  I cleaned.

I got to thinking - there is a life lesson in this.  And there was.

My life goes up and down.  One day I am so strong and the next, a little thing can set me back.  I kept asking God this morning -- 'what'????    HE reminded me of HIS security.

I am secure in HIS love.  I am HIS.
God reminded me HE wins.  HE does not quit....  HE could of scooped up the batter and added flour and made some really good cookies, but I would of needed HIS divine HELP.... I would need some supernatural power.

Right now, on this Earth - I can access that.

 I cleaned up the batter and knew HE was there, always scraping my feelings up of this or that - what has been splattered here and there and HE adds to me and makes me whole again, tasting sweet.  IT is HIM.  Not... what this person says or does for me. Not what I am expecting from this one or that one.  Not what I can do on my own -- it is HIM.  ONLY HIM.  HE has to do it.

HE reminded me today, that quitting is NOT an option.   Which is very funny because   last night at a certain point..... because of a certain thing.... I had really thought about quitting.  For the first time in this journey since we decided to reconcile--I have wanted to quit.   I have asked, "can I?"

 But last night, the  Enemy really got in my head and really made me feel that quitting would be easier.  That dart came - and it was grabbed and held at bay -- not by me --- by the Holy Spirit.  HE reminded me of past victories and HIS plan is always good.  HE reminded me of the reward awaiting -- to see a whole family restored.  So, last night before I finally closed my eyes......  I asked God for a fresh new start today.

HE answered -- this am, I find it interesting that the thought of "I am quitting"..    is now like a distant thought, but it did bring me back to the Cross...... we can't do anything without HIS help.

 I can't worry about tomorrow- HE is my security.  I can't allow the Enemy to put thoughts of quitting in me - I will renew my mind.  Every moment -- Every minute.

Maybe this will bless you today -- if you read to the end.

God answers prayers.  HE allows hurt and pain -- for a reason -- so we rely totally on HIM and HIM only.    When we are restless - we need to SEEK HIM more.  WHEN we don't know what to do - we TURN to HIM.

And it is God who establishes us with  you in Christ, and has anointed us, and who has also put his seal on us and give us his Spirit in our hearts as a guarantee ---2 Corn 1.21-22

The Holy Spirit is our guarantee -- HE is fighting for us and HE gave us the Holy Spirit to lead and guide us while we are here... so when we want to quit, we know that we know, that is not what our Lord wants.  And so that we know,  HE will come and add scrape us up -  and add what is needed so that we are sweet and whole again.  HE restores.

Thank You Lord,  YOUR love makes me smile.

You know Lord, that the  Enemy really wants to beat me up today - do me a favor and kick him into hell - thanks, michelle



That was my post -- as I re-posted and edited it a bit for today -- I prayed:  

Lord, for that sweet sister that wants to give up -- and quit.  Lord, GRAB those darts and thoughts like I had and like YOU did for me...do it for her today, and may she come back to this blog prayer and be reminded that YOU are fighting for her....IN Jesus name, Amen