I drifted for so long - thinking I knew it-- thinking I had it figured it out!
My dear friend said something to me yesterday..."I was sleep walking for so much of my Christian life".... and that statement makes complete sense.
I believe God is so gracious cause HE knew I had no clue but still allowed me to live and claim HIM mine. But finally one day -- there came a time when the hurt was just so HARD. And there came a time when I really wanted to be TRANSPORTED to heaven - immediately. I DID not want to live any longer.
I would not of ...nor did I think of taking my life....but - I WANTED to be gone.
Sometimes the hurt is THAT bad. I don't claim to have suffered the 'worst' hurt...I would never compare my hurts to another - we all have different points at which we want out - we all have different demons and we are all at different places. But - in those times, when we SEEK HIM...HE comes and HIS word is life.
That is all - won't elaborate too much on this -- it is God's word that is praying today.
This is a prayer that I have posted on my computer. The Catholic in me takes comfort in repeating a prayer -- HIS words. I can adjust this prayer to meet ANY type of prayer request.
I challenge you -- if you are in a difficult marriage, if that BOMB has dropped and you are at the lowest part within your own life...even if it has NOTHING to do with your spouse...speak God's word into your heart and thoughts....mediate on it. Allow it to breathe new HOPE and life into you -- HE longs to speak to you personally.
Fill in the blanks with YOUR name....put your spouse's name in there or a loved one. If Salvation is needed for that loved one -- this is a prayer for that too.
Lord, I pray that as I continue to share a prayer each day for the beauty of marriage...for the enduring power of marriage...for just the pure reason that YOU created marriage...God I pray this is reaching EXACTLY whom You have drawn here -- to this blog. God, empty me of me...this is not about me...but an expression of YOU...I want to be used ... I want to reach YOUR people like other women reached me via written word and expression -- may their lives change like mine did. But it has to be all of you -- amen. Thank you Lord, humbly - Michelle