Forgive me for restating this again, I don't ever want to write something that just rambles nor use this avenue to vent or hurt. I write cause it gives me a chance to speak to God in a medium where -- it may help another.
I read several blogs. Two blogs in particular kept me sane when I wanted to bolt and quit. So therefore, I hope and I guess I believe that my blog can help another.
This letter came to me today -- I pray ti will be read, bring hope and minister to a heart. I also pray that it will be shared with the one who needs to read it --as God's Word heals.
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To Whom it May Concern:
I see you there -- under attack. You can't believe this has happened and you can't believe the role and part that you played in this. You believe there is nothing you can do at this moment to fix it, nor do you believe you have the strength to fix it. Fear. The enemy wants to keep you in fear of your own actions and of the consequences you believe will follow. However -- there is hope.... Your mighty God is right there - next to you --I promise. I want you to picture yourself, looking around -- and --
after I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, "Don't be afraid of them. Remember the LORD, who is great and awesome, and then FIGHT for your families, your sons, your daughters, your wives ( husbands ) , and for your home.". Nehemiah 4.14
I see you there -- believing there is no way you can stand up in this season. You have been hit hard with something that seems will destroy you and you feel you are under qualified to take on this task. You are not good enough. You sinned for far to long and you now deserve this consequence. You are believing the lies of the enemy that God does not want you as happy as you could of been. You are believing the lies that "this is my life now"...... No...No... God can and will bring beauty out of these ashes. There is hope ..... Your mighty God is right there - next to you-- I promise. I want you to get alone with God and memorize His words ---
Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you -- 1 Peter 5.7
However, the LORD, your God would not listen to Balaam ( the enemy) but turned the curse into a blessing for you, because the LORD Your God loves you! Deut. 23.5
I see you there -- by yourself thinking about mean things. You can't believe that 'this' is your fate. You did not see it coming and yet, you did and feel like you did nothing to stop it. This is a mean world we live in and Satan had you -- hook, line, and sinker...until something reminded you of Your eternal home and you ran.... to save your life. You are now in the light. The sin is exposed and so therefore -- there is NO condemnation in Christ Jesus. However, you have to live and walk in this mean world and it seems to overcome you and bog you down. But I promise - there is hope. There will be a silver lining and what you think will happen -- is only the beginning. Your God will bring beauty and one day you will look back to this time, and smile as you will clearly see His goodness in the land of the living. And you will sit with another and hand her this letter and remind her -- that --
This charge I entrust you to you beloved, my child, in accordance with the prophecies previously made about you, that by them you may wage the good warfare, holding faith and a good conscience, by rejecting this, some have made shipwreck of their faith. 1 Timothy 1. 18-19. ( So don't lose faith.)
I see you there -- by yourself feeling like the shadow of her will overtake you. I see you there, feeling the shadow of him will overtake you. I see you there - feeling the shadow of it will overtake you -- how can you walk now in this shadow? I will tell you- you are not in a shadow. That is the enemy's way of keeping you in this bondage and guilt. It is time to forgive - forgive yourself first and then seek the forgiveness of others in His time. Seek God and make sure that He and You have that direct line of communication again. Remind Him, that you are no longer going to walk in that sin -- that you are not sinless -- but THAT sin is over, and that You will need HIS help to continue to overcome it daily ... So, in that thought - think about sitting in the shadow of the Most High God - Your Father, Your King....and believe His Word:
whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High- will REST in the shadow of the Almighty. Psalm 91.1
See, there is great victory now. You may not see it -- cause the enemy wants you to feel underrated and stuck within the consequences of this; however, as I have stated before - God will bring beauty out of these ashes. Do not give up the promise God has given you, what HE placed into Your head and heart to believe -- believe on that. However, in the waiting time for His promise to be fulfilled -- concentrate on Him and allow Him to rebuild you, to hold you, to love you so audaciously that no matter what -- You walk in Him and can smile and know, that it is well within your soul---cause no matter what - HE is a Good Good Father. And ponder on this:
He has made everything beautiful in its time. he also set eternity into the human heart: yet no one can fathom what God has done from the beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3.11
I see you there--awaiting....waiting....and wanting.... You are thinking, how can you now move forward - but you can. You are thinking, what do I do now? God will show you. And you are grieving -- which is important to do but don't lose hope. God can turn situations around so quickly and when something is not of God's perfect will - I believe He, our Almighty God, has not stopped fighting for YOU -- HE is Your Knight in Shining Armor. He sees your passion and pain and He will give you the patience to endure and wait on HIM! And as you wait, be reminded that Your Heavenly Father has been waiting and longing for You to return to Him for an even LONGER time.
Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you: therefore he will rise up to show you compassion, for the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for HIM! Isaiah 30.18
I see you there, wondering HOW it will happen -- HOW can I face today, let alone tomorrow. HOW will this circumstance ever be 'good'. HOW will I wait and HOW will the Lord bring beauty out of these ashes.... The glorious relief is this -- You are not responsible. You are NOT the one that has to do it.... God will. Listen:
If this is so, then the LORD knows HOW to rescue the godly from trails and to hold the unrighteous for punishment on the day of judgement. 2 Peter 2.9 ( So, God will. )
For He knows how we were formed, He remembers that we are dust. Psalm 103.14 ( So He knows we are human and we can't fix -- but HE can and HE will.)
I see you there -- and I am praying for you.
I see you there - and I will stand in the gap with you and wait.
I see you there -- and I know from my own life -- God wins.
I see you there and believe...... one day we will look back on this and know - HE orchestrated it all for our good.
One day we will praise Him for this storm...until then, we will 'faith' it and sing praise until we can feel it within our bones.
There is HOPE -- hang in there --